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...Anyways, I was looking at a video on Youtube, and there was an advertisement for a website on the dscription, I click on it, skim through the website, and I decide to join. Later, I meet this boy, Clause. The thing is, everyone thinks I'm a girl. But, anyways, I begin to talk with him, and we're getting along fine. A few days later, Clause tells me that he loves me, a few days ago, he said that he wanted to marry me.
I start to fall in love with him, too. But because he thinks I'm a girl, and he's so in love with me, I'm not able to tell him that I'm a guy. I don't want to crush his heart, and I love him. The thing is, I don't know how to tell him that I'm actually a guy, but that I hope we can still be friends.
I was thinking maybe PMing him and saying:
Claus, I don't blame you if you hate me forever, but I'm actually a guy. I wanted to tell you as soon as we met, but then I started to have feelings for you, and I just couldn't. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you. I know how you feel, I once had a girlfriend online, but, I bought her a ring on Valentines day, and I haven't seen her since. I acted like a girl because I wanted to start anew. I felt that by joining a new community, I would be able to redeem myself, and not be haunted by my past.
I love you, Claus, and nothing will change that.
I cry everytime I think about it, and I don't think my heart can take much more of it.