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Oh, I hope so. And yeah, that's what my dad said too. It's so cool how my dad is cool about all this, after I told him I thought he'd be like "No. NonononoNEIN." But he's actually being awesome about it. He even paid for the express mail for it to get to Cali by Monday x] Anyway, so he was like, on the phone with me going, "Yeah, you do realise that he's not going to be able to read it all right away, right? He'll probably read it on the bus/between concerts/in the hotel." And I was like, "Yeah, geez, of course." I'm fine with it taking a while to get through. I can wait forever for him, y'know? I waited almost seventeen years to find my love, a few more months won't kill me :]

They did! And I didn't even know about them until May ;-; I pit pictures of Schrei!Bill in the journal and I was like, "That's when I wish I could have known you, because we'd have so much fun growing up together." I mean it's easier to imagine being with him as a kid cuz you can see yourself like throwing stuff at each other and stealing Bill's eyeliner and stuff xD Not that I can't see that now but it's easier when he was a little kid because then he'd throw a diva fit xD Now he's just like *takes out nails* "Watch it." xD But yeah, I've been looking at old pictures I have (speaking of which, I really have to organize my TH pictures into folders...I feel like a stalker xD) and seeing him in like his orange pinstripe pants and stuff and going, "...aww. He was just too adorable." x]

Yeah, hopefully xD There's this one annoying teenie on Mibba who goes, "Well, think about it this way: BILL KAULITZ (that alone should make you spaz) OWNS SOMETHING OF YOURS." But, uh, no .___. I mean, seriously? No. That's not going to do anything for me. His celebrity persona isn't what I fell in love with. Which reminds me, I was watching this totally hilarious Georg video the other night that Liz (best friend) sent me and there's this part in the middle where Bill stumbles off to the bathroom after he just woke up and he's like a zombie and tired and stuff and his hair's all messed up and I just went off into a love haze x] Here, let me find it, I favorited it xD

Oh wait, I found this one we were watching the other night, too, it's frickin' hilarious:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xkIsa6kJC5Q
I've never seen "Dude Where's My Car?" so I don't really get it but their motions matched up perfectly and I love the audio xDDDD I was dying laughing the whole way through it.

Here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqSemPXauYE

So the part where Bill was all "don't touch me I just woke up" had me in a love haze. And I was cracking up the rest of the time xDDDD

I know, it hasn't hit me yet. I'm still like, "...he has it? He put his hands on my journal? Uwaaa...?" It hasn't really gotten to me yet. I don't think it will until he mentions it on THtv/an interview or whatever xD

Well, he might not have started reading it yet. He got a lot of stuff at the signing .___. But it was mostly shirts and stuff, there were some other small journals but they were like pictures and stuff, not anything like I made. I think it's hilarious how he kept it by his side after Aislinn gave it to him, then the security took it and put it behind the table xD But yeah, his face is too adorable when he gets it x]

Uwaaa...I wish it would just hurry up and hit me xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTELXB7uTfw

*will reply to other comment*

OH MY GOD.
She just gave it to him.
She said, "This is for you, please read it."
And he smiled and said, "Okay, thank you."
...it hasn't sunk in yet.
I'm not shaking or passing out or anything.
I don't know what to do with myself @_@

You're welcome :]
Yeah, same thing here, it breaks my heart when Bill is sad ;-; Tom, too. Just in a more brotherly way xD

Yup, I'm never attempting suicide again D: And yeah, same here. I never thought I'd like guys with tattoos and piercings and stuff because I don't like those things but Bill came along and it was like *omgomgomg* but not in the teenie way, y'know? xD

Yeah, I'm so excited x] Mhm, I've been thinking all about that. I'm hoping he doesn't mention it in an interview because of that xD I told him at first that it would be nice if he let me know somehow that he read it, like on THtv or something, but then I told him never mind because I trusted him to read it xD So hopefully he won't mention anything except that he really loves it and whatever, because if anyone knows what's inside...teenie-hysteria @_@

I think you should go where you want to in life. If you don't like medicine, don't go into it, simple as that. I'm going into languages even though my mom wants me to do more writing and shizz. She doesn't want me to do languages in media, she wants me to do it in politics, but...ew. No.

