Chapter 07
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Thank you all for your patience and it is now rewarded with the first of our Special Chapters ^^
A word of warning to begin: the language is a little bit stronger in this chapter and this one, in my opinion, is quite strong in terms of content emotionally, so just be aware that it may evoke some powerful emotions - I know it did for me while writing I can assure you ^^
Chapter 07 ~ Special! The Nightmare Begins...
Under a tree, I find myself... I'm walking slowly through dense golden foliage... it is Autumn, but it is not for that reason that the trees are golden... it is the fires... the fires of war... it has taken everything... my friends... my family... myself..."you do not belong"... an angry masculine voice speaks... this beautiful world is falling apart before my very eyes and I am powerless to stop it... "you are the cause"... that deep masculine voice echoes in my head... it causes the earth to shudder, the earth begins to crumble beneath my feet and a new being is born... Arceus...
I cannot shake the nightmare images as I sit with a dear friend in my wine-coloured living-room. We are sitting on the black leather sofa by the back wall, I'm gazing out the window, my head turned away from her. My eyes are fixated on the fuchsias and azaleas growing in my back yard, but my mind stays with that nightmare I had had the night before. It haunts me to no end...
"Are you alright?" Lyxah asks.
I slowly turn to face her as she places a hand on my shoulder.
"What is it?" her voice is deep, husky.
I'm not looking her, my eyes are still fixated on the nightmare images flitting about in my mind.. Lyxah's beaded dreads jingle and clatter as she flicks her long her back over her purple covered shoulder. The sounds re-affirm reality and snap me back.
"What?" my attention goes to her.
Her green eyes are bright, brilliant, penetrating... you cannot lie to her eyes.
"Okay, okay..." I sigh and smile at her, my head down, my eyes looking up at her.
"Come on honey," she rubs my shoulder. "Talk to me."
"I've not been sleeping well," I say tentatively. "Last night, I," I shake my head, "I had this... horrible, horrible nightmare," my eyes are filled with worry, my face white and my heart pounds in my chest.
I feel all clammy and sweaty, like I've done something wrong by talking about the dream. A wave of paranoia washes over me and I succumb to it willingly, instantly regretting my decision to discuss the dream. My eyes dart about frantically, my hands tremble and I await Lyxah's reaction.
"It was only a dream, hon," Lyxah places her hands over mine, holding them steady. "I wouldn't put too much stock into it."
I say nothing, but nod... I can't think of anything else to say...
"Come on," Lyxah stands up, "let's make some tea."
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Under a tree, I find myself... I'm walking slowly through dense golden foliage... it is Autumn, but it is not for that reason that the trees are golden... it is the fires... the fires of war... it has taken everything... my friends... my family... myself..."you do not belong"... an angry masculine voice speaks... this beautiful world is falling apart before my very eyes and I am powerless to stop it... "you are the cause"... that deep masculine voice echoes in my head... it causes the earth to shudder, the earth begins to crumble beneath my feet and a new being is born... Arceus...
I gasp for breath as I sit up sharply, clutching my chest, wanting to rip out the pain I feel inside. I feel weak and sick, like I have a fever although I know I suffer from no such affliction.
"It was only a dream, it was only a dream," I tell myself, rocking back and forth.
However, I know it was so much more than "only a dream"... this
nightmare has come at me twice now. I have the strangest feeling that if I turn around to face the blinking green numbers of the clock by my bed that it will say
2:32 because it did so the other night too. Regardless, I turn around anyway, hoping against all hope that it doesn't... but it does... my suspicions have been confirmed.
I look around my room: always seeing a shadow on the light blue walls out the corner of my eye, thinking I see a shape crawling across my rose-patterned bed-sheets, a noise tapping at the double-glazed window opposite the bed, someone rustling behind the green curtains... but I know it is just my imagination, it's all in my head and yet I can't shake the images and go back to sleep.
One can't help but cry in this situation and so I breakdown as I try to think about what has happened, what has gone wrong. I smother my face with my hands so that my mother and daughters won't hear me and come through and worry. They know not of this dream, but only because it is "only a dream"...
Suddenly it is morning, the pure light of the sun has transformed every inch of my room, turning it from the hellish nightmare world of
2:32 to my oceanic sanctuary. I feel safe again, even though I am lying propped up against the headboard, my neck and back are aching. But, this is nothing, this is just part of how I must deal with this situation.
"Shake it off, shake it off," I say to myself as I sit up properly.
I am unsure of how to act as the second day of my nightmare-ish life begins. The feelings I feel, the thoughts I think... I know they are all wrong. I do one thing - no-one can ever know about this, my panicked reaction to telling Lyxah yesterday tells me to keep this a secret.
"Our secret," a deep, but familiar, voice whispers behind me.
