~Autumn Daily Chit Chat~

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*Sigh* Oh, how I hate life. I hate everything, and I know my mother hates me. I feel so different, having no real life friends, not even my own house room, and all. Today my mother smacked me straight in the face whe she was angry, she's not anymore, but my eyes have been watery since. Today I felt like commiting suicide more than ever..
 
Amaya said:
*Sigh* Oh, how I hate life. I hate everything, and I know my mother hates me. I feel so different, having no real life friends, not even my own house room, and all. Today my mother smacked me straight in the face whe she was angry, she's not anymore, but my eyes have been watery since. Today I felt like commiting suicide more than ever..
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Listen. some people have a life harder than others. I've been tormented my entire life, but it never got to me. You need to really think sabout this. It's never the answer.
 
I've been enduring it for like.. six years. My mother always jumps to conclusions and she's the only one in the whole wide world who can insult me so badly. I just hate to see my family argue.. my mother began yelling at my father, saying he was so horrible and he was acting strange. I began to cry almost because I didn't want to see them argue, and I said to my mother that she was the one acting strange. That's when she slapped me. That's been repeated over the years now, I wish I hadn't been so different. Maybe I can just give up all my roleplays, internet friends, and account and leave here..

Edit: So think about it? I seen people think about it, because they have things to leave, a family, a pack of PC friends who PM them every day. I'm different. I'm always different, and I believe I'll never be the same as anyone else. What I want the answer to is how the PC will be without me. Probably not to pint size different. My mother never even wanted a second child in the family either, and not my father for all that matter.
 
Amaya said:
I've been enduring it for like.. six years. My mother always jumps to conclusions and she's the only one in the whole wide world who can insult me so badly. I just hate to see my family argue.. my mother began yelling at my father, saying he was so horrible and he was acting strange. I began to cry almost because I didn't want to see them argue, and I said to my mother that she was the one acting strange. That's when she slapped me. That's been repeated over the years now, I wish I hadn't been so different. Maybe I can just give up all my roleplays, internet friends, and account and leave here..

Edit: So think about it? I seen people think about it, because they have things to leave, a family, a pack of PC friends who PM them every day. I'm different. I'm always different, and I believe I'll never be the same as anyone else. What I want the answer to is how the PC will be without me. Probably not to pint size different. My mother never even wanted a second child in the family either, and not my father for all that matter.
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Well, for one, even the smallest member doing something can have an everlasting impact. You never know. second, I know hard times. you ever had a time where your grandmother was almost killed before your very eyes while you huddled in a room? you ever see and hear someone you know whisper his suicide? Everyone has their hardships. But it's up to you to endure and put up with them. If you can live on, you can go on to do great things. and btw, I'm 19. Been tormented longer than you. I've had my emotions messed with over 13 years. I was actually close to thimking like the way you are now. but I knew that was never the answer. I lasted, and nowadays, someone messes with me, I just ignore em. But, with all thats happened, you have a ight to think the way you do. Ya truly do, but it's never the answer to this. It's never the answer to anything. And it pays to be different. You're not following the others.. you're traveling the path less traveled. It's okay to be different. I am. I'm 19, still into pokemon and I know I'll never get ahead in life to be honest, but it never lets me down. not one bit.

Please....read this and know, you are never alone. You may think so, but you never are.
 
Amaya dear....dont get that sad face ;-;
You're still very young, yu have got your whole life ahead of you, and it would be such a pitty to end it =( Dont do anything crazy hun, you dont deserve this ;-;
We all go through hard times in our lives, trust me, I did too...when I was your age, I went through many problems, and Im still facing plenty with my parents divorce and with my step mom and step sister....But, I know, that as long as I hold on, everything will be better once again. I know it may sound pathetic but...try to make positie thoughts. Suiciding doesnt make way to anything. Hard times are a part of every single life. The even exist in the lives we call as "perfect". You can be strong enough to handle this all, it will feel so much better when it ends.
And Im sure your mom doesnt hate you. Maybe she just cares for you a lot, but doesnt know how to show it. And I cant explain it. She's your mother and she wants the best for you.
 
*Sob* Thank you guys. I have to leave now, and I love you all. Tonight I'll think about this all, but for now, goodbye. See you tomorrow. Maybe, at the least.
 
I hope Ill see you soon hun ^^ And I hope everything will get better for you. We love ya too :3. Think about these things please, that doesnt deserve to happen to you.
 
Amaya said:
*Sob* Thank you guys. I have to leave now, and I love you all. Tonight I'll think about this all, but for now, goodbye. See you tomorrow. Maybe, at the least.
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Hope this all sinks in. And see ya. We will all be here when you return. ^^
 
Hi, Cybex. Do you think Amaya will be ok?
 
