Dear Anonymous,
I... honestly think it's the end of us if you decide to take the test again. I feel so shallow and unreasonable for saying that, but I can't do that to myself again. You're in the point in your life where you want to develop a career. You want to make a life for yourself - finally follow your dreams and make them real. I respect, but mostly admire that. Part of the reason I fell for you in the first place was because you had that ambition in you, and I love that. You've got everything set.
Me, I'm keeping my dreams in mind, making plans, and enjoying my life for what it is now. I have the time to explore who I am and want to share that with someone. It's not that my future isn't important to me. I want a career and to follow my own dreams as well... but I'm young enough. That'll come - and I'll wait. What's important to me right now, is right now. I really care for you a lot, and I really like spending time with you, but I can't lay around missing you all the time. It hurts too much. I went through it for your sake once, I... just can't do it again. I'm not that strong of a person.
Anonymous, when you make your decision... you make my decision. Either way, you'll always have a special place in my heart and I hope you get everything you ever wanted out of life. One day you're going to make someone a very happy man, and I'm just glad I got to call you mine for a brief moment. I love you.