I spin around and see nothing but a dense shadow on the floor slowly evaporating and being consumed by the overwhelming light.
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The green screen-phone doubles as a computer, allowing me to research into dreams. I find myself having an ever-growing obsession as the day comes into full bloom. I research dreams, meanings of images, nightmares, conditions and, perhaps more important than anything else, that Legendary demon... Darkrai.
While I do learn a great deal of various nightmare ailments to dream psychoanalysis, my thoughts keep whirling me around to Darkrai. I stare for hours at the distorted images from phone-cameras, half seen shots from behind that could be just about anything in reality. I read every scrap of information I can, but find myself not knowing anything beyond my own true-to-life experience with Darkrai.
I remember clearly - I was travelling, with friends, to a place called Alamos Town, in order to participate in a Pokémon Contest there. We made several friends very quickly during a tour of the town and in a training battle, but we soon learned that it wasn't all going to be fun and games... Alamos Town was famous for two things - the Space-Time Tower and it's luscious gardens. My friends and I were in the garden we, suddenly, Darkrai rose from a shadow and forced us to retreat to the Pokémon Centre. Things go a bit chaotic after that - one of the guys I was travelling with, he began to have strange nightmares and, after another attack from Darkrai, the Pokémon were reduced to a permanent nightmare-state. None of us could believe that a Pokémon could be so evil, especially to its own kind...
However, Darkrai was not at fault. As a matter of fact, a good portion of what happened was really the fault of humans for retaliating against Darkrai who was only trying to help! What we weren't aware of at the start of it all was that another being, another Pokémon, had come to Alamos Town. It was Palkia, a Pokémon with an overwhelming control over space. It had been battling in a parallel dimension with the Time Pokémon, Dialga. One of the pink orbs on Palkia's shoulders had been damaged, severely weakening it and it had come to Alamos Town to seek refuge. Darkrai, immediately sensing the danger Palkia presented, made every effort to drive it away... but, it wasn't enough. Dialga came through and the town began to disintegrate and Darkrai was brushed aside easily and lost the battle. It then fell to us mere humans to prevent a cataclysmic battle between two Pokémon giants.
The Space-Time Tower is very special in that it has the capacity to play different melodies and reverberate them throughout the town, allowing all in the vicinity to hear and appreciate them. We employed this effectively to calm the colossal Space-Time duo and, through the use of a song called Oracion, designed to calm down Pokémon, the battle was temporarily averted. Darkrai's sacrifice had not been in vain.
Thankfully, Darkrai had not been fully quelled either as, just as we said our goodbyes, we caught a glimpse of his shadow towering over the town, watching over all of its citizens in triumph. Ever since then, I've felt a deep connection to the Nightmare Pokémon...
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The most terrifying sensation is the thought of losing one's mind. You can't help but feel trapped and hollow in a certain respect. Like, you don't know who you are anymore or how to act in certain social situations and everything just becomes insanely awkward, even amongst your own family. I constantly find myself thinking about how much a person's life can change purely based on their own psychosis, how much your subconscious can impact your conscious life and how it can slowly eat away and devour everything you hold and everything you will ever hold dear. A tiny thought, a small image, a miniscule concept can just pry its way into your head, crossing the apparent vast threshold between the dormant world and the waking world. It changes you, just a little bit at a time and you think it is so insignificant, but it's not, it never was and never will be. Your life becomes like a mirror world, where one thing is merely a facade and the reality is hidden. You life based on such a simple concept - no-one can never know just how far gone you are. So you live a lie, the facade is a facsimile of the person you used to be and the reality is what's hidden just under the cardboard cut-out, the bit that you don't want people to ever see. That makes you even crazier. Little pieces of the reality bleed through and cover the facsimile and people get just a little snippet of what is really going on underneath it all, but you hide so fast that they don't question, they don't see and make no move to help. That makes you even crazier. So you're left having to hold it all inside because, by now, it's too late to do anything, it's too late to change it all and ask for help because you can't bear the burden of people asking "why didn't you tell us this before?" That makes you even crazier. Everything falls apart, your mind begins to collapse under the weight of itself and all you can do is wander through your life, day to day, pretending, faking it all, acting as if there's not a damn thing wrong and there's nothing you can do to make it stop and everything just begins to disassemble and die inside and all that is left is an empty shell of a person who can do absolutely nothing but wither and wilt and turn to dust.
It all just turns to dust...
Under a tree, I find myself... I'm walking slowly through dense golden foliage... it is Autumn, but it is not for that reason that the trees are golden... it is the fires... the fires of war... it has taken everything... my friends... my family... myself..."you do not belong"... an angry masculine voice speaks... this beautiful world is falling apart before my very eyes and I am powerless to stop it... "you are the cause"... that deep masculine voice echoes in my head... it causes the earth to shudder, the earth begins to crumble beneath my feet and a new being is born... Arceus...
