Palamon
Silence is Purple
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Welcome to the Violet Midsummer Phantasm. This will be a collection of assortment short stories across multiple different multiverse Siorc and his lives in that multiverse. Some of these will be fandom, some of them will not be, and it will be a wild ride. This will probably be 13 chapters, and will all just be a collection of short stories of things I have drawn for Siorc in the past and want to flesh out into a prose thing.
Puella Magi Siorc Magica
"I am called Siorc Ingne. I am a
Chimera. Which, it would seem,
Apparently, we exist for some reason or another.
No one knows why. Well, anyway, I am a student at Mitakihara. And, it's April, so new year. I
Get to start fresh, I have requested to go to school in the girls uniform.
Of course, there's been a little pushback.
To be honest, my parents had to fight
Over allowing me to go to
School presenting feminine. I
Can't quite understand that.
However, they fought for me
One day at a time,
One moment at a time
Look. I was suffocating
In the boys uniform. It
Never felt right. And, now
That I'm in my final year
Here, I did not want to suffer forever
Everyone fought for this, and I
Get to go to school
In the girl's uniform in my final year, I'm
Really, truly grateful. But
Let me explain
Something. I am neither a boy nor am I a girl. That's not all that
Unusual here, but I do feel alone in my suffering.
No more of that, though.
I can be my authentic self,
Finally. Feminine I can wear skirts,
Or dresses without getting caught, I know it's challenging the norms, but I'd
Rather be
Myself than suffer
Internally. I'd rather be me I
Can't be a shell
Any longer, I can
No longer hide. I
Should not have
To. I should not have to
Of course, there's more. I don't like my voice
Perhaps, I should just
Stop talking. If only I could
Utter words without needing to talk,
For something like that to be a reality,
For something like that to be real, I'd be
Eternally grateful. I'm
Ready to give up my soul for
It. I am serious.
Never having to talk again, I'd
Give up my soul for
It, in a heartbeat. I
Cannot stress this enough. I despise talking,
And I wish I did
Not have to. But, there's no
Such thing as hope.
There's no such things as magic
Or miracles don't exist.
Perhaps, I can
Start writing everything down
Uh, but my handwriting's awful.
For now, I need to
Figure something
Out. Something to
Consider. Something I
Am looking into.
To not have to talk,
I'd be free
Never having to hear my
Grating voice.
I'd be free, I would be
As free as a bird.
Maybe if I can
Find something to
Replace words,
Everything will work out perfectly fine
Everything will
Flow perfectly well.
One day, I'll find that
Ripe fruit.
Maybe I will find it soon.
Yes, I will
Find it soon
If I look for substitutions.
No one knows I feel this way
As I have never spoken about it
Likely never will.
Yes, it's better to keep this inside.
Everything is kept inside me
And, it's all burning
Remove all this from me. Ah,
Stop, stop, stop.
One, two, one, two.
For now, focus on the positive. Going to
School in the girls uniform
Can't despair now!
How could I? It's a
Once in a lifetime
Opportunity! I'll
Likely never get this change again,
I'm graduating
Next year. Ah, yes,
Graduation. After all I'm a third year. This is my last chance."
A young person with a hyena tail stood in a room full of darkness. There was a long winding corridor and a checkboard floor that went on for kilometers, and a far off door that stretched far away off towards the opposite end of the room. There was a foreboding atmosphere in the air, and it was tempting.
The young person knew the only option was to run. Run towards that door; see what's at the other side. It was the only option. The person continued to run, and run, long corridor twisting somewhat as the youth attempted to dash further. Pillars broke as the adolescent kept moving. The room had become small.
The door was nearing, it was getting closer, and closer. The youth knew the only way to escape was through that door. Freedom would await, the destruction would cease. It was getting closer with every step. The room was falling apart. The youth knew running faster was the only option. The person's tail whished as the youth did such.
Huffing and puffing, the youth clung to the closed entranceway. There it was, the ticket out of this place. The next frontier, the invitation out of here. Removing the locks, the door slammed open. Letting out a breath of relief, the individual stepped through the creeks. Welcome, freedom. Goodbye, destruction.
