World King

Well, you can only get over it. There is nothing more you can do unless you go down the route that my stupid friend chose to go. Which would make you a total moron.

That's not true. I know you care whether I am here or not. You still Yahoo text messages to me and you speak with me through VM's. And that's not a bad thing. Just proves that you have a heart, even if it is broken.
But you can't let what happened between the two of us determine whether you hate humanity or not. Thankfully, I am only one Eivana and there is no one else like me. You never know if something is going to happen though to someone over the internet. Enjoy having me around while you are lucky enough to have me around. That's all I can really say.

Well, it sounds like something you need to deal with on your own, or someone you care about more than me. Which is fine, as long as it helps you cope.

Why am I gone forever to you? I'm right here.
And graduation opens up a whole new world! You haven't met even HALF the people you're going to meet in your life.

Well then that is something you need to work with, and I'll always talk it out with you if you want to talk to me privately about it. (None of my messengers work anymore. They all pop up as empty boxes)

Karlos, hold your head up high and move on through your downfalls. This will be okay eventually, it's not like I'm gone forever. I won't be. You feel like you've messed your life up because you're trapped in high school and you're trapped at home. You need to graduate and see the world for yourself and then you'll understand what I mean. I care about you, if that counts for something.

I doubt it was all because of you.
You probably lived the kind of life that wasn't worth it. But from the way you talk you have changed that style of life for the better... Even though you still get into trouble here and there. But the point is, you either need to really repent for it if it truly was your fault, or work with it and accept it if it wasn't. Don't blame yourself and hold yourself down if it was not really your fault.
(I'm not incredibly sure what happened. If you would care to enlighten me.)

I shouldn't be, Karlos. Honestly. I don't even know what is going to happen in my own future, I can't sit there and make promises to you that I am not sure I can keep. I won't do that to anybody. And you said the same thing when you were with Kate... But the truth is, you just need to meet someone better. The difference between Kate and I is the fact that I am willing to stay around and be there when she wasn't. And I know that I am not going to be what you want me to be. I can't. But Karlos, the thing you have to learn is, I CAN'T pretend, and I won't. It wouldn't be fair to you to make you think something is true that isn't. But you have to stop with the 'the way I want' stuff, because life isn't like that. The world will not revolve around you, and my world cannot. My world is upside down and I am trying to find my own way in life. I think you need to as well. But throwing out your friends and people who care about you is a good way to mess yourself up.

Having a friend accidentally killed and taking her own life because she's completely miserable and can not be helped are two totally different things. When my best friend T.J. killed himself and all I could do was sit there and watch because there was nothing I could do, there is just no getting over something like that. I would have rather he died by accident than suicide, as mean as that makes me sound.

I know, but you can't let me get you down. I'm just a single human being, nothing makes me more important or less important than the next person. You will find someone so much better than me, that I can promise. I mean, I will always be around to help you no matter what. I just can't promise it will be the way you want me to, and I'm sorry.

When you see a friend kill themself in real life, then you'll understand losing all meaning of the word happy. Don't give me that.

You're basing our relationship on a 'what if' thing. How many times have we tried? Probably 100 or more. And if you can't hate me, then why the hell not just be friends? That's what I don't understand. That makes no sense to me. I can't force you to be friends with me, and I won't try. But I know that you and I have had our most fun just being friends, because when we were together we constantly argued and bickered. Who the hell could be happy and want that?

Well, honestly, that you would stick by me no matter what. That we'd be friends no matter what decisions I made. I understand that you're hurt by what I chose, but you HAVE to at least understand that we're both happy. You have a whole world of girls to choose from now, I even told you that I would help you.
And yes... Best friends. The person you trust the most and work on a friendly relationship with? What's the point in even having a relationship with someone to begin with if you're just going to ditch them because something you wanted didn't work out? Would you honestly be happy if I decided to get back with you just to please you and keep our friendship, but you knew that I wasn't happy? I mean, would you honestly be that selfish?

Oh sigh.
Seems like all boys are like this. I recall a lot of promises that you made to me and now you're proving to me that they were nothing but wasted space and words. You'll realize one day that I am one of the best friends you'll ever have. I actually care about what happens to you. Be thankful for that.

Well it's not like I would be an 'addition'. I was your friend before either of us even decided to be a PC Pair in the first place. Like, last year. So technically you wouldn't really be getting anymore. Just lil' ol' Eivana. I don't hate you either, but I will admit you and I don't see eye to eye and you drive me crazy sometimes. And I do count on you, you just don't realize it. And besides, it's not like I'm looking for anyone. I would rather stay single for a long time. Even in France.

Good. Then show it. And I'm not meaning that in a sarcastic, mean way either. I just really would like it if you would stop being so hard headed.

I just don't understand your logic. I know that everything you have is online, but what I'm not getting at is why you are so hellbent on me either being your girlfriend or nothing at all. I don't understand why it is black or white with you. All we ever did was argue just like we are now when we were 'together'. God I figured you'd be relieved to see us as friends, we always got along better like that anyway. And most people on here who are PC Pairs aren't together in real life. I just don't have the time for an online relationship. You don't have to HATE me for that. It's nothing personal.

I know.
I promised I'd help, and I will.

I know you don't want to stop, and that's kind of pitiful. I have never met such a selfish person in my life. You take this online stuff so seriously, and I'll tell you one thing. If you treat all of your other friends the way you do me and a couple others that have spoken to me, you are going to lose every friend you've ever had. They won't listen to your whining.

It's up to you. I told you I would help you get that emblem and I will. Because I'm not selfish and I'm willing to help you out. Thanks for being so god damn considerate toward me. /sarcasm, btw.

That's pretty much all we ever were, but you always want to take things too far. I mean, I am actually trying to be nice and help you out, because you told me that you really wanted the emblem. But that's really unkind of you to tell me that we either be together or not even friends at all. You're just being a selfish brat. I want to be friends with you, and you have to make things difficult. Stop thinking of yourself for once.

You basically say, "My way or no way." And that is incredibly childish, especially since I am working with you to get you that award.

Yeah I know, I don't have the right to say life is hard. And I'm sorry for that.

I dunno.
I'm just done acting like children. We're old enough to realize that this is stupid. I also got your message so I figured you were wanting to talk to me about something anyway, so I just kind of kept the whole thing light.

I am not going to discuss the selfish things you said on IM. And you would have no idea what goes on in my mind. That's for definite sure.

I am curious... If you don't want to talk about it anymore, then why bother typing something like that and sending it to me? I have never understood that. If you want to say something, why not just come out and say it? I would rather just get it all out in the open than beat around the bush like that.

Projects are just terrible >.>

Ohhh, okay.
I was talking about Orochi.

lol it's okay. i got off msn too bc you werent responding at all :P

Hi ^^