My life, my legacy, everything I've bled for turns to dust and is spoiled just because I am not strong enough, I am not worthy of my life. I do not deserve to call the amazing woman who sacrificed her own life and give me mine... I do not deserve my two beautiful daughters who have made this house my home... I don't even deserve the recognition I am being given in this very space, this very moment in time. I deserve nothing.
I am a failure.
It must end...
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Under a tree, I find myself... I'm walking slowly through dense golden foliage... it is Autumn, but it is not for that reason that the trees are golden... it is the fires... the fires of war... it has taken everything... my friends... my family... myself..."you do not belong"... an angry masculine voice speaks... this beautiful world is falling apart before my very eyes and I am powerless to stop it... "you are the cause"... that deep masculine voice echoes in my head... it causes the earth to shudder, the earth begins to crumble beneath my feet and a new being is born... Arceus...
I gasp for breath as I sit up sharply, clutching my chest, wanting to rip out the pain I feel inside. I feel weak and sick, like I have a fever although I know I suffer from no such affliction.
"It was only a dream, it was only a dream," I tell myself, rocking back and forth.
However, I know it was so much more than "only a dream"... this
nightmare has plagued my existence every night for almost a week now. I know that if I turn around to face the blinking green numbers of the clock by my bed, I know that it will say
2:32 because it always does. Regardless, I turn around anyway, hoping against all hope that it doesn't... but it does... it always does.
I look around my room: always seeing a shadow on the light blue walls out the corner of my eye, thinking I see a shape crawling across my rose-patterned bed-sheets, a nose tapping at the double-glazed window opposite the bed, someone rustling behind the green curtains... but I know it is just my imagination, it's all in my head and yet I can't shake the images and go back to sleep.
One can't help but cry in this situation and so I breakdown as I have done every time this has happened. I smother my face with my hands so that my mother and daughters won't hear me and come through and worry. They know not of this dream, but only because it is "only a dream"...
Suddenly it is morning, the pure light of the sun has transformed every inch of my room, turning it from the hellish nightmare world of
2:32 to my oceanic sanctuary. I feel safe again, even though I am lying propped up against the headboard, my neck and back are aching. But, this is nothing, this has become a part of my daily routine.
"I can help you," the dark, raspy voice of Darkrai echoes throughout the light. "Let me be seen."
"No," I sob and smother my face in my hands. "It's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream..."
The circle of shadow I can sense is on my floor vanishes, but I cannot stop...
"It's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream, it's only a dream..."
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Two weeks on and the facsimile has taken its full form. I go about my day-to-day business, cleaning the house as normal, pretending and acting my way through life as I struggle and battle myself on the inside. It kills me, but I have no choice. It must be this way for the sake of my family. If they knew what was wrong, I would surely be committed, but then, who would take care of mother, the house, the Pokémon, or... Lucas?
"Then let me help you," Darkrai's voice pops into my head.
I drop the duster and turn away from the kitchen table. I turn to face the door at the far end, opposite myself. A space on the yellow wall, just above the cooker to my right, a circular shadow appears and from it floats out a creature of almost humanoid shape, it wears a ragged clock, its hands shaped like claws, its face hidden behind red teeth and under white smoke. Only one cold blue eye may be seen.
"Darkrai," I gasp and knock into the table behind me.
I make a dart for the back door, I run around the wooded table to the white framed glass doors, but before I get close the shadows envelope me and I find myself in a world of black.
"Do not be afraid," he speaks in his deep, hoarse voice.
"Why shouldn't I be?" my voice is alarmingly high. "You've been implanting nightmares into my brain, tormenting me night after night after night!" I yell at him, regaining my composure as I exert some dominance. "Give me a damn good reason not be afraid then!"
"Came down," he raises his dark clawed hands in a gesture of peace. "Let me help you, you know I am not the enemy."
I hesitate and am suddenly overcome by the fact that this Pokémon has taken me from my home and plunged my into his own... dimension you could say.
Thinking on that, "I guess I have no real choice."
"You under-estimated me once before," he reminds me, "are you sure you want to again?"
"Just say what you want to say," I sigh angrily, admitting defeat on that round.
"The nightmares are to prepare you for what is to come," he says in his usual direct way. "If they know I have contacted you then I will be eliminated."
"They?" I repeat, my eyes wide with fear and shock.
"The nightmares are obscure, but they serve a purpose," he carries on, ignoring me. "But not the one you will think, but you must not tell anyone that."
"Please," I stop him, raising my hands and closing my eyes. "Just tell me straight what you want from me."
