Palamon
Silence is Purple
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- Age 27
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- Snezhnaya, Teyvat.
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I need to rant a bit about "perfection."
I noticed this awhile ago, but I've been saying "perfection" a lot lately. I don't know why I say it. I don't know where it comes from, but I both type it and say it. It's something I questions constantly when I'm being bothered by my identity. And then I realized something else. Everything has to be perfect for me. Not people, but I feel like everything I do has to be perfect. The avatars I make, the stories I write out, the work I do in school, etcetera. It has to be perfect. I don't particularly care about perfection in other people. It's okay. But for me, I feel like I have to do everything accordingly perfect in my sense.
I don't know... lately I felt like I'm not good enough. Nothing I do is good enough? I don't know what else I'm supposed to say, but I just feel like I'm not good enough. Everything I do is incompetent, and that I have to do better. It's a complicated and annoying feeling.
What's the point of trying so hard when I know that no one can be "perfect"? I don't know. I just feel like I can do better. I don't put in enough effort, and that I'm incompetent. Maybe once my identity issues get better, this'll go away.
I noticed this awhile ago, but I've been saying "perfection" a lot lately. I don't know why I say it. I don't know where it comes from, but I both type it and say it. It's something I questions constantly when I'm being bothered by my identity. And then I realized something else. Everything has to be perfect for me. Not people, but I feel like everything I do has to be perfect. The avatars I make, the stories I write out, the work I do in school, etcetera. It has to be perfect. I don't particularly care about perfection in other people. It's okay. But for me, I feel like I have to do everything accordingly perfect in my sense.
I don't know... lately I felt like I'm not good enough. Nothing I do is good enough? I don't know what else I'm supposed to say, but I just feel like I'm not good enough. Everything I do is incompetent, and that I have to do better. It's a complicated and annoying feeling.
What's the point of trying so hard when I know that no one can be "perfect"? I don't know. I just feel like I can do better. I don't put in enough effort, and that I'm incompetent. Maybe once my identity issues get better, this'll go away.