Shineyelectrode said:
ess that the only way to revive this would be to bring back the gender dares, and as a part of the dare make people have to join and post regularly here.
*looks at the dare thread*
*reads back over the girly dare posts*
*knows she is double posting and no longer cares* -_-.
Okay I think I need to make a decision here. I have gone over and over this whole dare thing and every way that I look Soph is spoiling everyone's fun. I want to tell you all that im sorry for being such a spoilsport with this whole thing...most of you probably already know (especially you, shiney) that Andy moved onto an alternate account for the dare only because him using his regular account upset me so much. Initially, right near the start of the dare he was ready to give it up altogether for me. Back then I insisted he do the dare since I knew he wanted too -_-. But im so tired of always standing in somebody's way. Look guys im sorry, I tried to get myself to like the dare but it just didnt work, I cant do it. In the alternate accounts I am okay, but I understand it is no fun for you all that way -_-. I enjoy the alternate account stuff, but I will never enjoy the dares in the regular accounts.
As it is this is how things are -_-. As long as I am around Andy wont do the dares in his regular account because it upsets me. If I say 'go and do it anyway' I end up miserable and hating being here. The two months of the last giely girl dare were too much for me a few days before the end and I screwed up, blew at Andy and ended up being responsible for his early switch to Andrea-Chan. No matter which way I look at it, im wrecking all your fun...and Andy's -_-. I mean, I even got banned on an issue related to the dare. But everyone but me had a great time, everyone loved it and while I wasnt online, there were no problems except a few disgruntled members, but none of them kept soaking the fun and dousing it with water like I did -_-.
I dont want to be here each day knowing I ruined so much fun for you all. I dont want to see Andy's profile every day and KNOW how much he loved the dare and that he still wants to do stuff like that. No matter what way its put, the only person who can be held responsible for ruining the fun is me.
I cant stick around like last time. I want to tell Andy 'go ahead and do the dares and have fun' but yeah, im too selfish. I cant take any more of the girly stuff, but what right do I have to force Andy out of his fun? He is only doing it for me, using guilt like that to stop him doing something he enjoys just so I dont get upset is just wrong. -_-. I cant keep staring it in the face, I feel SOOO bad about repeatedly screwing up over the course of the dare and finally ending the fun like this by holding andy back. I know he was the lifeblood of the girly dare and it was so much fun for you all, I watched you all having fun and did try my best to become part of it, but everyone has a limit and to force myself into liking a dare that I hate with every part of my being is beyond my limit. Im sorry -_-.
Okay so to cut all that short, yea i'm leaving PC. I cant keep threatening to leave if Andy gets back into the dares since its unjust and a bad example of freindship. Andy is a great guy and deserves to have fun without me dragging him down. And no, Andy, this isnt an on-the-spot decision I made out of being sad, you dont know how long I have gone over this stuff in my head and I cant stop feeling so guilty for crashing the party and wrecking the fun :(. I havent any right to hold you back from what you love or to destroy the fun for all the people invlved in this stuff. Im sorry I didnt do the right thing sooner and let you go ahead and do what you like, since I know you wouldnt hold me from doing something I like. Its only me who acts selfish like that, and I dont want to be such a jerk any more by ruining the fun. I looked at it from every angle, and the one move that will be best for you and for a lot of others on PC is if I move my sorry *** out of PC and stop being some one who just ties you down. Im really sorry -_-.
~Soph.
[edit: thats your cue, Andy. Go back into the dares now and please have fun and dont worry about me since that is what I want (you to be happy -_- and your freinds, too.]
