To: Alisha
Signifance of the poem: Just a small thank you for renewing our friendship. Even though I know you couldn't read this, I always wanted you to be the best you can be and not let other mislead you...
My Beloved
The first time I saw you
I was a fool and I was just so stupid
You were just one of my best friends
Until my heart was struck by Cupid
Everyday I would treasure your smile
At the same time I kept my guise as a friend
But I just know within myself
That forever, I can?t always pretend
Every time you throw your arms around me
I could feel your heart close to me, beating
Every breeze that blows through me
I could see those bright eyes, shining
No star could outshine those bright eyes
No sweet melody could match your beautiful voice
Your rosy cheeks, I just wanted to kiss
Oh your beauty made my heart rejoice
You were just the kindest person in my world
You cheered me up even in my deepest woe
Even when everything seems hopeless
In my darkness, you just continued to glow
Deep inside, I want to say those three words
I want to shout them out so the world could hear
My voice would reach the highest mountains
?I love you,? I say them out loud and clear
You just don?t realize who you are
You?re so caring, so cheerful, so na?ve
You?re such a good person at heart
And that I will always believe
I want to be near you all the time
Every night, I long for your embrace
Every day, I just hope to see you again
I want to see that beautiful face
But then that one day came
When I couldn?t make up my mind
Those words just slipped out of my lips
The right words, I couldn?t find
I waited for the response
Your eyes have a glint of concern
?I?m sorry but I can?t love you
I?m sorry but your heart, I must return?
You hugged me again and apologized
I told you that it?s alright
Solemnly, we hugged for a long time
Your embrace was just so tight
If what you think that fairy tales end in happy endings
You are wrong, my friend ? very wrong
Life is cruel and harsh and will never give you a chance
I realized that when I couldn?t get along
She seems so distant these times
Her once bright eyes were so dull when I?m around
And yet she laughs and goes along when I?m not
Suddenly, she wasn?t there when I was down
I wanted to mend our friendship
But I seem to turn things for the worse
Suddenly, I thought that whether meeting her
Was a blessing or a curse
My life plunged in misery
And I cried at night because I miss her
I wanted to see that smile again
I just wish we?re the way we were
No sorrow could describe my feelings
No greater pain could one withstand
I lay alone by myself in this dark corner
No one could understand
I forced myself to forget that girl
But in the end, her memory keeps returning
I wanted to leave her behind
But her beautiful smile keeps haunting
How I miss those times
The time I wanted to hold her close
In the end, I was miserable
She was happy and I was morose
How can she forget so quickly?
Those memories that I?ve shared
I cared so dearly for her
But now I?m just scared
I was afraid to see her again
The fear of rejection envelopes my mind
I?m scared to see those eyes look away
Oh I wish I was blind
My insides twisted and turned
I felt like a man wallowing in mud
At night I felt bare and cold
At day, I just wish to shed my own blood
You mocked me with the laughter I used to love
Your eyes look away from my own depression
You just continue life as if nothing happened
?Was I nothing in your life?? I question
Deep inside, I couldn?t let go of that person
Even though I tried many amends
I always ended up remembering her smile
The thing that I treasured when we were friends
?Life is for living?
The song goes that one morning
?I just don?t want to live it all alone?
It made me stop my mourning
I felt alone and forgotten on the street
I just lay there, ignoring all help given to me
I just wanted her friendship back, I prayed
Of all my wishes, this is my most desperate plea
I let the rain fall on my face
The wind was cold like her heart
My heart aches every time I think of her
I guess it?s time to make a new start
Before I could move on and start again
I felt her warm hand hold my cold hand
I looked behind to see her smiling
She said ?I?m sorry and I understand?
It turns out that she was scared, too
Both of us were afraid of each other
We began to talk again like before
She hugged me again like her big brother
The sorrow was soon gone like the storm
And like the sun, happiness rose
It?s like what she always did
In my darkness, she glows
I couldn?t understand but it doesn?t matter
?Let?s be friends again? she said
?Just forget what happened before
Let?s just help each other instead?
I hugged her once more and she hugged back
I embraced her tightly because I have her near
I don?t want to lose her again like before
Near my closed eyes, you could see a tear
Deep inside, I still love her
But I don?t want her to go away
So I kept this within my heart
I just want her to stay
A happy ending for the girl whom I love
The happiness in this miserable place
The gift I yearned for a long time
Was her friendship and her embrace
Her friendship I still treasure
Like always, she was present to smile
I never thought it would end this way
I thought my life would forever be hostile
What can I say more about the girl I love?
A boy could use words in his poems
In order to describe the girl he treasures
But some emotions and thoughts cannot be explained
Through mere words and sweetened language
Sweeter than honey, more beautiful than a rose
Meager letters and meager words are nothing
Compared to what a man can love
What is inside this heart of mine
I cannot fully express in this poem
My love for that girl
Is more vast than the ocean
Brighter than the sun?s light
And more eternal than the sky
Love can be so sweet and so warm
But it can also be so cold and so cruel
A lesson I also learned is that:
Any na?ve and sweet little girl
Is also like a budding rose
Her petals are closed so tightly
And yet she is so beautiful
So fragrant and so lovely
But if you don?t wait before the petals open
If you immediately grasp the rose?s stem
You will be pricked and that rose
Will never bloom for you again