But, on the other side of the door was an unusual looking wasteland the youth had never seen before. A destroyed farm town from god knows where. The youth rubbed the eyes. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to read scary stories before bed. Well, oh well, what would that do now? Too late to change that.
Standing in the burned up tilled fields had been a tall young woman with long flowing light brown hair and tattered up school uniform. Next to her had been a strange pitch black creature with unusual ears and rings around them. Their pink eyes were creepy, looking. Almost as if they could steal the soul of the person who looked into them.
"So, you're saying I can have any wish I ask for, any that I want?" the brunette asked.
"That's right, any one wish you desire!" the black cat creature exclaimed.
The youth stared at the black cat creature. A wish? Any wish? Wishes, what an abstract concept. But, who didn't want something that was simply impossible? Everyone had their own selfish things. Cure a dying loved one, becoming god? Who wouldn't trade their soul for something like that? Anyone would at the drop of a hat.
"So, you really will grant anything, won't you?" the brunette asked.
"As long as it's within my power, I can." There was a deadpan look on the creature's face.
"Then, listen up, kitten," the brunette said in a demanding tone. "I wish for chimeras to be born from my own power. Humanoid individuals with the DNA of animals."
The person's body glowed as she said such. Her chest was blinding. The individual covered the eyes as such occurred. What was this intense energy? It was out of this world. Completely, and utterly otherworldly. Ethereal. If that was a word to describe it, now would be the only time it would work.
"But, for a wish like that! It would change the very fabric of the universe!" the black cat creature screeched.
"You said you would grant any wish, did you not?" the brunette said in a sinister tone. "From now on, as long as I exist, and even after once my corpse rots in the earth, chimeras will be born. Hurry up and grant my wish already, K---!"
Peep, peep, peep, peep.
An alarm clock screeched from the corner of the room. Lifting it upward, the owner of the device groaned. That was all a dream? Why did it all feel so real? How strange. Well, oh, well, it was nothing more than a dream. It's not like it was real or anything. It was time to forget about it, and move on.
A young, androgynous teenaged male with a hyena tail released himself from the covers of his bed. His messy, dark purple hair fell over his eyes as he moved towards his mirror. Moving his sloppy bangs out of the way, his purple and green eyes stared back at his reflection. Taking a deep breath, the hyena tail disappeared from behind him.
He ripped off the second of April off his calendar. It was finally the third of April, he was a third year, finally in his last year of schooling. Next year, he could finally bid this despair away, forever. The pain and suffering of uniforms. This would be last year of that. Or, that's what he would have said, like he had done every single year.
Hanging up on the wall had been a bright yellow school uniform with a red ribbon, and a black skirt. He could feel his cheeks grow warm as he looked at it. Finally, after seventeen years, eleven months, and three days, he could finally stop suffocating. Stop going to school in that imprisoning boy's school uniform.
He twirled as the frilly top melted onto his humanoid person. So, this is what it felt like to be in the girl's school uniform. He could finally breathe. Is this what being alive felt like? After three years of fighting with the Mitakihara School staff, he could finally be his true, genuine, feminine self. Braiding his hair into ringed loops, he put on his earrings and small hair barrette. A small little lavender flower adorned the left side of his hair. He let out a small giggle. He could finally wear them outside of the comfort of his room.
He soon stepped into the main room in the house. He could see his sister in the corner with her short, green curly hair pulled into a low hanging bun. Jam dripped from her mouth as she munched on her morning toast. Adding his own jammed up toast to the mix, the next player upon the battlefield stepped up onto the plate.
"Siorc, that uniform looks really good on you!" his father said.
Siorc bowed a thank you towards his father. He could finally feel grateful for hearing such a thing. Finally feel good about how he looked. Finally feel elated when hearing such a thing. He could feel his cheeks get a little hot as the compliments kept sweltering in. But, his phone alarm soon interrupted all that.
"Siorc, Hase, it's time to head for school!" his mother soon called out.
"See you later, mom!" his sister Hase exclaimed.
He bowed his head off towards his parents as he headed off towards the door. The two ran off towards the school building. But, there was something Siorc could not help but notice as he dashed off towards Mitakihara. Something unusual, something he had never quite noticed before. A new discovery.