Amaya said:
*Sigh* Oh, how I hate life. I hate everything, and I know my mother hates me. I feel so different, having no real life friends, not even my own house room, and all. Today my mother smacked me straight in the face whe she was angry, she's not anymore, but my eyes have been watery since. Today I felt like commiting suicide more than ever..
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do not worry there, I have had a past like that, I am not sure how much Im going to say, but I have put in worse situations, this is the only thing I can say to help... Is that Dont let it get to you, I know how bad this may feel, just dont worry about it, I have no friends irl, I have had none for about 5 years now, I dont go to school cause I got beat uppies all the time, and it was not a nice time, now... youre mother has a reason to of done this, honestly.. I hated myself so much one day I nearly came to death, the way I didnt want to >.< and I did this after the best thing happend to me.. Now all I can say to you is that you need to keep youre chin up, do not worry about anything youre mother has to do, Cause she has her reasons, and Dont worry about having friends irl, cause I dont, and look at me now, I got over my fears and worries on my own, I wish you could do that same ^^;;

Originally Posted by Amaya
I've been enduring it for like.. six years. My mother always jumps to conclusions and she's the only one in the whole wide world who can insult me so badly. I just hate to see my family argue.. my mother began yelling at my father, saying he was so horrible and he was acting strange. I began to cry almost because I didn't want to see them argue, and I said to my mother that she was the one acting strange. That's when she slapped me. That's been repeated over the years now, I wish I hadn't been so different. Maybe I can just give up all my roleplays, internet friends, and account and leave here..

Edit: So think about it? I seen people think about it, because they have things to leave, a family, a pack of PC friends who PM them every day. I'm different. I'm always different, and I believe I'll never be the same as anyone else. What I want the answer to is how the PC will be without me. Probably not to pint size different. My mother never even wanted a second child in the family either, and not my father for all that matter.
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Well 6 years ai? well over people have had it worse, now I dnot know what to say, because I have no father -_- Sorry..I just hope you dont do anything drastic, because you will get friends, you WILL get youre mother to be happy with you

now, what havent you said? What has youre mother recently done for you that has been nice. You havent pointed out the nice things about youre mother or father. Ok so she has hurt you, what else has she done? Has she bought you stuff, has she loved you? You havent pointed this out yet, because for all we know, youre pointing out information that is small, and really, is Rare.. Cause my mother beats me regually, and I dont give a flying Monkeys about it! I mean she hasnt in a few months , but I still have the scars in my mind

dont go all down on us, now tell us the good points pwease ^^;; sorry for being such a dragger with these kind of things, but still ;_;
 
Miss May said:
Hi, Cybex. Do you think Amaya will be ok?
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I'm sure she'll be fine in the later hours. I hope so. Cause if she is, then great. ^^
 
Yep ^-^ How was everyone's day so far? My was pwetty boring...But also kinda exciting ^^ Any news from you guys?
 
Yo Greta!

Mine is going awesome!

I just found out that I'm aloud to go on Tall Ships. Their these huge Pirate ships that sail around the world. The next trip from Swansea is to Portsmouth, sailing around France though on the way.

It costs £350 but thats the cheapest trip going, so were taking it XD
 
Heya :3
Omg Strider that sooooo awesome! =0 I wish I had the chance to go there too...it sound like its gonna be teh fun ^^
Glad your day is going great...
I still have a 3 hour english lesson waiting for me *faints*
 
~*Strider*~ said:
Yo Greta!

Mine is going awesome!

I just found out that I'm aloud to go on Tall Ships. Their these huge Pirate ships that sail around the world. The next trip from Swansea is to Portsmouth, sailing around France though on the way.

It costs ?350 but thats the cheapest trip going, so were taking it XD
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Hotness. for a sec, I thought for a sec you refering to a city in my state. XD!
 
O_O portsmouth, HEY PAY ME A VISIT, IM FROM HERE, im in porstmouth, its were I live ^^ I hope you have fun here ,ohh and im feeling great ^^;;
 
Seto_girl said:
O_O portsmouth, HEY PAY ME A VISIT, IM FROM HERE, im in porstmouth, its were I live ^^ I hope you have fun here ,ohh and im feeling great ^^;;
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OMG, really =D

You can meat me at the dock XD I never knew you lived there, so it is somewhere in London XD...thats okay then...for all I knew we could have been going to Australia x_x

Cy...Dude...don't scare me like that...I would never get home from there XD
 
Seto_girl said:
O_O portsmouth, HEY PAY ME A VISIT, IM FROM HERE, im in porstmouth, its were I live ^^ I hope you have fun here ,ohh and im feeling great ^^;;
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O.o SO! thats where you are! XD! I shall FIND YOU AND......say hello. XD!!!
 
Hi everyone. Wow, tch, these updates're taking forever. XD
They'z slowing down PC alot too. @@

What's up? Oh, tch, I see yar talkin' 'bout meeting different PC members? ^^
Yay, tch, I'd like ta meet a few I'm friends with. ^^;;

And tremble, Cy, tch, 'cause yar on that list. XD

Gawd, I gotta get done with hischool as fast as I can so I can move out. It ain't like I can actually meet anyone as long as I'm stuck in Romania. XD
 
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