Part Of Me.

So I typed out this blog. Twice, already. I figured no one would read it due to it's length. So this will be my third time. And I'll just leave it this time.


Stuff in general:
Everyone will understand/relate.

Some of you may know, I've been having a bit of a tough time lately, involving family issues, as well as, more prominently, personal issues. Well. I'm done. I guess you could say I'm turning a new leaf. School is starting to look up, I'm still way behind and I've missed more days than I've actually been in. But I've stopped ditching and I'm starting to enjoy it some what.
As for the side you guys know, my "PC" side, I guess you wont notice much of a change, but seeing as in I'm going to try not let things in life effect me so much, they wont effect how I post on PC anymore. I used to take my anger out on PC some what. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I used to use it as a place to vent, and I need to stop. So if I've left a bad impression on you, so be it. But as of now, I'm taking some what of a fresh start. Something I'll benefit from more than others.

I'm just not going to let these things get to me anymore. I'm going to get things sorted. So that'll mean a few hours less a week on PC but a few hours of doing nothing on PC < a few hours of doing something IRL.


Specific Junk:
Things directed at those who know me well.

Okay, first off, I'm going to be a lot more independent. I am no longer tied down to any particular group of people. I don't feel I ever was, but, I don't want to be thought of as "Part of that group" as I have been lately. So, I'm going to be a lot more independent. For a number of reasons. I have higher priorities, such as studies, writing, music, family, myself, my IRL friends and even things on PC such as posting around and getting to know people better, not to mention hacking. So consider me not apart of your group, if you think I am. I've always been an independent, I always liked people individually and not as a group. I don't look at a couple and think of them as a nice couple, I would have a different outlook on each person. I grew up that way, I grew up not liking groups or being tied down to them.
Most of all it annoys me how a "group of friends" can start fighting and talking behind each others backs. And yes, I know it happens.
So those I'm friends with, I'll always be friends with. never mind, nothing lasts forever but you know what I mean.
Like someone once said to me, "never lose sight of who your real friends are", I think I've finally grasped the full meaning of that.
Just to some people in particular, don't lie to yourself just to fit in. Think about it, step back from the fire before you get burned. Think about the more important things. I don't really have that mentality where I need someone or that I need lots of people around me. I know people just in relationships or groups just for the sake of it and deep down, it's not what they want.

So I will always have friends but there is no such thing as Gavin being in a group.

I know this all seems like srs bsns but I just wanted to get some things off my chest.

So that part of me, the part that just brought myself and others. Is gone.

<3's for all who aactually read this xD

Sammeh read it all :3

Good job Gav :D

I know you don't really want to have anything do with me anymore or whatever, but I read the whole thing, and I'm proud of you for thinking in ways that most people won't think.

I read most of it :P Good luck with school and your new found independence, dude! :D

I read it, for the most part. Sounds like you're finally finding you way, Gavin. That's great. :]

Gavin ilu. Js broski <3

Jeez, took me a while to realise that my comment-writing was working after all, and not just disappearing into the ether. Any typos in this comment are your fault. XD

Anyway, Gavin, that's good to hear. I'm glad you're realising that people can't be grouped. I've long been classed by others as a nerd or a geek, myself, but I don't think I fit into any label. So why should anyone else? I'm glad you're managing to stand up to your problems, as it shows just how strong you actually are. Keep on truckin', as they say. (b")b