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Haven't played much of GO, but I am playing it :P I have been relatively inactive, actually I was really busy for 2 months and never posted. Now I have a bit of a break though, even though I am taking a summer precalc class and have a job that takes up all my time... So yeah, much meh.

Hey.

Hi o/ haven't traded messages in a while so i decided to throw one your way. What's been going on?

There's studies on every drug. Half is propaganda the other half of legit.

Mushrooms just make you trip a little if you do enough and things sometimes form into different objects and stuff changes colors. Sort of like LSD.

No. To my understanding it's a medicine for everything.

It's actually nothing similar to mushrooms, it's more similar to DMT than anything which ayahuasca has DMT in it. DMT is a natural chemical in your brain, when it's released it makes you dream. When you dream, it's due to the DMT and if you've ever woken up and saw things that seemed real, well they weren't, it's just the DMT being released.

It doesn't necessarily mess you up, it's completely safe and in the Amazon they use it as a symbolic and cultural thing, it's a medicine that comes from a sacred plant in the Amazon. People who are traumatized go to a retreat and come out completely different. Mother ayahuasca puts them through a purge to find theirselves and some purges are worse than others, some go deep within themselves and battle their demons. I only did 2 shots so I battled the beginning of my demons. In the future I plan to attend and actual ceremony and get deep within myself and truly find my purpose and better yet who I actually am. This first trip did nothing but good for me. It's not a drug to get high on, it's to heal yourself, and you need a purpose before taking off on your journey. What you want to know, she will show you. What I saw was explainable, I just thought WOW. She showed me how powerful the mind really is once you open it up.

Usually yes but here it's usually a ticket.

So I took a journey with ayahuasca last night, it's the most powerful drug/medicine on the planet. All I have to say is HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I'm reborn and completely a different person. I let go of my ego completely and purged, which means she took me through hell and I faced myself and witnessed all the negativity inside me. At first I thought I was dying, the world was closing in on me, everything around me seemed like pure evil, and I had an intense out of body experience. I was fighting it at first but I eventually put my soul into her hands and she showed me hell, and she was healing me. When I sat up I threw up like a fucking gallon and I didn't eat or drink anything 12 hours before the trip, I literally threw up the negativity that was built up inside of me, she was battling it which is why she takes you through hell. Once it was done she showed me the most beautiful and unimaginable things I've ever seen. I found myself and I learned so much about the world around me. what she shows you is explainable, it was simply amazing tho.

No, but I don't give a shit about a petty law involving drugs anyways. As long as you're smart about it you wont get caught and a cop can't arrest you for being high.

Nope. I don't play Pokemon really at all. I occasionally play GBA games on my Android but that's about it. Only do that when I'm extremely bored, but usually just freestyle or something.

Naw, I just perform then go smoke weed and freestyle

I'm not sure how old they are.. I think like 2 and 4 or something like that.

No, I don't even have a DS or anything. I basically just use PC to talk to people and that's it.

Yeah I'm performing at open mics and that's it. I'll be doing open mic for about another month or 2 and then I'll try to start getting paid shows.

Girls with kids "claim" they're looking for just a basic relationship but in all honesty they're looking for a "baby daddy" and usually guys aren't prepared or lack experience in these types of relationships. I've got experience, but at the same time, I'm not exactly sure I'm READY to raise kids. If we were to get serious, I'd like a child of my own to actually see what it's like to be a legit father. But I'm still not positive on this relationship either. I'll give it a week or 2 and see how it goes with her. The only thing stopping me from making that move is her kids, that's a huge responsibility.

It went GREAT! I'm used to the mic positioning now and all my words are let out clear. My friend actually recorded some of it.

Well I'm not 100% sure I'm the one she's pursuing but I'm about 70% sure. I'm going to chill and see how this goes. Girls with kids are crazy man, they're confused themselves half the time. If you ever in the future end up in a situation like this, take it extra slow. You don't wanna jump into a relationship with a girl that has kids instantly.

Well this would only be my 3rd performance. I'm hoping this one I actually do better than the last 2.

Idk if the kids could get in the way or not, probably a little but they wouldn't be a major issue. I mean, I dated a girl last year with kids but we ended up cutting that one short due to lack of privacy, we literally couldn't do ANYTHING alone.

I haven't been on lately either lol

I'll get there and be doing shows when I get better. I'm performing again tomorrow so I'll see how it goes.

Naw I'm pursuing a different girl right now. I'm almost positive she's pursuing me as well but I need to take it slow with her since she does have 2 kids so I need to give this one some time. The girl I'm pursuing, her cousin is a rapper as well and she's booked him in shows. She's got major clout and knows a TON of people.

I prefer studio because I can at least redo it if I messed up or felt I didn't spit a solid take.

Yeah man, well not really at open mic since it's the wrong crowd but I performed again last night and my friend said I did a lot better but I still have a lot of work to do. My first time I was the closer so there was really nobody there except for people who stayed to watch me, like a rapper and his clique that I ran into awhile ago. But yesterday I performed when it was POPPING, I was so terrified but energized at the same time. the first show I shook like crazy and almost pissed my pants but the second time I messed up a few times and got right back into it no problem. People seemed to dig my music. There was a group of ladies right in front of me and when I finished my first song which was Cocaina I could see one saying to her friend, "Looking for that cocaina" cause the delivery is memorable. I had a lot of fun doing it yesterday and I plan on performing again next Monday as well. I wanted to 3 songs but they were behind schedule so I had to do 2. My second song was the one I showed you about the girl, people loved that one. The singer is willing to perform next to me in the future so I'll be more confident when I'm rapping that one.
Oh, and I rap over just the beats, no lyrics except for stacks and parts that have effects.

Sorry it's long I just had to say a bunch of stuff lol

Oh hey hey hey, so sorry man, couldn't get back to ya earlier. Past few days have been really busy. Hey thnx a lot for the offer, would love that man, came just at the right time (will tell ya why later :)). I'm traveling right now, so can't join in immediately, but hey do send me the link. And also if ya don't mind, can you tell me who all are there in your Skype Group.

True. I'm performing again next Monday but doing different songs. I did Cocaina and a song I've yet to upload. But yea, studio and live are completely different.

It was awesome! I was terrified to go on stage because I've never performed in front of a crowd but I have to do it anyways. It was at open mic and I have to say, I did pretty bad lol. I had no idea how a live mic worked haha

I just got done worth my first ever live performance.

Also spelled it sick to fit the dark persona. If you're into dark music I suggest checking out twisted insane, the dudes a complete monster.

https://youtu.be/mo4y2RxaNOw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSCa1Gvm1ag


Sadly no, it's one of those things where its gotta fix on its own

Thanks man!

Idk Sicarius is Latin for assassin so I changed the spelling to fit my persona more.

I'm not sick I just had a cold a few days ago so my voice isn't 100% yet.