I'm not really afraid of boys, but I have had a really, really bad and hurtful experience with one, so I tend to really back off when I am in any kind of relationship with one. I have a super hard time trusting them.
I probably would talk to you like this in real life. I am the same way in real life when I am in conversation that I am online. I love, either way, to have a nice, decent conversation.
And no. Eivana is not my real name, although I wish it was, lol.
And it's totally cool. =)