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I applied to be an extra in a zombie film being shot across Britain just now. I've been a member of their secret Facebook group for months as well, so I can ask people questions, post stuff, and keep tabs on important announcements. The crew are coming to my city soon, to shoot some scenes. I'm getting a bank statement today so that I can get a quick DBS letter emailed to me within 10 days, in case it is required by law for the production team. The website I paid money to asked for a passport or a driver's license after I gave them £70 and so they said I could just upload a birth certificate and a bank letter, since I politely requested a refund after I explained that I do not possess these items.
Unfortunately, I suffer from anxiety, and I find being around a lot of people makes me nervous, so you can hazard a guess that acting will likely give me stage fright. It's rare now that I venture around using buses, or go in supermarkets. If I need a few items, I use general stores so I can pay up in a hurry. Therefore, I wanted someone to come with me to the shoot, but my sister cannot come. She's got major issues just now, and she is quite stressed out from having her kid taken away. As you can probably guess, this is a good opportunity for me to be in a major movie. My older male friend does drama, but he doesn't care about doing extras work, so there's really no one else. He let me down before, and I was very frustrated about that, because I don't really like to be reliant on other people, but I feel kind of beat.
I've never been properly diagnosed as having autism, so they put me in the "PDD-NOS" category instead, back in 2007. Then I was receiving support from a company called Autism Initiatives in Scotland for several years, until they betrayed me.
There had been a long period where I did not have any support workers assigned from social services, due to an issue that happened 2 years ago with a few female care workers, which occurred at the supported accommodation I lived in. It put me off of trusting these kind of helpers again, but I feel rather desperate now. These former helpers betrayed me, and I was left hurt, and I then did (what I felt were) noble things to get their attention, for to apologize for whatever I seemingly did to upset them, which backfired because I was ordered not to contact them, but they didn't care anyway. However, many support workers don't have any passion for the job at all, as I came to learn. Most of these people just do courses, and then get a job as a support worker to make fast cash, but otherwise, they don't give a crap about their clients.
I've got this social worker who claims the majority of caregivers within these agencies are women, but I don't think that's even true, but it's going to present a problem. However, he did find me 2 guys a few months ago, but they had 'set' hours, and I didn't think they were overly brilliant, or anything. Plus, he knows I have a supervisor from the court, and he was getting the support workers to serve as his legal stool pigeons, or i.e. informants.
They won't put women with me now, except perhaps older ladies. There's also a problem with funding, since I ended my support a few years ago, and things change. After I quit my support after what happened, they coaxed me to give up my tenancy as well, since I went to court too, and I used to get like 9 hours a week, even before they offered me that flat I was in. The court no doubt got a ton of crappy reports about the way I behaved, yet they inspired the way I behaved, because after these women were removed at their request, the 'senior' support staff lied to spare my feelings (by saying they were still my workers, while grinning) and all the people who supported me that acted sympathetic were compounding the situation by being a grass the *ENTIRE* time.
I went to see the doctor a few weeks ago, and I took along an advocacy worker, who at every opportunity, tells people like my doctor that I "fire" my staff, which is inaccurate. I'd told this social worker what I required the support for when I first met him, yet he didn't give me guys that were any darn good. All the doctors do is run me down, saying I don't even have autism, so I cannot get any psychological help from ideal referrals in order to discuss my heartache. And for these anxiety attacks, all they offer is beta blockers. How's that a cure-all?
Well anyway, what can I do to help my anxiety issues? Should I cut out caffeine, sugar and starchy food?
Unfortunately, I suffer from anxiety, and I find being around a lot of people makes me nervous, so you can hazard a guess that acting will likely give me stage fright. It's rare now that I venture around using buses, or go in supermarkets. If I need a few items, I use general stores so I can pay up in a hurry. Therefore, I wanted someone to come with me to the shoot, but my sister cannot come. She's got major issues just now, and she is quite stressed out from having her kid taken away. As you can probably guess, this is a good opportunity for me to be in a major movie. My older male friend does drama, but he doesn't care about doing extras work, so there's really no one else. He let me down before, and I was very frustrated about that, because I don't really like to be reliant on other people, but I feel kind of beat.
I've never been properly diagnosed as having autism, so they put me in the "PDD-NOS" category instead, back in 2007. Then I was receiving support from a company called Autism Initiatives in Scotland for several years, until they betrayed me.
There had been a long period where I did not have any support workers assigned from social services, due to an issue that happened 2 years ago with a few female care workers, which occurred at the supported accommodation I lived in. It put me off of trusting these kind of helpers again, but I feel rather desperate now. These former helpers betrayed me, and I was left hurt, and I then did (what I felt were) noble things to get their attention, for to apologize for whatever I seemingly did to upset them, which backfired because I was ordered not to contact them, but they didn't care anyway. However, many support workers don't have any passion for the job at all, as I came to learn. Most of these people just do courses, and then get a job as a support worker to make fast cash, but otherwise, they don't give a crap about their clients.
I've got this social worker who claims the majority of caregivers within these agencies are women, but I don't think that's even true, but it's going to present a problem. However, he did find me 2 guys a few months ago, but they had 'set' hours, and I didn't think they were overly brilliant, or anything. Plus, he knows I have a supervisor from the court, and he was getting the support workers to serve as his legal stool pigeons, or i.e. informants.
They won't put women with me now, except perhaps older ladies. There's also a problem with funding, since I ended my support a few years ago, and things change. After I quit my support after what happened, they coaxed me to give up my tenancy as well, since I went to court too, and I used to get like 9 hours a week, even before they offered me that flat I was in. The court no doubt got a ton of crappy reports about the way I behaved, yet they inspired the way I behaved, because after these women were removed at their request, the 'senior' support staff lied to spare my feelings (by saying they were still my workers, while grinning) and all the people who supported me that acted sympathetic were compounding the situation by being a grass the *ENTIRE* time.
I went to see the doctor a few weeks ago, and I took along an advocacy worker, who at every opportunity, tells people like my doctor that I "fire" my staff, which is inaccurate. I'd told this social worker what I required the support for when I first met him, yet he didn't give me guys that were any darn good. All the doctors do is run me down, saying I don't even have autism, so I cannot get any psychological help from ideal referrals in order to discuss my heartache. And for these anxiety attacks, all they offer is beta blockers. How's that a cure-all?
Well anyway, what can I do to help my anxiety issues? Should I cut out caffeine, sugar and starchy food?