On his sister's left ring finger had been a ring with a green jewel in it and runic symbols. The student couldn't help but feel confused seeing this thing. Did Hase have a boyfriend she was keeping a secret from everyone? But, he shook his head. Maybe not. Didn't she recently get that part time job? Maybe that's where she got it from.
The siblings soon separated themselves towards their respective classrooms. Everyone seating themselves towards their desks, everyone in Class 3A introduced themselves to one another after the teacher rambled about another bad breakup. New year, same old teacher. The adult world was a strange place. Every seat in front of him re-introducing themselves to the class, an announcement had soon broadcasted itself for everyone to hear.
"Oh, one more thing, class, I have an announcement to make!" the teacher exclaimed. "Siorc, could you please stand up?"
Name called out, the student blushed, for a moment. Ah, right, it was his turn to introduce himself to the class for the year, he almost forgot. He was the last from the back row, just how he liked it. Out of sight, out of mind. Sweating as he walked up to the front of the room, tens of tens of eyes were glued onto him.
"From now on, our friend here will be coming to school in the girl's uniform," the teacher announcer. "Please, be kind to him!"
He bowed as he heard such. But, the student couldn't help but feel a wave of embarrassment. Ah, why did she have to go and say that to a bunch of other students to listen? Couldn't this have been a quiet thing? Well, oh well, everyone knew now. They would have found out either way, anyway. He let out a whisper as people looked at him.
"Nice to meet you all again," the hyena chimera whispered.
There was a long school day ahead of him. He could see people staring at him, eyes gawking. But, he didn't care. He was being his authentic, feminine self. His parents fought hard to let him go to school in this uniform. Let the people stare. They could gawk at him all they wanted. The afternoon came, he could hear people giggle during lunch, but he didn't care.
He went off to the rooftop like always with his simple lunch. His childhood friend Yinlong and his sister ate alongside him. But, as he munched on his lunch, he recalled something. That strange dream he had. That unusual cat, the brunette. He could feel himself get extremely lost in thought as he thought about such.
"What's up, Siorc?" his friend asked. "You seem lost in thought today."
A short young woman with long silver hair pulled into a ponytail gazed at him with a puzzle look on her face. Her panda ears and pink eyes practically glowed across the sun. A ring sat on her right index finger with a pink stone on it. Did Yinlong have a boyfriend too, now? Ah, no, she also got that part time job recently, didn't she?
He gazed at his friend. Should he tell her about the dream he had? It's not like it was real or anything. But, maybe if he briefly spoke about it, it would finally leave his head. He supposed that was worth a try. It's not like it was real, after all. Being able to grant any one wish someone had? That only existed in fairy tales
He quickly explained the dream. The black cat creature. The weird brunette student, her wish. The long corridor. But, his sister and friend soon fell silent. Completely silent. Did he say something wrong? Maybe he shouldn't have brought it up. Serious looks wiped upon his sister's face, something rather unexpected had come his way.
"Siorc, if a strange black cat creature at any point, comes up to you, and offers you any one wish you want, stay away from him," Hase warned.
Unusual warning coming his way, the hyena chimera scratched his head. How strange, what was with this sudden level of caution? He did not know. It's not like wishes came true, or anything. But, he supposed he should keep this warning in mind if anything happened. Not like anything like that would. Of course it wouldn't.
He went to the arcade like he always did after school. He played his favorite game, Super Fleurina Sisters. He got the high score like he always did. He stared at the dress store he always wanted to enter but was never brave enough to. The beautiful purple and golden dress with flowers on it stared at him from the window like it always did. How he wished he had the confidence to go inside. Buy the dress, try it on.
But, he knew the employees would look at him like he was strange. He knew what they would say to him. He was a boy. This ship is for women, girls. If only magic truly existed, he would wish for the societal constructs of the so called gender of clothing to disappear. But, he knew that did not exist. There was no such thing as magic. There was no such things as miracles.
He would go home in the evening like he always did, reading his favorite manga, Mahou Shoujo Lilac. He could not help but feel a sense of longing after finishing every single volume. How he yearned to become a mahou shoujo like Lilac. But, that was all a fairy tale. It wasn't real. Why would it be? Maybe it was time to grow up and move on from such fantasies.
