Delirious Absol

Yeah. Plus, if something happens to the car or something... it's good to have it so I can be preoccupied. XD Oh! I got some books on writing and stuff. I'm kind of a self-educated writer, and I'm always trying to improve. XD

I've actually just been posting around PC in whatever places I can. *shrug* Thing is, I already put my iPad in my small backpack. I carry around this Elmo backpack that's kind of like medium-size. I put my iPad, the book I'm reading and my duck plushie in it. XD I like to have my iPad with me in case any ideas pop-up while we are out.

Yeah. I feel like that right now. D: My dad just seems to be taking his time right now. X_x I don't want to start writing or something either. I feel like if I do, he's going to decide to go right as I start getting into something. DX

Yeah... my mood seems kind of meh today too. We're supposed to be going somewhere, but my dad is dragging ass over it right now. :/

Yeah. I haven't been much in the mood for writing, but that's because I got no sleep the night before though. XD Hopefully, it'll be much better for me today. I really like my current story, but it's actually just a random one right now. It's not supposed to be about me or anyone else special. XD

My friend helped me identify a childish character using TV Tropes. XD I was able to write two chapters for a story of mine! Now, I'm sleep-deprived and can't think of anything else. :|

Hm. I don't know. I actually decided to do something else with the story. I'm still trying to work things out with it right now, and I haven't made a set summary or plot yet. :/ I want it to be interesting enough. >< I can't really explain the ideas I have at the moment. :/ Like, I wanted Olivia (the MC) have problems at home and suffer from depression. Well, Kiyoshi (male love interest) could spot her crying in the park and tries to cheer her up. That's all I have so far.

What about for my male love interest character? He loves to sing. He's also Japanese. He was born in Japan, but he moved to California at the age of three and has lived there since then. I haven't decided much on whether he's studied Japanese... maybe he learned it and English growing up? He could possibly enjoy singing in Japanese and very seldom sings in english.

Yeah, character development is never my strong suit. I should also be thinking more about my main character who falls for the guy I mentioned above.

omg same here. This is why I hate talking on the phone too. I get asked too many questions, and it usually overwhelms me. I told you that before, I believe. O_o Sometimes, I get them because I want to do something else instead of spending too much time chatting with a person.

Yeah. I'm the same way. I'm thinking of writing a story based on something from my childhood, but of course, the character in the story wouldn't be the same as me. I'm having a hard time figuring out how to make it interesting because there's not much I can do. All I CAN do is make it so the character isn't an outdoorsy type but is given the chance to become part of the outdoors on a camping trip to Acadia. D:

Yeah! That's how I am. I like to talk about a lot of things, but I'll talk more if it's related to disabilities, mental health, Alice in Wonderland or anything related to writing. Then again, it also depends on what I'm interested in at the time of conversation too. I do have a wide range of interests, but I don't always find a majority of those interests easy to talk about. I've sort of learned to communicate with others about their interests as much as I can. Usually, I'm the type who tends to listen to them, yet I won't always know how to actually respond to them.

Hm. I'm not sure. Actually, I can be at times. Like... this one time when I was at our local grocery store, I saw this woman I knew from somewhere. I didn't know where, but she had said hi to me and asked how I was though. I had to ask where I knew her because I just couldn't remember. It turns out, she was one of the ladies that work at the mini McDonald's we have at the gas station we go by and stop at most of the time.

Yeah. I usually have to have something to ask them. Like, how I asked you about writing the first time. I mean, I'm okay if I know what to ask. I'm just not very good with being all "Hi, how are you?" to a random stranger; online or offline. I'll talk at random as well, and that can often throw people off. Most 'normal' people tend to do the traditional hellos and what not before starting to talk about a certain topic. Once in a while, if someone says hi to me though, I'll usually say hi back.

I also have social burn outs sometimes too. Like, if I spend too much time talking to someone I'm not familiar with or just need alone time, I'll stop talking. Though, social burnouts for me occur when my anxiety gets too overbearing because I might have talked to someone too long. So, I usually try to just let the person now I have to head off without really saying why (usually, the person is understanding if I tell them I need to take a break or simply just to say I want to play a game for a while... something like that).