...oh wow, I'm in love with "Noise" off of Humanoid. The part where he sings "Can you feel it? Can you feel it?" The harmony and melody is beautiful together @_@ Seriously, I just had like a music orgasm. I'm a sucker for really great-sounding stuff like that. I'm going to go back and listen to it again like 15 times in a row xD

Yup, I just sent it to my friend to put in the journal =P And don't worry, I credited you xD

Well yeah, but my mom doesn't know anything about the whole 'I was suicidal' thing and so yeah. She'd freak if some random German boy with tattoos and piercings who she had never seen before showed up at the door and took me away. I have no clue how this is going to work xD But I'll make it work, y'know? =P

Yeah, it was a lot of work and thought and I do hope no one's ever thought of that before because then it makes it different. Oh gosh, at 10.00 my time the signing will be going on @_@ And tomorrow he'll (probably) be reading it. It just doesn't seem real. It's like...like it's not really happening and I'm just pretending it is. But it really is happening, huh? Aislinn (the girl who's going to the signing) says she's going to record everything at the signing xD And Bill's reaction when he gets the journal. And then she'll send it to me. I'll be so antsy because it will be like Friday before I get the message since I'll be asleep, and I won't be able to focus in school xD Good thing I had exams today and on Monday but not tomorrow because I would fail them all xD So yeah, the video should make it more real =P

Yeah, my camera sucks xD I have to try and save up some money for a video camera :/ That or the studio where I can synth my voice xD

One more day and I can't stand waiting ::inlove: And you're welcome :] Send it to [email protected] before midnight tonight because I'm going to be asking my friend to write another entry in the journal for me. I'm writing the entry but I'm sending it to her to write in there xD So if you send it before midnight, then I should be able to tell her to put it in x]

That would be...*disappears into no-words-to-accurately-describe-feelings corner* I really hope that does happen, I mean I want to go to college and be a German-English translator and everything but I also want to study abroad so I could be with him xD But yeah, I'd love that. Except I would never be able to go back home if he took me away >.> Because my mom would freak =P

SO. Bill and I both have some thinking to do. I can't get over the fact that tomorrow he'll know who I am and he'll be thinking of me...so many girls say that but he really will be thinking of me, as in me Savannah x]

Thank you :] I uploaded tons more xD But yeah, I like doing covers a lot, and my classical guitar is being nice to me so yeah. Thanks for the compliment, tho x]

I know, my stomach is doing flips and I can't focus, it's all like...BLAH!!!!

Yeah, that's fine xD And if you email it to me, I'll probably get it and I can give it to him :] As long as he does something about the journal, like, you know, comes for me or something. That sounds like a sweet song.

Oh, about my singing...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smA1rUXkPGQ
*hides*

HEY YO DUDE

GUESS WHO'S FRIEND IS GOING TO A TH SIGNING IN CALIFORNIA AND GIVING THE JOURNAL TO BIU???

Yeah, that's right x]

I can't waittttt.

Well, it has some truth to it XD

Doctors taking out blood?
But yeah, witchcraft accusations would've been pretty bad, especially if you weighed the same as a duck.

Living in the seventeen hundreds would've sucked ass.

Yeah, exactly xD It's funny, the other day me and my friend Briauna had this whole ten-minute discussion on Pokemon xD She was like, "And I remember that one Squirtle gang" and stuff like that and we were cracking up from all the stuff we remembered and everyone else just looked at us weird which was totally okay xDDD Well, actually my real name is Rachel but I'm planning to get it changed ASAP because I hate it hate it hate it and love the name Savannah so much more :] I think it's because they're brothers and they're supposed to tease each other xD Like, my sister always says "You're a terrible singer" jokingly but I'm really not. That sounds so much like bragging xD But yeah. I can sing. She just loves teasing me. And then I call her fat and we laugh and yeah.