Weeks went by in school. But, the students were not kind like the teacher had told them. The male students, they would always laugh at him. Call him a princess in a mocking tone. Poke fun at his voice. Call him a little girlie when the teachers weren't around to stop it. Laugh at him during physical education, amongst other things.
But, it did not end there, some students had took it a step further. Some called him gross. Some called him the three lettered abomination that started with the sixth letter of the alphabet. He despised hearing it. How he wished he could graduate already. Get away from here, go somewhere away from the small minority of people who simply did not understand.
He despised it.
He despised it.
He despised it.
His sister, Hase and friend Yinlong had been away far more often lately. Their part time job had been getting busier. She had been getting home far later. During the first month of his third year in the High School branch of Mitakihara, the hyena chimera had realized something. Something major, something he supposed he had truly realized a long time.
Talking was not his cup of tea. His voice, he despised it. As he got older, that painstaking feeling would grow. He always tried speaking as little as possible. Saying things to a bare minimum. If only there were a way to communicate without talking, and he would take that offer immediately. The students lately, they would make fun of his voice. Maybe it was better if he never spoke at all.
The despair ate him up as he came home from the arcade. He could feel his heart race alongside his thoughts. Maybe he should just disappear. That would solve everything. He should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear. He should disappear.
He could hear a voice in his head repeat such. Everything would be better if he disappeared. He should disappear. He could feel the world warp around him as he kept on walking home. The voices kept laughing at him. Everything would be better if he just disappeared. He could hear the sound of a monster screaming.
Siorc turned around towards the world around him as the voice stopped echoing. Finding himself in a world of red spider lilies, he tilted his head. Where was he? Lycoris Radiata, he had never seen those before in his entire life. Seeing a large grotesque monster that looked like it was made out of felt, decorated with blue bells, the student felt confused. Had he fallen into a daydream while he was heading home from the arcade? What in the world was that thing in the center of the flowers?
But, he had soon seen someone he had recognized and a few unfamiliar faces. Hase with her hair up in two heart shaped buns fighting the unusual creature, he pinched himself. Was he dreaming right now? He had to have been, surely. This looked like one of his abstract storybooks from his childhood. Yinlong in the corner holding a short sword, and stranger with rocket feet letting down an attack of fire, a black cat creature soon showed up on a scene.
"That's a witch," the black cat creature said.
Hearing such, the hyena chimera blinked. A witch? Those didn't look anything like they did in the manga he would read in his free time. Weren't witches cute girls who fought monsters? He didn't know what to believe anymore. But, he was probably dreaming again. That had to have been it, he pinched himself again, hoping to feel nothing. The black cat creature, however, shook their head.
"Siorc Ingne, this isn't a dream," the black cat creature said, shaking their head. "What you're seeing in front of you right now is real."
Black cat creature telling him everything in front of him was real, the student couldn't help but start to wonder. Was this the secret part time job Hase and Yinlong had? Those rings on their fingers, he thinks he understood now. Were they Magical Girls? Ah, no, that was a thing of fantasy. But, he had heard what the black cat thing said. This was real. Perhaps he could become--? No, what was he thinking? He couldn't become a magical girl; the universe saw him as the opposite side of the spectrum. It wasn't possible.
"Hase and Yinlong are Magical Girls?" Siorc whispered.
"That is correct, Siorc Ingne," the black cat creature said. "And, you can become one, too, if you wish for it."
"Den Hasenbau hinunter!" Hase shouted.
Witch getting destroyed with magical attacks he had never seen before, Siorc's eyes sparkled. So, this was what a magical girl battle looked like in real life? How beautiful. It was just like in the anime adaption of Mahou Shoujo Lilac, but cooler. Maybe he could become a Magical Girl, too. But, his thoughts were soon interrupted as the space around him went back to normal, and his sister, friend and a stranger stared at him.
"Siorc, what are you doing here?" Hase asked. But, she paused for a moment. "Hold on a second. Did you see everything that happened just now?"
