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Kris Get The Banana
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- Houston, TX
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The past few weeks have been up and down for me, especially in my current relationship. I'm not sure if I need to evaluate myself or I do need to make some adjustments here and there.
I'm beginning to notice the fact that I'm giving more than taking. I'm usually the one doing the majority of the grocery shopping, as well as the cleaning. That's mostly because I have a shit ton of energy during the day and I also like to get everything done. I'm...also not putting myself first. Ever since moving here, I've been caring for Roy and his mom more than my actual self. And quite honestly, this is beginning to become a problem for me.
And what's worse, not feeling appreciated for what you do. All that hard work wasted. Yet I still keep doing it.
My dad also has the same problem. However, he has it worse than I do because he hasn't come up to terms yet. He even worries about his employees (he's a store manager).
I really need to start putting myself first from now on. I'm getting sick and tired of worrying and panicking about other people's shit when I should be worrying about my own. Although I do care about the positivity and happiness of other people, it's really starting to take a toll on my health, mentally, emotionally, and physically. My own boyfriend taught me the most important lesson of life last year, which was to love myself no matter what. I think I need to revisit that.
I'm beginning to notice the fact that I'm giving more than taking. I'm usually the one doing the majority of the grocery shopping, as well as the cleaning. That's mostly because I have a shit ton of energy during the day and I also like to get everything done. I'm...also not putting myself first. Ever since moving here, I've been caring for Roy and his mom more than my actual self. And quite honestly, this is beginning to become a problem for me.
And what's worse, not feeling appreciated for what you do. All that hard work wasted. Yet I still keep doing it.
My dad also has the same problem. However, he has it worse than I do because he hasn't come up to terms yet. He even worries about his employees (he's a store manager).
I really need to start putting myself first from now on. I'm getting sick and tired of worrying and panicking about other people's shit when I should be worrying about my own. Although I do care about the positivity and happiness of other people, it's really starting to take a toll on my health, mentally, emotionally, and physically. My own boyfriend taught me the most important lesson of life last year, which was to love myself no matter what. I think I need to revisit that.