Yeah, like that xD I don't use it much because of that, but I seriously need new eyeliner D: I feel so weird without it. Last year I wore it pretty much every day and it was kind of my thing, the thing people knew about me. That I wore scene makeup and whatnot. My dad is like, "You shouldn't buy makeup from them, they're not a makeup store. Stick to the makeup stores for the makeup, like CVS and such." Yeah, you're right, the Beichte bass is awesome too :]

Yeah, they're pretty dumb which is why I don't like writing it xD OH GOSH. Roiben + Kaye from Tithe? OH EM GEE. I love that series @.@ I'm planning on buying all three books when I have money xD That was just a trilogy made of epicness. Thank you :] I love posting my stuff up places, especially Mibba because everyone there (well, not everyone, but a lot of people) is a terrible writer xD So they're always like, "YOU'RE SO GOOD @.@" I do love con-crit and I have a couple people who con-crit for me so I'm not like losing my talent or anything xD

Mhm, and just reading the hate mail will be entertaining >:] It'll be like, "You're fat, you're ugly, you're stupid" and I'll just be like "Then why am I dating Bill Kaulitz, ****ahs?" xD And OH EM GEE AGAIN. I'm getting my eyebrow pierced too xDDDD I do admit that it was Bill who gave me the idea at first. I saw it and didn't think much of it, then me and my "sister" Aly were talking and we were like, talking about piercings and what I would look good in and at first it was the Monroe but then I was like, "Uh, that might hurt a lot D:" and I just wouldn't want one. Then we started talking about eyebrow...and I was like, "That would look so epic, but what if Bill thinks I did it to copy him?" and Aly said, "Well, a ton of girls have their eyebrows pierced, and I have my lip pierced, and I don't like Tom, so it shouldn't be a huge deal." And I'm soooooo not getting it on my right eyebrow because Bill's is on his right and I don't want to clash when we're kissing *that'salie* xDDDD

Yeah, I like their German versions better x] They mean so much more because it's the way they wrote them and they haven't been adapted in any way. Plus the fact that I adore the German language/culture and always have so I love hearing it x] It's like, if I wrote a song in English and then translated it into German it would be harder for me to sing the German because German is my second language, not my first, and so sometimes I don't really know the meaning of everything as well as I would in English. Like, in English you can pretty much put any words in any order as long as they still make some kind of sense and I'll know what they mean but in German it's a bit difficult because I don't understand it as well as English. It's hard to explain but I think you get it xD And yeah. Music has always been a huge part of my life. It's not from anyone or anything, it's just that I love listening to it, and that's how it is. I don't ever remember not being with music, and I barely remember a time when I wasn't singing. My mom didn't get me into it, my siblings didn't, etc. I just started listening to it one day and never went back. It's just how I am and I love it x]

That made a lot of sense. I really like that x] And yeah, I even told him in the journal, "I didn't choose to fall in love with you - it just happened." I mean, it's not my fault. Who in their right mind would fall in love with someone who's constantly touring around the world, super-famous, being adored by millions of girls, and super-hard to get to? It sure wasn't my idea >.> But I love it and I wouldn't trade anything in the world for it x]

1700's o.O XD
Hell yes they are \o/

I don't remember that XD
Thanks, though all the patterns are stolen from Route 167.

We used to be pairs :/
Dukey says hi =P

Yeah, I've been here for a while. I was Ratiosu for like ever, and then I changed my name because I started not liking it as much and was kind of growing a bit out of my Pokemon phase (plus people thought I was a guy because the gender function didn't exist yet and Latios's Japanese name is 'Ratiosu'). So yeah. Then I was .Savannah KAY and now I'm Automatisch :] It's a really good site, I love it. You get much better writing feedback there, as opposed to here where it's like a bunch of different categories, and you get to make your own backgrounds :] You'd keep thinking that Bill would eventually find a hairstyle that looks terrible on him but every single one he tries, it looks great xD Mhm, I have the Tom version of Monsoon where Bill's voice is mostly muted and with a slight echo effect and it's just Tom's voice and the muted instruments. It's so beautiful, I love it. They're both amazing singers :]

