¡Viva España! 8D [TCTI V 6.0]

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..It was in OVP. Maybe Audy moved it. XD

Since I mentioned it in the convo. idk if he was there.

Edit: I'm in a really good mood for some reason. I'm slowly getting less affected by the past and looking more forward to the future. All those songs don't even affect me anymore now. They make me happy, and not for the old reasons. Even Cry isn't affecting me as much. Life is looking up, and that's due to February. A brand new month always means brand new emotions towards a month. January started on unsureness, and feeling weird. February started good, and hopefully the rest of the year can be like that. Now I have goals, and things I want for 2010, so finally, my brain is starting to think again. It's planning ahead, working out what's best, changing things, I just feel really good. I just need to watch myself, and remember the goals in my head. Nothing is impossible anymore. The future will be good, and it's on the way up. No matter what it holds, it's just going to be really good. I planned life out differently now. Lets see, June 2009, I did not expect life like this. At that point I was still caught up in selfishness. I didn't expect life to be this good. Even the things that happened after June, and July. Nothing could've prepared me for it. If I was told this is how my PC life would be when I first joined PC, I wouldn't believe it. Any of it. I never intended to stay at PC, much like others. I'm really glad that I decided to stay. This is a combination of my future, my past, and finally, my present. I'm accepting of the past being not so good, but, the month theory states that one; February will be good, because the month before was bad, and two; well, ... that you might need to figure out yourself, but that could be a reason why February will be good, or the January/July08 theory could be applied also, while the December/January/October08 theory is also logical. If so, then I see good things happening. Either way, one of the two will contribute to making February a really enjoyable month, one that will be based a lot on PC, but will turn out really good in the end, that however, I'm unsure of, but like February 2009, this month will have an IRL factor, something which has been somewhat non-existant since October/September, while signs appeared in both December, November and January10, just not to that extent. Through the combination of both IRL, plus PC, I can see February turning out really good. This involves the past not coming back to haunt me for a long time, which means that Kenji will most likely be wrong about his "two months" theory, which he thought of in January. That however, is no concern to me right now, and I'd rather leave everything as it is, I don't need reminders of my past, which I don't really view as enjoyable. I'm noticing that I got what I wanted; my friends are collapsing back into the traditional January roles, minus a few, and plus a few. This means that the effects of most of 2009 are minimal, causing the past to have less of an effect on me, and that I'm actually happy with the people I get along with now. There's also the dltms0 theory, which applies to everything, as those equal PC more than the groupings on MSN do. There still is cross-grouping going on, as there are Skype users, and MSN users, but that's having a really small role in our lives right now. Not everyone's lives are looking up though, some of us are moving on to better things, but still some are starting to realise the things behind the scenes, especially in their IRL lives. They will turn out better soon, which means tighter bonds will be formed. Due to this new crossover, we'll be having reminders of the past relative to early 09/08, which has already started appearing in January. These reminders are good - erasing the past is the first step to a better future the way I see it, and slowly most of 2009 is fading away. I don't want it to return to December, November, October,-- any other month after January 2009 anymore for a few reasons. It just appears to be ugly to look back on. The fun times I'd rather forget, with this new set of people, those memories are just counted as negative in my mind. It's weird, I view... 2006 as something like doughnuts, then 2007 as candy canes, 2008 as fairy floss, and 2009 as something minty and unpleasant. I don't count December as 2009 though, I just count it as a seperate month I wish to forget. It won't be forgotten though. There will always be constant reminders, but I've realised now that I don't need my old friends to be happy. I don't want it to go back to before, and now I'm happy with everyone - of course, I can't exactly define everyone, but less of the 2009 people (no offence to them, they're great, just the year is something I wish to forget) is a good thing. People such as Libra and Dukey... well, I don't really count them as 2009 people anymore. They're just apart of this new set of people that actually make me happy. People such as Emily and Signomi, well, I could talk to Emily sometimes, but effort, though definately for the latter, even if we never speak to her again I'd be fine with that, well, right now I just probably couldn't take her returning to our conversations, I prefer how life is now. I don't need to be thrown back into 2009. January 2010 -- yes, it was a mistake. One month I want to forget completely, like June, July, August and September last year. That's fine though, bad months always lead to good ones, and this will be the good month. I think about December, the rest of 2009 now... and it just isn't real, maybe because it isn't applicable anymore, I don't know, but it still doesn't seem real. I know it all happened, just remembering it, gives me a strange feeling. It seems so long ago now that it's just... over. Blurred memories, really. I can't deny that December was good, but it doesn't matter anymore, as I've been saying, it's just an experience. Months such as January09 and July08, well, they were the good ones. I want to remember those months. They were based on PC, they were based on a smaller group. I do know that 2009's problem was the introduction of too many new people. I couldn't take it. Even talking to them occasionally now is fine, and better. The smaller group conversations are preferrable, with only a few people. I'm over them... I'm finally over the past. There's still reminders, but I'm over it... I don't want to get the people back anymore. I don't want it to go back to before. I actually feel happy enough with life how it is. Life's easier this way, and damn awesome.

It's like I waited my whole life <3
 
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It's too much for you when you first wake up. Give it a few moments and you'll be fine. :3
 
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Good choice. :D

Also, typing up why I chose each alts username and actual usernames involves so much memory usage o_o
 
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I'm more positive than the first three? XD

Kissing in mouths wasn't my alt though. :( I just told her to make it. XD
 
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I'm sorry Went, my brain just can't pause and create paragraphs in the middle of deep thinking.

Goodnight TCTI. <3
 
I spent an hour and a half looking for a book on a library. Didn't get it. So I came back home, googled "(title) + download", and now I'm happily reading it.

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