Question coming his way, the hyena chimera nodded. Was that unusual? Was he not supposed to be able to see the witch? Ah, right, 'magical girl'. He wasn't supposed to be here, was he? How was he able to see the labyrinth? He did not know. Nothing was clear to him. He could hear his sister and friend sigh as he removed himself from his head.
"So, you did," Hase said, sighing. "Don't tell anyone about this at school, alright?"
"Dang, Siorc, you saw all that?" Yinlong asked. "Did I look cool?"
Giving his friend a nod, he gazed at the black cat creature. They said he could become a Magical Girl, too. Was that some sort of joke? Maybe it was, maybe it was not. He recalled what his sister said to him a few weeks ago. If he were to see a black cat creature tell him they could grant him any wish, he should stay away from it. Was this the creature he was meant to stay away from? But, he did not think much further about that. That didn't matter. That was weeks ago. Sister and friend leaving the scene, a new pair of eyes had soon been on him.
The mysterious girl with rockets for feet soon stared at him, lowering her eyes down into a squint. Seeing such, Siorc flinched. Why was she looking at him like that? It was his face, wasn't it? People at school always pointed at his face and laughed at it, so he supposed he was used to that sort of thing.
"But, Kurobi, how could he enter the labyrinth?" the stranger asked. "He's a guy, isn't he? I heard you say he could become a magical girl."
"That's right, Argenta Casur," Kurobi replied. "He has the potential to become a Magical Girl."
"But, I thought you said only girls could contract with you!" There was a tone of suspicion in her voice.
"He is an exception." The creature's tail soon scratched their ears with their hind feet as the said such.
Phone soon beeping, the hyena chimera flinched. Shoot, it was curfew already, when did that happen? He didn't have time to stay in this alleyway anymore! Running back home in a huff, the student stared off towards the wall. He could become a Magical Girl. Could he really? Maybe this was all some sort of trick. It had to be. There was no way he could become one.
Weeks would pass after such encounter. His school days had only begun to get worse as May had creeped around right up the corner. His earrings had been stolen, the name calling had only gotten worse. He could not take it anymore. Be nice to him, everyone? Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha. Be nice to him everyone. Sure.
The teachers were all talk. They said that, and they would never do anything about the tormentors. Never do anything about the name calling. Never do anything about the stealing. Never did anything when they called his voice unsavory words. He felt so alone. He was starting to regret it. Wearing the girl's uniform. Maybe he should have just suffocated in the boy's one instead.
He'd watch Hase, Yinlong and Argenta fight in the Witch Labyrinths with increasing danger after school. The desire was only getting stronger. A Magical Girl, maybe he should just become one already. He was tired of it all. Tired of his voice. Tired of everything. Tired of all the people laughing at him. He had had enough.
Since he had first stumbled upon the labyrinth, he had learned everything. He could make a contract in exchange for any one wish he wanted, and become a Magical Girl. One single wish, and he would gain magical powers, and fight witches. Every single day, that was sounding more enticing. He did not know why he was an exception, but he never questioned it.
But, lately, his sister had been acting quite strange over the past few weeks. She had become untrusting of Kurobi. Going off on her own, destroying witches by herself. He didn't understand. What had gotten into her recently? He did not know. But, he had come to a decision. Tomorrow, he would finally do it. He would finally go through with it.
He would make the contract.
He headed over to the school roof during lunchtime like he always did. Whispering Kurobi's name, the black cat creature soon appeared out of nowhere. He took a deep breath as the alien looked at him. No going back this time. He was ready. It was time to make the contract. Time to become a Magical Girl. Time to put an end to all this suffering.
"Kurobi, I have a wish," Siorc said, not whispering. "Can you really grant me anything I ask for?"
"That's correct, Siorc Ingne," Kurobi responded. "Anything you desire." Their tail swished as they said such. "Make a contract with me, and become a Magical Girl!"
He took a deep breath. Any wish he wanted, right. He knew what he wanted. Not having to talk would be nice. Never having to utter a word ever again. If something like that could be granted, he would be eternally grateful. He would even give up his soul for it. Exhaling, he prepared himself. It was time.
"Kurobi, I wish--" But as he had begun to do so, the door to the roof slammed open.
"No, Siorc! Don't contract with that thing!" Hase shouted. "Don't enter into a contract with that monster!"