I like to take lighters and melt the dry eyeliner so that it goes on really thick and dark black and cakey. I seriously need another dry eyeliner pencil or I'll go crazy @_@ Hopefully the CVS job I applied for will take me and I'll be able to buy eyeliner whenever I need it instead of asking my mom for money that I'll never get. I'm actually allergic to the Hot Topic eyeliner but I use it anyway xD I don't get hives or anything, my eyes just get really tired :P So yeah. I adore the bass in "Freunde Bleiben" although it might also be Tom's electric guitar, in the beginning. It's just epic win :D My sister is 12 years old :] So you were close xD

Mhm, because there are so many fics on Mibba where the girls are friends/sisters with the band and then date them and it's like..."I never realized I love you" and "it was love at first sight" and stuff like that and it's just terribly written. I always feel like I write that kind of thing awful because I have nothing to go by xD But people have told me I'm a great writer[/bragging], like I just got 4 story comments @_@ Usually I only get one or two a day, or like three or four on a day when I update. So 4 for all different stories was awesome and it was this girl who said that my writing was perfect and amazing and I was a phonomenon and I should never give it up but the problem is...I don't see how good I write xD To me it's normal. So I never know when I'm writing well or not. Hate mail makes me laugh. If I do, God willing, end up dating/being Bill's girlfriend, then I'm sure I'll get tons of it xD And I'll just read it and laugh because there's a saying that says when people hate you, then you know you're doing something right. I'm not concerned with peoples' opinions, never have been, and that's why I'm into the scene style. Because it's so out there and people give me looks and it makes me feel great because they're noticing me, you know? Yeah, he really does seem like he would be sweet inside x] I love how he talks about Bill. I wish I had that :/

I don't know xD If he has, I've never seen it. But of course he would say that, because who would say, "I don't kiss very well"? xDDD Mhm, that would be amazing. I was talking to one of my friends and saying that I'd love to do a duet of "Rette Mich" or "Jung und Nicht Mehr Jugendfrei" or something like that. I have so many songs I'd like to cover xD If/when I go to the recording studio I'll definitely do a cover of JUNMJ only it will have to be like half a step lower because I'm an alto and Schrei!Bill's voice is too high for me xD I'd like to cover a lot of their songs :] But not like all of them because that would just be a ripoff. Maybe like 4 or 5 of my favorites :] I've had infatuation a lot, and I'm pretty sure this is love. Because infatuation...it's like, you really like the guy and you're following after them a lot and really adoring them, but when they leave and it hurts you for a while, you end up seeing a couple months after that really you didn't love them and you can live without them. There was this guy named Travis that that happened to with me, and he got kicked out of the school, and I "loved" him, but now I'm fine. I don't mind. I'm over him. I don't know, that's just my version xD

Mhm, it's just that the jealous fangirls will all be like, "You don't love Bill, he's a rockstar" but really, he's no different from any other person, you know? So he happened to get famous. Big whoop. Does that mean he's any more of a person? Why does him being a rockstar mean that I can't love him? That's what I tell some people who tell me I can't :/ I actually like there being different languages and I'm not sure why xD I just do. I like the fact that you can walk into a country speaking another language and they have no idea what you're saying xD That and I just adore languages. I just do :]

You should see some of my comments on Mibba (a writing site I'm on). They're like forty miles long @_@ This is nothing compared to them. And yeah, I write xD I won the Fanfiction of the Month 2005 here :] [/brag] Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. It would look so stupid if it was anyone else and then Bill pulls it out (uh...ew) and it's like BAM! in your face. And at first it's like, "...uh, no" but then after a while you start liking it. I hated the dreads for the longest time, then I loved them xD And the fauxhawk only took me a couple minutes to adore. Maybe cuz it's like his lion mane and I love that x] I think probably his lion-mane was his best hairstyle. The Caught on Camera one, where it was all in your face. There was this one performance in Houston on a radio station and there's a vid of it on Youtube where he sings "Monsoon" and that's probably my favorite performance because: [1] he has the lion-mane xD [2] you can just see how much he means the words, it's everywhere on his face and I adore that, and [3] just because. Because it's him, and he's in his element, and it made me cry the first couple of times like an idiot teenie -.-; xD

