I feel silly doing this.... posting here even though from what I've gathered your gone. I shouldn't say that though it's not right after all, alot of peole cared about you, alot of really good friends of mine cared about you so in a way, silly or not, it feels right to tell you some things and pay my respects.
If you are watching over the people here then you probably know about the whole situation that happened, alot of people got upset and I don't think your family, or more like our family now, will recover anytime soon, if we recover at all. I'm a year yonger then you were, fourteen, fifteen soon. Hearing about what happened to you makes me think and understand that we don't always get the chance we want in life, and thats not fair.
I came to PC about three months before you passed, from what I've heard you were a wonderful person, I wish I knew you better, or knew you at all... but it seems unlikely I'll get the chance now. I've been thinking and you actually slightly remind me of myself. I left PC for awhile and you were gone when I came back. I almost feel like I replaced you in a way, as a part of the social structure of our family I in a way took your place as someone people could turn to, at least I think I did. I consider myself smart like your about me says you did so I think I may have done what I said, if even just slightly. Though I'm certain everyone probably liked you more and under my watch the familys effectively fallen apart I still believe I may have uknowingly taken your place somehow, so I'm sorry but if you're really like me then you'll understand what I'm trying to say :)
I know you care about them and even though I've done a pretty lousy job so far I promise that until I'm the only one left here, I'll try to watch over and take care of them.
It was nice talking to you Marina, but I think this VM is already wierdly long. I'll try to visit you again some time, I promise. But heres something to remember...
To care about something is to let it go, and to let something go is to show an act more selfless than anything imaginable. Sometimes the strong must appear weak to be stronger overall.
R.I.P.
~AR