Talon
[font=Cambria]Hidden From Mind[/font]
- 1,080
- Posts
- 10
- Years
- Age 25
- Somewhere that is nowhere
- Seen May 25, 2017
Sometimes I don't know how to deal with it. I find myself surrounded by people that claim to be my best friends and love me, but in the end they just abandon me, as if I never existed. I find myself used by those around me for the simple betterment of themselves, and with no regard to how I feel being treated that way. So what do I do? I keep it all in and just hide my emotions. Why? Because I'm afraid that if I express what I feel, the few around me that actual treat me as a friend and not a tool will follow suit and leave me in the dust. I'm not a bad person, I have only good intentions, yet no one can see this. Or maybe they do. Maybe I'm too nice and that's why they take advantage of me. But what am I supposed to do? Am I just supposed to treat people badly? That just feels wrong. Am I supposed to just ignore the people that treat me like that? Then I have no one around me, and the loneliness will just get worse. I don't know what to do. I've tried throwing myself out a little bit more to try to attract people who are more like what I want around myself, but if I throw out the bait, they never bite. I'm stuck being forced around people I don't want to be around, and being shunned away by those I want to be around. It's an awful cycle I can't break free of. I just don't know what to do. I can't keep being lonely.