Actually, I think it goes back to the mind-blanks thing. Most people that call me ask a dozen questions, and if I'm under a lot of pressure to answer... it causes me to panic a lot more. I need time to be able to think about my answers, but there are also times when the person on the phone might not have time for that. A lot of my autism deals with the lack of processing when comes to the input and output of information.

Yeah, my social skills used to be really bad as a child. I used to spend more time focused on picking at rocks or swinging by myself at school then interacting with my peers. However, I also go to this anime convention once a year. It has helped me be more interactive with other people who like anime as much as I do. My mom also goes with me and stays with me in case I have one of my meltdowns. She often serves as a caregiver type of person when it comes to my needs.

The only problem I have with being social is when I have engage it. In other words, I fear going up to someone, even online, and saying "hey" because I worry that person will shrug me off or something like that. D: I also notice that my social skills are awkward. I'll randomly start talking to people without ever saying hi to them or whatever. I guess this would be considered lacking in small talk first.

I actually do a lot better than most people who have autism. The problem with this though is that people don't take my condition seriously. I have so many problems with my emotions and all that. One little trigger, and I could explode like a volcano at any second. At one time, I was at the hospital for chest pains. This nurse wanted to give me an IV, and she seemed really ignorant. Well, she comes in with the stuff for the IV, and I shot off the bed like a rocket and started screaming and sobbing in terror. My mom told her about me being autistic, and this woman had the nerve to say something like, "but she can communicate". Like, she was implying that I couldn't autistic because I was able to communicate better than most. To make matters even worse, this nurse had gotten two security gaurds who were going to hold me down to give me the IV. My mom drew the line there after calling my dad... and my dad told her to get me the hell out of there. We ended up refusing treatment and walking right out.

My autism tends to be a little more mild because there are days when I can act as normal as possible. Yet, there are other times when my autism will show. Like, at the convention I told you I go to? Well, the manager of it won't do anything to accommodate me. So, in order to get the front row seating or be first in line, my mom and I have to get there an hour to a half an hour early. I hate long lines because they cause me great anxiety. Plus, my mom has problems of her own and uses a wheelchair. As for having to be in the front row, this is also mandatory for me because if I'm sitting in back of someone, I have a hard time processing because my ability to process what's going in is blocked by someone's head.

I've tried to find someway to convince him he's in the wrong, but I've gotten nowhere. I did talk to this place on Tumblr about disabled cosplayers, and even the one running it agrees that the manager is wrong to deny me proper accommodations. D: It doesn't matter though because my mom and I found way to accommodate for this on our own. I like going to this convention because it's fun, and I get the chance to cosplay characters I like. This year, I'm cosplaying as Leafa from Sword Art Online.

I have a pair of noise block headphones, but I also have my noise block earphones for my music... which are like a lifesaver in those situations. It's better for my music because then people don't give me weird looks for the headphones... even though they give me weird looks for my animal hats and the blanket I carry around. XD

Oh, really? I know I have to eat to be able to concentrate. If my stomach is growling, I get more distracted by things around me... or just the hunger alone distracts me.

I think that's how I am. That's why I usually write down what I want to say on my iPad before hand. A lot of it is usually because I'm under pressure at times. The person wants to know something, and my brain kind of just dies at that point. Also, I hate talking on the phone. I used to not have this problem before either, so it just came a while ago. If someone calls and asks to talk to me, I meltdown. My dad has power of attorney over me, which is a huge help.

Oh, I know. I'm not even on the aspie side, and I tend to wring my hands a lot, squeal and sometimes even flap my arms. I usually only do it at home though. I'm okay with routine usually... but it depends. For example, if you take away my internet... then you're going to have a meltdown to deal with. My routine is solely based on the internet. Most of the time the only other routines I have are when I sleep.

It's funny too because people say that in order to get a good night's sleep, to turn off all electronics. That's something I can't do. I have to have a fan in my room, my laptop has to be on so that my hero's song plays when I'm sleeping, and the TV has to be on. I can't sleep in dead silence. It bothers me and makes my anxiety worse. As for my morning routine, this just consists of taking my meds a certain way. First I have to take my concerta (stimulant for ADHD), my abilify (for severe depressive tendencies due to anxiety) and my blood pressure medication in that order.

