I know it's wrong, so what should I do?

I hate the fact that I can get angry quickly. I also have low self-esteem, I'm way too shy around people. (offline, at least. Online I'm fairly social)
 
I have been told that I have a nasty attitude towards people that I do not like, but there is a reason why I get my attitude towards people that I do not like because they have done something to me in the past so does that give me the right to be nice to them? Nope. I also have a tad bit of anger problems.


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I can be really paranoid, but I wouldn't take that away. I find it funny sometimes and it also helps me be cautious and aware of my surroundings a lot more than other people I know who aren't as paranoid as I am.
 
I am very negative. When ever someone has an Idea for say a project at school and I dont like it I shoot it down straight away. But whatever they say I dont like it. Or when I'm doing something i'm not greta at I doubt myself and think I cant do it. I find it hard to like sometihng but once I do I love it. Yet I like nearly any type of person. its weird. I also have been told I complain too much
 
I certainly tend to be a tsundere...literally. General Type A sort of Tsundere that can be pretty loud, somewhat paranoid, uptight, too serious, headstrong, and really mean if you get me spun up and mad enough. Ice Queen to those I don't really know well at first...and certainly really defensive. Definitely Tsun-tsun most of the time.
I don't regret being that way. I've accepted the limitations and such of being this way...so it's not changing. I'm not medically unstable for certain...just a more Sun and Moon type person. Always have been, always will be. I'm naturally forgiving anyway, so even if you do misstep on the Tsun side you're not immediately kicked into next week or told to go sit on a tack.

As I warm up to people, get to know them and get to trusting them, I do thaw out and get less thorny...sometimes to the point where it might scare some. My Dere-dere side is very powerful and isn't buried that deeply under the Tsun-tsun...so all it takes is handling with some respect at first and I'll come around and lighten up. I'm really a gentle and caring sort of person...and even kind of shy...hence the ice phase at first. Once you've melted that I am not so quiet and shy, I can be quite a nice person and fairly sociable.
Even though my Dere-dere side can get a little carried away and easily swept away in the moment, I don't see any flaw in it. I'm just a passionate person...and once you melt the ice, you can't freeze it back into place.



Despite appearing like a very polymorphic kind of personality, I'm not a poser I really am just Tsundere, my flaws are what makes me who I am. I won't change them for the world. I'm actually quite stable in who I am. I do have more than one side, even if you never do get to see the others. Those who DO know me well, appreciate how I am and know how much of a softie I actually am. Don't let the bark fool you, it's much worse than the bite, unless the bite has to be worse.
 
I'm so shy that I'm actually afraid of talking to people on the phone/in games.

That kind of sucks.
 
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