Caite-chan

Thanks :) I'm already doing okay, I just still have a small bruise on my neck.

yeah for sure! we'll have to find a way to reconcile cause I've been post counting and it's TEDIOUS. but we can theorize ways to work it out! lemme get a group PM started with tokyodrift so we can hash this out!

I might PM you with some ideas lol

Well you can count me in for any events and advertising to help! We have a similar 'raise a pokemon' thread in M&G.. maybe we can merge them somehow? I'll have to talk to tokyodrift about it but if you check out the thread it's basically a watered down version of the VPP. Maybe we can combine the threads entirely and every new user's first five points count for double?? I dunno I'm just spit balling ideas here but I think there's definitely potential here!

Oh definitely! I wouldn't mind that as long as there's no other takers. But if anyone else says they're interested in a tag team with you please please please give them priority over me. It's only fair, imo!

If we don't hear anything in, say, two days then heck yeah let's team up again! (｡'▽'｡)♡ Sound like a good compromise?

Happy birthday~! <33

I think today is your birthday. I wish you a wonderful one!! Hooray!

Wow oh my gosh, I'm very flattered to hear that!! (*o*) Especially coming from one of the best WTP players out there! ;) I'm still thankful that you stuck around with the game for so long—your Master Rank achievement was absolutely well-deserved! :D

By the way, there's a little something waiting for ya in the VPP thread! It's not quite the event I mentioned a while ago (will get back to you on that!!), but I hope this will make up for it in the meantime! Thanks so much for bearing with me and my slowness. <3

you've always been such a ray of sunshine. thank you for making me smile and feel welcomed again. <33

I did not actually!

Sorry for not responding sooner! I didn't get online because I was really depressed yesterday.

Yeah, meds can really mess with you. Especially if you're on so many...which I definitely can see being the case, honestly. And there's not much better than your workplace having your back regarding this stuff. It's a really reassuring feeling. Sadly I can't say that my workplace works the same way, but they're extremely...bureaucratic, I guess you could say? They employ so many people and have so many people in their workforce so they have to be very strict and specific with their rules and regulations. So it's understandable...they can't really judge things on a case by case basis, they seem to have some kind of procedure regarding most situations.

I completely understand feeling weird about taking off for emotional reasons, despite how major they may actually be. We're socialized and raised to put our mental health second when it comes to the workplace, unfortunately. :\
I mean, you were acting in her best wishes. It's not as if you knew what was going to happen, I'm sure that caught everyone off-guard. You can't really plan tragedy. Now if she were terminally ill, that would have been one thing...but that doesn't seem to have been the case, honestly. Still, unplanned things like that are some of the hardest to recover from

Yeah, with that in mind it sounds like death might be a tiny bit less of a taboo for you. :o Which honestly can be good, it can really help to prepare you for things like this. It's really cool that you have that mindset, honestly. I'd like to think I'd feel the same if someone really close to me passed, but seeing how easily I can get triggered by the most ordinary, mundane things...who knows, I suppose.

Geez. Just. I wouldn't wish that kind of thing on my worst enemies. Just want you to know it takes a really, really strong person to get through something like this as well as you've been seeming to get through it. It's even worse that it sounds like something that might have been able to be avoided, at least if I'm understanding correctly. Knowing me, if I were in that position I'd be blaming myself for a long time. Not saying that's healthy or how you should cope though, of course! Cause it's not true, after all how would you have even known something like this would happen? It's like, the worst version of the butterfly effect. Just saying knowing how I tend to handle things, that would be the direction my mind would go towards at first. Sorry if that came out wrong, definitely didn't intend it how it might have sounded.

Regardless of the root cause, it sounds like she may have had a lot of health complications to begin with, so I'm sure that made it harder for her body to fight it, perhaps. Still doesn't make going through this ANY easier for you though, not at all. I'm glad you seem to be doing so well, and I'm really happy you've stayed with a community of friends and people that love and care for you in such a trying time. It's really easy to want to withdraw into yourself when dealing with trauma like this and that can be very dangerous, so I'm glad for you in that regard. <3

Man, my deepest condolences. Really. That's something that's really hard to hear. I'm not up to date on the front with your mom though, was she really sick? If you don't mind me asking, certainly don't have to answer if it's still a touchy subject for you. It's so cool that you have so many people that care so much about you and have been there for you, though. Nothing in the world helps more than that, imho. Did you guys have the same workplace or something?

Exactly my point! Hopefully I'll be able to make some new friends here, I think that would be fun and very good for my mental health as of late. Winter depression and all, y'know? And yeah, having a community in which you don't feel intimidated is just so important to me. I tried to get back into Pokefarm, but I just couldn't because the staff can be so strict with some of the tiniest things, and quite a few of the higher ups can be major pricks and honestly have no social tact at all. They haven't figured out how to professionally deal with conflict other than to smart off at people. This is a digital medium, there's no reason why you can't just put on a polite and amicable demeanor when dealing with conflicts. You don't have to respond immediately; the beauty of communicating via forums is that you. Have. The. Time. To. Come back and respond when you're cooled down. They act very exclusive and it always rubs me the wrong way. You can have a great community, but if your admins are pricks then yeah no bye, I'm out. :p Like geez. Some of these admins are older than me and their emotional maturity is 10 years under even just mine. ONE TIME I HAD TO TELL A MODERATOR OFF (politely) for calling me an art thief for some ungodly reason. You?? Do not?? Call me??? An art thief??? It was because I was making works that were derivative, despite the fact that they allow sprite edits like it's nothing. But yeah, I never got an apology for mislabeling me or anything. I'm telling you man, those people as a whole are kinda full of themselves...

Wow that ended up way longer than I thought it would. :p I needed to get that out xD

Man I love this place so far! Everyone seems so kind and easy to get along with. I realize now how much I miss the forum scene and actually having an active social life xD

Shoot, VPP is a thing here? I'm gonna go check that out, I love VPP <3

Right though? I haven't been on PXR much, or any forum for that matter. The only reason I came here was because the art community is pretty active, and I really wanted to get some help on my hi-res sprite project since I really wanted to work on finishing it. One region at a time though xD HOW'S YOU BEEEN.

What. Is. Upppppp

(It's Speed-X lol)

Ohhh, haha, that explains it! No worries!

Hi, Caite! :) I received a notification from you, but when I click it, the page it leads me to says I'm not authorised to be there.