Ouch, i feel your pain Ryan... be prepared for a long story.
Well my first serious girlfriend, was almost a year back now i suppose. It took a lot of courage just for me to tell her that i liked her but eventually i did and we were "going out"
So everything was going fine and we were happy i spose that lasted about two months if remember correctly till i started feeling depressed because of the pressure of school (thank you bullies) and my home situation (which i wont go into at the present time).
So i got really quiet and i suppose she didnt like that, so that was about the time she told me she thought she was ill, she said she was finding it hard to breath at first i wasnt too sure if i was to believe her or not, but when i was with her and she nearly fainted i obviously did.
When she started getting worse she told me over msn (how lame is that) that she wanted to finnish it, this crushed what was left of me. Apparently she didnt want me to see her "the way she was" but i thought thats what boyfriends were for.
Anyway we broke up and i was completly heartbroken, she eventually went to the hospital and got the all clear and not long after that one of my best friends went for her with out a seconds thought for my feelings or opinion.
To this day they've been dating and it tears me up inside and i will probably always hate him for doing it to me, but i have to grin and bear it and hope that if me and her are meant to be it will happen, if not as long as shes happy i wont interfere.
A pretty depressing story about a first girlfriend but it wont put me off, if they ever split up i'll be in there in a heartbeat, untill then theres still fish in the sea