*raises hand* I adore eyeliner. My mom hasn't gotten me any in a while and I feel naked without it because I ran out xD Yeah, I do wish there were more G's, too. Not like super-overload where they suddenly become these major icons or whatever, but it would be nice if they got into things a bit more. And Gustav is an epic drum player. I love his drumming in "Schrei" because it's so fast-paced and he just drums really, really well during it :] I have no comment on the bass because I've never played the bass or known someone who has played it except this guy in Praise Band in school for like two months and I didn't really have enough time to figure out what the bass was supposed to sound like xD So yeah. My sister is annoying, but yeah, she's funny. She despises the fauxhawk, just like she hates all of Bill's hairstyles except "Rette Mich" because he looked somewhat normal during that xD She doesn't like any guy who's not blonde, and I told her Bill was a natural blonde and she just went 0.- "I will eat your children if you push this conversation any farther." I LOL'd.

Yeah, it would be epic :] I'm writing a story right now (well, I have like 15 stories xD) about TH and I work really hard on all the other ones, so I let myself write a teenie one where me and my best friend are BFFs with Bill and Tom and then date them and stuff xD It's just kind of that "everyone else has one so I should do one too" things because none of my other stories are like that. I can never write about me (even in story form) and Bill because it's so weird. I don't know. But yeah. It's not even working out very well so I'll probably discontinue it xD Being their sister doesn't sound stupid. Often times I find myself wishing with everything I was that Tom was my big brother, you know? I love him in that way a lot and it's just kind of something I'd really want to happen, to be able to come to him and cry about something stupid that happened and just have him be my big brother. I told my best friend on the phone last night, "Tom is officially my adopted twin" and she was like "But if Tom was your twin, that means that you can't be in love with Bill, because he'd be your twin too." And I was just like, "...he can be my twin without Bill being my twin. It's Savannah-logic, Liz, play along." xD She loves Tom the same way that I love Bill and we're like the best friends in the entire history of the world x] Anyway, so yeah. It was funny. And yeah, I believe dreams mean stuff, too and are sometimes signs. I just feel weird sometimes because it looks like I'm trying to look for signs that mean we'll be together, but I guess...whatever. The reason that people talk about them being "meant to be" is because someone in the history of the world felt like that once and so it's not impossible, y'know? Except one time I had this dream where him and me were partying and then we went to this kitchen holding hands and sat down across from each other at a table, and he asked if I'd ever been kissed and I said no and he was shocked and asked if he could kiss me xDDDDDD It was the lamest thing ever but hot damn, if that boy kisses as good as he does in my dreams... @_@ [/teenie] Thank you so much for saying that, like I said, it means a lot to me that people don't want to take up pitchforks and lynch me because I love him and want to be with him more than anything in the world xD

Don't worry, I understand what you mean xD

Yeah, I know. It was a joke xD I wish they'd had language courses in elementary school in America because that would be really awesome. Of course they sometimes have like Spanish and stuff but it's not like public highschool where you can choose and it's really serious. I didn't take German in my old public school and they don't have it in my private school and I feel stupid because I didn't take it -___- My grandma always wanted me to take it because of my heritage and I never did 0.- I learned French instead which was a major mistake because German is such a pretty language (to me, at least).