"Siorc, why? Why?" Yinlong asked. "Why are you talking to that thing? He's trying to trick you!" But an interruption had come her way.
"Please, don't interfere, this is what I want," Siorc responded.
"Siorc, you don't understand!" Hase shouted. "That thing is tricking us! Don't make a contract!"
The hyena chimera shook his head. What had gotten into Hase lately? She had been acting so strange. He did not understand. What had happened to her? She had been angrier lately. Much angrier. But, he did not care what she had to say. Why stop him now? She had already been too late, anyway.
"Kurobi, I wish to be able to communicate without talking. Something, anything, so I don't have to talk!" Siorc declared.
His body glowed a blinding light as he said such. He could feel a sharp pain come from his body as Kurobi's ears touched him. He did not understand. What was this pain he was feeling? He did not know why, but he could feel something being ripped out of him. His chest was warm. Was that normal? Opening his eyes, something soon appeared in his hands.
A bright purple and green jar sat in the palm of his hands. What was this thing called again? He heard Hase call it by a name once. He needed to remember. Ah, right, a Soul Gem. That's what it was called. So, this was the contract. He was a Magical Girl, too, just like his sister. He was Mahou Shoujo Lilac in real life.
The next few days after become a Magical Girl, the hyena chimera had discovered something. He had suddenly been proficient in sign language overnight. He could feel a wave of joy flow through him. He didn't have to talk anymore. He had a way to communicate without talking. He could feel himself over the moon over such a thing.
But, he had to fight for his wish. He remembered what the black cat told him. In exchange for one wish, he would have to fight as a Magical Girl. He had been alerted of a witch by the stranger student, Argenta. Moving towards the alleyway, he took out his soul gem and closed his eyes. Purple dress with golden flowers appearing in place of his school uniform, the hyena chimera felt over the moon.
Magical rod appearing in his right hand, the fight was on. Large monstrosity in front of him, he kept on fighting. Paper mache creature fighting back, he let out a scream as blood trickled down his leg. Why was this so difficult? This wasn't like Mahou Shoujo Lilac at all. Not at all whatsoever.
Winning the fight, a strange black jewel dropped from the creature. Kurobi informing him it was a Grief Seed, he gazed at his Soul Gem. Ah, it had gotten a little darker, hadn't it? Pressing the strange black egg onto the container, he couldn't help but question everything that had just happened, all at once.
His Soul Gem, what would happen if he wouldn't be able to purify the mud? Would he not be able to fight anymore? He did not know. But, he knew he would have to keep it clean, at all costs. Or something bad would happen. He continued to fight the witches, through and through. And, there had been rewards aplenty.
But, as the weeks passed after making his wish, the student could feel the regrets settle in. The teachers at school, they would ask him questions. Why was he communicating with sign language now? He isn't deaf. Please communicate normally. The teachers, they refused to reason with him. They would not make the effort to understand him. He could feel the darkness creep in every time he heard such a thing.
The students at school, they would laugh at him. Call his fingers stupid for dancing. He did not understand. Why? Why didn't anyone want to make the effort into comprehending sign language? The teachers, the students, they all said the same things. They don't understand. He isn't deaf. Communicate normally.
Lunchtime on the roof had gotten lonely over the past few weeks or so. Hase had stopped coming. Yinlong had mysteriously changed schools. He felt so alone. So empty, so hollow. Like a space alien; a foreigner. Was this all because he became a Magical Girl? He knew that might have been the case. Why did he choose this path? Why?
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He shouldn't have become a Magical Girl.
But, he knew he had to keep on fighting. He made a wish, didn't he? And, it came true. So, he had to keep on battling. He had no choice. He kept fighting the witches alone, or the witch's familiars, rather. Less Grief Seeds had begun dropping. His Soul Gem had become muddier. But, he could feel himself begin to care less as the fights kept on going. Ah, what did it matter anymore? What did any of this matter anymore?
He should have never become a Magical Girl. This was nothing like his favorite manga at all.
His sister kept ignoring him in school, and at home. She refused to communicate with him. He could not comprehend any of this. What had he done wrong? He did not know. But, the distance between them would continue to grow bigger as the months grew on. Spring had come and gone. And, summer was cold. Empty. Alone.