He nods and continues, "we need you to stop them, when they time comes you will understand," he pauses. "They have Arceus."
Everything goes silent for a very long time.
"They have Arceus?" I gasp and begin to pace back and forth and seemingly nothing, but there is no time to focus on that. "How?"
"Please, just listen," his low tone goes higher, almost as if he was scared. "You need to understand that there are things, even people, in this world who are not quite... what they seem, Arceus is one of them, they have him, they are using him to take away any threats, including the boy, that man..."
"Rekka's father," I whispered.
"Ash Ketchum..." Darkrai clarifies. "And they're coming for you next."
Within an instant I am back in my kitchen, as if the conversation never even happened. A new fear fills me - if they've got Ash, there is no way to know what that could mean for countless others, including myself. Will they come for me next?
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I whirl around, my breathing growing frantic as I begin to panic. I have somehow found my way deep into a forest in God only knows where. The huge sturdy trees surround me and close in, limiting my choice of direction. Every free route is covered in thorny bramble branches or holly leaves and there is no hope. Various parts of my body sting. I inspect myself and find I am covered in many cuts and scrapes, undoubtedly from my journey here... wherever here is...
"What do you want from me?" I shriek through the trees. "Why have you done this to me?"
My knees weaken, I feel dizzy and I cannot breathe. I collapse to the ground and begin to cry. I can't think in my head of what could possibly be happening. It's too much information. I see fire. It burns! It licks away at my flesh, eating me alive. I begin to sob and roll onto the ground, screaming in pain and terror. I gaze incoherently at the canopy of Autumn leaves above me, but it is not Autumn - the trees are burning!
"You do not belong!"
"No, no, no, no, no, no, NO!" I squeal. "I
do belong! I DO!"
The ground around me begins to crumble in a terrifying earthquake. The trees fall down, crashing all around me, drowning out my screams and yet I cannot stop myself. I pray that my daughters will hear me, that someone will hear me and come running to save me. A large tree collapses, snapping through some of the thorns that previously blocked my path - this is my chance!
I scramble to my feet, every inch of my body in agony and I throw myself towards the newly created clearing.
"You are the cause!" that deep voice booms all around me and causes another tree to fall.
The large hunk of solid wood breaks through the earth and plummets into darkness. My eyes widen at the sight and I claw my way towards the clearing. I can feel the earth behind me falling through, it is try to swallow me!
I howl into the fiery storm above as I too fall into darkness.
"And a new being is born," those final words escape my mouth and echo in the infinite void I am in, "... Arceus..."
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My mother wanders through the edge of Verity Forest, heading for the lake at its heart. I can see her as she goes alone on a perilous journey to look for me, none of her trusted Pokémon by her side. I feel so honoured to have someone who cares for me that much, someone who would go out even in the most terrible of conditions just to find their daughter. I feel a tear dribble down my cheek and a new sensation of power and control fills from when I first appeared in Arceus's dark void just a day before.
Something is wrong, however, my mother stops. Why? She is panting, holding onto a tree for balance, clutching at her chest. What's wrong? What's wrong? Why can't I get through to her? She is gasping for breath, it's hurting her. She's in pain, so much agony, I can see it in her eyes. Don't worry mommy, it'll be okay, it'll be okay, please calm down, please be alright! Her left arm falls dead, it appears numb and useless so she tries to raise her other hand to her obviously aching head. She loses the support of the tree and... no, mommy! Mommy! Mommy! No! She's fallen, she's on the ground, she's hit her head, I don't know what to do, oh God please help me, do something! Please! Mommy! Mommy! I can feel her getting closer and closer yet she's so far away. She's dying please! Somebody! Mommy! Help her! Help her! Please!
"Stop," a gentle, feminine voice speaks in my head.
I recognise it as being the one from a good dream I had had, right before the nightmare became a reality.
"Speak to her," it whispers and fades away.
"Mommy?" I speak to my mother.
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I gasp for breath, the darkness seeps in through my eyes, my nose, my ears, fuming its way through my body, violating my very being.
"No!" I scream and force it all away.
I pull in as much air as I can.
"I have to..." I pant, "stay strong... for my daughters."
The void of black stretches for as far as I can see. There are other people here, including him... I don't think I have the strength to do this anymore.
"When ash falls in your heart and the mist becomes too deep," that gentle voice from my dream speaks, "all your dreams may come true... all you must do is believe and a new era shall dawn..."
I feel a new strength within, a sudden surge of emotion becomes all encompassing, projecting its way into my soul.
Floating here, on the surface of the lake, I watch carefully as a girl with long Prussian blue hair rushes out of the water and vanishes into the trees. I turn around to survey the area and see two other people doing all manner of things.
They see me...
~~~END OF CHAPTER SEVEN~~~
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