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I'm sorry that I even got the name change in the first place. I'm kinda sorry about a lot of things. Sometimes I'm sorry for driving you all crazy for many years. Sometimes I'm sorry that I just can't stop. Sometimes I'm sorry that secretly everyone feels the way I'm sure a few people definitely do. I'm sorry I can't just express what I really wanted to. If I did that in the first place, I'd not be feeling this right now. I'm just sorry I can't be better for all of you. I'm sorry I can't do things I try to do. I'm sorry I can't do better. I'm sorry that I'm Nica and not Went or Shining or someone great. I really don't know how to take any of the good within me and just release that to make everyone's lives better. I'm sorry I just suck as a person. I'm sorry I've acted certain ways in general like I'm the center/centre of the universe or whatever I'm sure that's how many people see me. I don't mind them, but I'm sorry they feel that way. I'm sorry it's all... I'm sorry that I was ruined before I joined. I'm sorry I just can't start all over again and never do the dumb things I did. I'm sorry I was afraid. Fear caused the worst parts of everything, and due to that, now in my mind it's more than me that will suffer. It's everyone.
Um. I'm not quitting.