okay actually no i think i'll explain here if you read back as you willllllllll :3
so yeah anyway, so august was like, when i first got modded = me wanting to show that i had it or whatever. right now in regards to everything i don't feel like anything is worth any effort, so i need to kind of get that back where i can be the best i can be.
july = the happy me. something that's rare, but the me which seemed to have everything right. i want that back.
january = the motivated me. i had so many ideas, so many things i could do and boom a few months later, that changed. want that back.
december = the achievement version. i actually did something journalism-based which i was proud of, showing that i can do anything and that nothing is impossible for me.