Yeah, I was writing this one story with them and Gustav talks and he's got like all the American slang down xD He uses so much of it, it's hilarious. And Bill's like 0.- "How do you know so much slang?" and Gustav says, "What, just cuz I'm German that means I can't hang with the Americans? Forget it. I'm blowing this popsicle stand." It made me laugh even though I wrote it xD And then on Tokio Hotel Does America (a parody site), they have these hilarious videos on the media page. They all make me crack up. There's one where they make a parody of Eins Nacht im Tokio (One Night in Tokio) and they subtitle everything wrong and it's epic. Like, when they're talking to Georg, Georg is like, "...this really isn't a joke? I mean, the twins are right over there." Gustav is like, "So...Georg tells me this isn't a joke. Uh, wow. ...hi, Mom." It's like the funniest video ever xD

Yeah, 3-4 ;-; It's terrible because I'm like, "...I was so close." Once I had this dream where Bill and Tom were in my school 0.- It was so weird. But I was sitting at my desk in my uniform and Tom was in the middle of the class and we were watching Transformers or something, and all the girls in my class were crowded around Tom xD And I was off to the side, and Bill was behind me, and he tapped my shoulder and I turned around, and he was there not in a uniform xD He smiled at me and gave me this little note and I read it and it said he understood all about what I was trying to do and about the journal and that I should keep being determined to get to him. And I even remember what he was wearing xD But yeah. It was so sweet. Scary because that's kind of weird, but sweet x] ...and Tom was wearing these huge green cargo pants xDDDDD

Mhm. I think if you're a fan of a certain band and really love them, it's stupid to be like, "Okay, I'm not going to talk about them because people will think I'm obsessed." Except I'm a hypocrite there because that's what I do xD But I just hate the fact that people might think I'm obsessed and that they won't understand that I'm not. I hate people thinking I'm a teenie. It's really important to me that people know I'm not :/

Gustav is amazing xD For some reason I can never write about Georg. He's just...well, I don't want to say my least favorite because I don't really have favorites, because they're all people. But whatever the equivalent of that is xD My sister said, "The band doesn't even need him. He plays the bass. That's boring. All you do with the bass is pluck one string at a time. Boooooring. They can go hire another bassist with shorter hair who's not always in the bathroom." xDDDDD She makes me laugh so much. She thinks Bill looks terrible because of all his new hair.

Speaking of which (and geez, we have insanely long comments), I love Bill's fauxhawk xD It's amazingly epic and truthfully, he is the only person in the world it would look good on. That's overused but whatever. I didn't like it the first time I watched the video. Then I watched it twice more and I adore it now xD That's how it always is with me and him. He just...everything looks good on him, no matter what. It always makes me feel like a teenie saying that xD But honestly, it does. Maybe because I don't love him for his looks and so whatever he does is fine with me? idk. But yeah :]

Either that or he'll be like, 'wtf, why don't you know german, i hate you go away nao'. xD And yeah, they know it really well from school @_@ I heard they teach it at a young age in Germany and that's why they know it so well. Bill's always apologizing for his English though and I'm always like, "No, it's good ;-;" because it really is, it's amazing for German speakers like them .__.

Yeah, even if it's like a subconscious thing, you know? Like, you could be sitting in on music classes doing your homework or something and if you're there for long enough, you can start to subconsciously pick up things that are in the music. I really like that kind of stuff :]

...yeah, and I just had a dream where I gave the journal to Bill's grandma (I have no idea why it was her) and she said she would give it to Bill, and I went home to wait and then I woke up -___- Let's just say I was really miffed when I woke up and found that it was all a dream. I've had like three or four dreams where I give the journal to him and then I wake up, and it's the most frustrating thing in the world, y'know? -_- And I love pretty much everyone xD So when I went to Saki I'd be like, "OHAY GIVE THIS TO BILL PLZ" and hope he's nice xD

I didn't have a tampon, so it was even more awkward xD

Ugh. That's okay, you can dump that stuff on me. I love talking about them because I can't talk like this about them in real life or people think I'm "obsessed" -___- There's like one TH fan in my school other than me and this teenie who didn't even know they were German, and I talk to her sometimes and last year she was like "TH overload, Sav." So yeah xD Anyway, that's so annoying -___- Thankfully I can say that I'm not that kind of a person. Looks on him are just a bonus for me :] So yeah. But people like that make me want to punch them in the face.