Nina's Path

[Aquacorde]

Aw that's alright tho! Circumstances like to get in the way of progress >:0 Maybe you could try focusing on smaller goals, or less often goals, and climb your way up to the bigger goals that way? Even your prerequisites are kind of big things tbh! Pick one or two tasks from each list to start with, and once those become a habit add more? I would recommend like to start-

- Take vitamins every day.
- Have 30 min dedicaded art time per day.
- exercise 15min 3x/week.
- cut [one junk food/drink] out of diet

And don't beat yourself up about not doing everything, or write off an entire week as a wash just bc you missed a day! Most of my goals are only met 5/7 days really, but that's okay because I still did them 5 days instead of zero days, you know?

 

[SirBoglor]

I think that what Anna said is a wonderful point. I really hope that you will consider it, it could be very helpful!

In the meantime, I hope that you know that we're here to support you through all of this. We definitely care about you, and are more than happy to help in any way that we can. If you ever feel the need to confide your feelings to anyone, no matter how unimportant or silly they may seem to you, don't be afraid to talk to someone about it. It can be me, Anna, Johnny, whoever you feel comfortable talking to. But it's important to release what's going on inside every once in a while, you know?

I'm saying this because I've been in the same boat as you lately. I just...dropped the ball, I guess. It really sucked, and I felt horrible about it. But when I spoke out my feelings to a close friend of mine, it simply made things better. That kind of emotional release really helped me out. Maybe it can help you out, too. I certainly hope so.

Anyways, hang in there! You got this.

 

[Nina]

Aw that's alright tho! Circumstances like to get in the way of progress >:0 Maybe you could try focusing on smaller goals, or less often goals, and climb your way up to the bigger goals that way? Even your prerequisites are kind of big things tbh! Pick one or two tasks from each list to start with, and once those become a habit add more? I would recommend like to start-

- Take vitamins every day.
- Have 30 min dedicaded art time per day.
- exercise 15min 3x/week.
- cut [one junk food/drink] out of diet

And don't beat yourself up about not doing everything, or write off an entire week as a wash just bc you missed a day! Most of my goals are only met 5/7 days really, but that's okay because I still did them 5 days instead of zero days, you know?

Johnny mentioned it as well, that I should start trying to allot a time for work specifically. I'm afraid I won't do it, but I guess I should attempt that at least, as well as exercising on off days. Thankfully (somehow) me being sick and snotty has knocked me off of having dr. pepper because I just need to drink tons of water to not be parched and dry in my throat, so I'm currently on drinking water only and road it out easily because my body feels terrible already! Pft, but that is something.

I think that what Anna said is a wonderful point. I really hope that you will consider it, it could be very helpful!

In the meantime, I hope that you know that we're here to support you through all of this. We definitely care about you, and are more than happy to help in any way that we can. If you ever feel the need to confide your feelings to anyone, no matter how unimportant or silly they may seem to you, don't be afraid to talk to someone about it. It can be me, Anna, Johnny, whoever you feel comfortable talking to. But it's important to release what's going on inside every once in a while, you know?

I'm saying this because I've been in the same boat as you lately. I just...dropped the ball, I guess. It really sucked, and I felt horrible about it. But when I spoke out my feelings to a close friend of mine, it simply made things better. That kind of emotional release really helped me out. Maybe it can help you out, too. I certainly hope so.

Anyways, hang in there! You got this.

Asking for help is something I struggle with, so I can't really take you up on your offer, but thank you for offering. I do feel a bit better after just being actually sick for awhile, weird way of release, but you know.

It's just coincidental, but since it's a new month I can feel good about starting a fresh month in my journal and reorganize my goals.

 

[Nina]

Monday I went to my first real day of work, even if it was short.
Tuesday I went to psychical therapy (chiropractic)
Wednesday I went to a psychiatrist because I have issues and had a panic attack.
Thursday I will be going to my general care doctor to fulfill a prescription for anti-depressants.

I need to...rework my goals. To say the least.
She said every day she wanted me to write down "what did I do for myself today?". It's a pretty open ended question, so I'll roll with it I guess.

 

[Aquacorde]

Ahh I did something like that, the "what did I do for myself" thing. I found it best to build off of my goals rather than just say "I did something that makes me feel good" because when I did that the list was full of like "i bingewatched a show" and "i ate ice cream" which. Yeah they make me feel good but are they actually good for me? haha nah.

So I made myself another list. "What things are good for me to do?" Eat a serving of vegetables. Exercise for 10min. Go for a walk/walk instead of drive. Spend some time outside. Read a book. Eat fruit instead of a processed dessert. Clean a room in the house. Organize something. Drink 32oz of water. Do some art- even just doodling. That kind of thing.

And once I've made that list, I pick something from there to put on my "what did I do for myself today?" list. Or do y'know, the popsicle stick method? Write a bunch of them on sticks and if you can't decide, or are bored, pull one out and do that.