I'm so sorry..
As Kashi said:points to kashi.
I've been a little overwelmed by some things and at one of my oekakis there are some troubles with the Php, so I've been busy fixing that, then the holidays came around and again we where lait to put up decor. * one day before christmas we decorated.*Then my grandmother came, and she's really good at puting me down for things that I'm doing =/ Specialy when it has to do with not making money for it. And everything I draw she comments on selling it -_-... *My drawings arnt just critters to be sold in mass market ><*.
But then she called my animals Flea bags and she said " With how many She's killed she care NOTHING for rats and those pests." When rats are one of my most presios Family members!*second to my mom and sibs* T_T... So I've just about been done for this past week for artwork and threw the holidays I had no time to draw cause guess what?
She whent around and tried to do my job =/, So I had to spend every day racing to get to it before her causeing the day to insted of being fill with full wholesome artwork; it was a bag of duirty cloths, telling her she cant do this and that cause mom can do it, or it's my brothers job. Then being paid 5 bucks just to wash her cloths in my own Washer and drier O_O! She could have done it but for a person that acts as though she isint scared of stuff. I know it was the rat in the mudroom that stoped her from going and doing her own cloths, so I had to touch someone elses laundry (YUCKIEEE) And at the end of that =D What a joy! :Sarcasm: I had to stop her from vacuming and had to have her tell me my room doesint belong to my animals or it would be a pig stie! =/ When it IS my animals room, I'm just the guests ^_^. So She called my animals and my sleeping area a mess, just hours after she said how pretty it was ^^; Wasint that nice of her??
oh lets not forget day two! =D which I wont say much about but she spent the day haveing me do this and that for her and being her "company" while my mom whent to pick up my sibs from work, for a short time I wished I wasint a starving artist and could be out in the work force with my sibs :slaps self: But I'm proud of myself for who I am, And a starving artist isint anything to be ashamed off just cause my grandmother makes my new years a living nervus puss ball of doom X_X!! I felt like a White head (zit) being poked again and again. If she didint leave 5 days ago I SWEAR I would have blown on her! >< Just biting my lip and she cant help herself but to say hundreds of horible heartbreaking things about how I and my mom keep the house, and of how are animals are just hobbies"
one thing I hated most was her saying my animals where just a hobbie, Their my family members ! If anything having her spend the holiday at are house is just a "hobbie" Though I love that gal to bits why does she treat me and my animals so? Why dose she pay me to do her stuf? Why do I have to work night and day to keep the house clean so she cant complean and end up having her find something els to clean that I "missed"? Why do I even think that hard on it anymore? Why do I need to?
I dont know the answered to all that... but lets just say that the past two weeks are defenetly not suited to draw things out of love for the community, and with her around saying all my drawings looks like pigs( the pokemon and dragons) I coulint draw while she was here >< So I'm still in the same place I was last post. And I'm trying to make up for it. Sorry everyone... I failed yet again in not letting my grandmothers words hurt me...
But my life consists of :
Animals
Drawing
Arts and crafts
NatureWatching
Gardening
Cleaning* yes I enjoy cleaning ^^*
Playing games
Talking to my friends
And being with my family.
And all she could do was say:
Horible things about my animals and call them hobbies insted of family
Say that I should sell my artwork insted of making them for myself
take my tree ornaments I made two years ago FOR MY MOM and say she was just "trading" when she doesint even have a tree to put my ornaments on!
Tell me to put christmas clings all over the window * even though thats where I watch nature come alive. *
My gardening didint even come up in the question cause it's winter* no plants to guard"
Doing all my cleaning jobs so I had nothing to do in cleaning, then say with how duirty things are it's really unhealthy* the house is as clean as we want it! i meen, My god O_O! A DUSTBALL gets that lady PISSED!!
Bother me every time I'm, playing a game so I cant even do it by the end of the day * only way to relaxe while shes around is to play my Harvest moon game.
Telling me to do things like get filters for the coffee, do her cloths and show her how the bathroom works so that in the end of all that my sister is home and I cant even be on the computer to talk to my friends.
And my family was such a mess themselfs from her comments o_O none of us where in the mood to talk while she was around cause she bad mouthed everything we said. So I couldint be with my family. Animals included!
So in the end ^^ for 2 weeks I had no life what so ever......Not to mension what trama My cats went threw for being kicked and pushed every which way by her, then have my most favorite cat get all wet just cause she dumped her water and my grandmother wanted to show her what a mess she had made by puting her in the puddle! Then hurting are cat lilly all cause she wanted a hug and slaping are big male cat all cause he " Clawed her leg " When he just puts his paws up so we could put him in our lap!* we kinda trained him that way* And then have her flick her fingures on my male rats faces and making a meen face at them, then saying strait to tabatha the cats face that she is such a fleabag! I also hwent to the store to get some guppies and she got all pissed cause we spent two hours finding the store for some dang fishies * ( they are family to be and I will work day and night to find them) So she was mad at me for that =/ Then have her say that the guinea pigs are filthy and that if her animals did what ares did they would be out the door.
So in the end ^^; i couldint even leave the house for the worrie of her tossing my animals outside and letting them run away!.... Stressful two weeks.. And that is also why I have been gone since the contest judging.. And for that I am so sorry.. but with all that I have told you.. I will be off for two more days to recupe. Then go back to my normal rutien and get all of the drawings in a zip file to mail you guys personaly.. Most but two are done. Just in the wait for when I can organize ethem and put on the finsihing touches.
Thank you so much for reminding me though Missing, I should send you it laiter on today.
And thanks everyone for asking ^^ it meens alot to me, I know you where not rushing me, just conserned and awaiting your work =D the best people the artwork can go to are poeple who worrie for whenthey will get it ^^ very heartwarming to see you guys doing so Lhugs everyone:
Oh! Btw Kashi, I finsihed the toot.