Other than that, I'm usually pretty fluid when it comes to routine. If my parents decide to go somewhere, I'll tag along usually for the ride. As long as I know what's going to happen, then I won't freak out. Another thing that really gets me is unpredictability. If you say that we are going out for ice cream this weekend, then my mind will set itself on that. However, if you decide at the last minute you couldn't do it... it'd throw me off so much. My parents have a hard time really getting this. It usually just causes severe anxiety.

My mom is also a trigger. >___> I love her to death because she's my mother but ugh. She can drive me up the wall because I'm in the middle of something and she has to tell me about Miley Cyrus being pregnant for example like... as if I care. I don't really have sensory overloads, but I do get bothered by loud noises. Fire truck sirens are a huge issue for me. Motorcycles can be as well and so can screaming/crying children. I love kids, but I hate when they scream or cry. It's just... awful. ><

Also, I'm more written expressive than I am with verbal or emotional expression. I can express myself better through writing than anything else. In fact, I used my iPad to tell my ex-psychiatrist about the problems I was having with my anxiety. I told him how I felt like I wanted to hurt myself because it was overwhelming me. So, he was able to understand it better. That's why I take the abilify. I think a lot of it could be due to the concerta, but I can't lower my dosage. I've already tried that... and I didn't like the change in routine, so I went back up. I've been taking the concerta a long time.

Well, I figured a concert would also have a lot of noise as well. It'd be really hard on her because she'd end up having a sensory overload. However, I think instead of him helping her though... maybe it could help him see that she really isn't like other girls he's met before. I do want to give her an eccentric personality as well. I just don't know how to go about it. D:

Yeah, I was diagnosed with it around like... 12 I think? But, by then... it was too late to get most of the help they thought I could get. The problem I have is with daily living. I can dress myself, bathe myself and use the bathroom with no problem... it's being able to do any cooking or cleaning that makes it hard. Like, I know how to clean, but I suffer from severe executive functioning. For example, if you told me to mop the floors, I'd stand there looking at you with a bewildered look on my face. I have some processing issues when it comes to things that aren't in my routine. ><

I also have ADHD and some learning & developmental delays too. Like, I'm into really childish things such as Disney Junior. Plus, I sleep with a blanket as well as carry it around everywhere I go. It's kind of a comfort thing because the blanket reminds me of my hero (in my avatar).

I'm just not sure what kind of concert they could go to. I haven't really decided on their interests for music artists much to be honest. :/

I just read your bio on Mibba. You never told me you had Asperger's. :O I don't have it per se but... I do have a form of autism. Mine kind of varies depending on my mood. I also had speech delays as a child, but my speech and social awareness got better as I got older and had speech therapy. ^^;

Well, the MC is kind of autistic. I wrote characters that have a form of autism. I'm actually trying to rewrite the story where her condition seems more apparent, despite her being in therapy for it or whatever. I want to try and keep in mind that most things might bother her such as a concert. I'm saving my amusement park idea for when the two of them fall for each other. After that, I thought that when he kisses her on the ferris wheel, he becomes distant with her because of his fears towards commitment and falling in love. I'm actually going to try to work on another story, if I can to help my writer's block some. Though, I might consider going back to the other one though.

I'm just having a hard time figuring out places where they can hang out and get to know each other though. The location of the story is Brooklyn, New York. I figure it was best because it's also close to Coney Island/Luna Park.

Oh, really? Awesome! The more followers, the better. I actually have another account... but I forgot my info. So, I made a new instead. I've been on Wattpad since 2011 I believe? I can't remember. Mibba also isn't bad. It's not the best, but it's a good way to share stories with others. Anyway, I'll follow you back when I'm on there again though. :3 I use the iPad app for wattpad because it's easier for me then the site itself... which is somehow more complicated for me to figure out. ;____;

This is what I have so far (Scroll down and hit table of contents). I'm having a really hard time with this story. D: I want the MC to gain the trust of the love interest... but I don't know how to do that with him being so distrusting of girls, you know? I think that's where my struggle is right now.

Hey, no problem, I understand people get busy and it's hard, but thanks for keeping with the story and I'm glad you're enjoying it. :)

I saw, and I fixed the typo! Thanks a lot! I'll be on vacation till the 10th, but I'll make sure to get to it when I can. :)

Hi - I saw you were looking for fics to review? If so, I'm looking for some comments on either one of my fics, preferably Flying in the Dark. Let me know - I'd be willing to return the favor as well. :)