Yes, your story is sad. I am glad that you actually didn't commit suicide, but always remember that it is always worse and you need to look at the bright side of things. Think positively, and never forget that there is someone out there that loves you. If you don't believe that it could be worse take me for example. I have attempted suicide because my life is terrible and still is, but I always look at the positive. I could tell you things about my past that would mentally scar you for life, but I hold my head high. Keep strong, my friend, for life is valuable, and your life is important. Remember that there are people out there that care for you, and you must keep yourself strong despite your problems. Be brave, and you will never fail or see a bad moment in your life. Never.