meh, does it say enough if I say that I have PDD-NOS? no? are you joking? you really want to know more? damn.
well, I'm heavily paranoid. well, that's what I think of myself, seeing as how alone I am. just 1 or 2 friends. and I'm also very antisocial, I seriously can't talk to someone in real life. I get somehow very shy at that moment, and mostly say very short things, mainly "yes" or "no". worst thing that I even get red sometimes, and then I get even more shy. on the internet on the other hand, I can speak freely about everything (like now), since I know that no one knows me and that I never will met him/her. and if we did, we would never know that we know each other.
and I always either sleep (at day, litterally) or daydream. including at school. then I dream or think about everything, about the past, present and future. like I'm looking through time. weirdest thing is, even though I sleep or daydream, I seem to hear and memorize the important things around me. like at school, I don't hear what the teacher is telling the class when I sleep or daydream, but after the lesson, I can recall what the teacher told and teached us.
the weirdest but best thing is that I don't have to learn much. I just have to read and learn everything a few times, then I memorize it forever. I can't tell them from scratch, like now, but as soon as I get a test, I can recall everything and get a high score. I don't want to sound like a genuis or something, but last year, I got through my secondary school exams with flying colors. and I haven't learned anything. I just sat down and waited for my exams, and I got through them easly. everyone says the exams are weird, but I find them easy.
oh, and the real paranoid part, I always have the feeling that there's someone or something close by. both when there's a lot people like in a busy street (and no, it's not the people I feel, but truly something else than those people) and when there's no one. I've learned to live with it, it's way too familiar now... like I know it for years....
