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Academics wise, 2018 has been stressful. Finished Year 11 which was only 3 terms and now I'm 5 weeks in to my last year of high school where all exams count. Stakes are high and I've been going through phases of being super productive to burning out and not doing work. I experienced significant academic success in some areas which I was really happy about, but I also experienced anxiety at other subjects which I did not do as well in so overall 2018 was mixed in that regard.
I grew closer to a lot of people this year, and also made quite a few new friends so there's also that. Cut some toxic people out of my life which improved my life a lot. But at the same time I feel like I'm getting worse at keeping up with some of my other friends, which worries me. It's something I'll work on.
Mental health wise, it's been like a roller coaster. First half of the year, my hypochondria had a huge flare up and I went through what seemed like a never ending cycle of convincing myself of my impending doom at any moment. I struggled to eat at one point, and became quite ill. Thankfully I have been getting better at implementing what I learnt in therapy and I think it's finally improving somewhat! I don't think I have full control over it yet but I hope it will be gone soon. With depression, it was quite similar. Been going through cycles where I feel OK and then will just feel sad or numb for extended periods of time. I think I've also gone backwards in terms of opening up to friends - I felt like last year I overshared a lot so I've mostly kept a lot of things to myself now. It's not healthy but I am looking into reorganising professional help at least.
Also in terms of general health, I made a lot of progress on finding out what had been causing a bunch of medical issues such as unexplained chest pain. Turns out I have severe reflux and whilst I've been struggling to cope with it, has eased a lot of anxiety regarding my health. Ended up in the hospital at one stage with severe chest pain that turned out to be reflux, which is how I found out in the first place. Has been improving but still not the greatest at keeping myself away from trigger foods though. :p But yeah, I'm happy with taking steps to address my health.
I grew closer to a lot of people this year, and also made quite a few new friends so there's also that. Cut some toxic people out of my life which improved my life a lot. But at the same time I feel like I'm getting worse at keeping up with some of my other friends, which worries me. It's something I'll work on.
Mental health wise, it's been like a roller coaster. First half of the year, my hypochondria had a huge flare up and I went through what seemed like a never ending cycle of convincing myself of my impending doom at any moment. I struggled to eat at one point, and became quite ill. Thankfully I have been getting better at implementing what I learnt in therapy and I think it's finally improving somewhat! I don't think I have full control over it yet but I hope it will be gone soon. With depression, it was quite similar. Been going through cycles where I feel OK and then will just feel sad or numb for extended periods of time. I think I've also gone backwards in terms of opening up to friends - I felt like last year I overshared a lot so I've mostly kept a lot of things to myself now. It's not healthy but I am looking into reorganising professional help at least.
Also in terms of general health, I made a lot of progress on finding out what had been causing a bunch of medical issues such as unexplained chest pain. Turns out I have severe reflux and whilst I've been struggling to cope with it, has eased a lot of anxiety regarding my health. Ended up in the hospital at one stage with severe chest pain that turned out to be reflux, which is how I found out in the first place. Has been improving but still not the greatest at keeping myself away from trigger foods though. :p But yeah, I'm happy with taking steps to address my health.