His parents did not understand, either. His sudden switch to sign language. They would ask him questions. Was this some sort of phase? He was eighteen now, he was too old to having phases. No one understood him. No one cared to understand him. Why? Why hadn't he thought to ask Kurobi to also make it so people would be able to comprehend sign language, too? Why hadn't he give his wish a little more thought?
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He should have given it more thought.
The fights alone had only gotten more intense. His sister never helped him; she had claimed another city as her own territory along with Yinlong. He did not understand any of this. Magical girls, weren't they supposed to fight in a team? Everything he ever knew in his childhood manga was breaking, cracking, destroying itself. He should have known this wouldn't have been like the manga he used to read all the time.
He could feel himself begin to lose hope as his battles went onward. What was he battling for anymore? His wish? What was the point in all that? No one understood him, no one cared to bother to learn sign language. All of this was pointless. Everything about this was pointless. Why did he become a Magical Girl? He should have listened to Hase. He shouldn't have made that wish.
His Soul Gem had gotten darker, muddier. But, he stopped caring. What was the point in keeping it all nice and pretty anymore? What was the point in doing all that? He couldn't find a purpose anymore. Despair clinging onto his back, he could feel himself ready to break. He should have listened to Hase. He should not have contracted.
He could feel himself crack as the days went on in solitude. The crack had begun to shatter. Dashing away in the middle of the night, he could hear feet chase after him. But, he disregarded it. Hase, why was she bothering now after all these months of ignoring him? Why bother to care now? The student sat down upon the flowerbeds, holding his head as he let out a loud scream.
Why?
Crack.
Soul Gem soon cracking, he could feel his mind become spaghetti.
An extreme, intense energy soon engulfed the city. Chasing after her brother, Hase could hardly believe her eyes. Grief Seed hatching right before her very eyes, a terrifying monster soon appeared in front of her. Large flowerpot with swirly purple and green eyes, and braids similar to her brother, she had come to a quick realization.
That was her brother standing before her.
She could see Kurobi standing by the flowerpot witch. Her rage was mounting. Kurobi, this thing, why hadn't they told her the truth about Magical Girls? She wouldn't have signed a contract with him if she knew. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. This had to have been some joke, right? A prank because she had distanced herself from him shortly after he became a Magical Girl? It had to have been.
"Kurobi, bring my brother back!" Hase cried. "Give him back to me!"
"I can't do that, Hase Ingne," Kurobi said in a monotone voice.
"What do you mean you can't bring him back?!" Hase shouted. "Quit fooling around, Kurobi! Give my brother back to me!"
"You should know better than anyone, Hase. Your brother has become a Witch. I can't bring him back," Kurobi responded, shaking his head. But, tears soon interrupted it all.
"This is all my fault, if I hadn't ignored him after he became a Magical Girl. If I hadn't distanced myself from him, this would have never happened!" Hase cried. She could feel the tears stream down her face. "Siorc, I'm sorry! I'm sorry for distancing myself from you! I'm sorry for turning my back on you when you were suffering." She turned towards Kurobi. "Please, Kurobi, there has to be a way to turn him back! Anything!" But, that's when it happened.
Boom.
Rocket Magical Girl Argenta coming onto the scene, the Flowerpot Witch had soon been slain. She could feel herself grow numb as a Grief Seed dropped down onto the ground. Now, how could she do that? That was her brother. Or, what used to be him, rather. Why did she go and defeat him like that? She could feel her soul gem grow dark at the sight before her.
"Argenta, why did you do that?" Hase cried. "That was my brother!"
"Formerly your brother," Argenta responded in an echoing tone. "You know it's your duty as a Magical Girl to exterminate witches."
Witch barrier closing, she could feel the tears continue to fall. All of this was her fault. Her brother becoming a witch, she was to blame for that. She shouldn't have done that. She should have fought alongside him. She shouldn't have turned a blind eye to all the mean students heckling him. Why did she do that? Siorc was gone. Gone forever. Gone forever because of her stupidity. She should have killed that stupid thing, that stupid Kurobi. Killed them before they could contract him. Tears continuing to fall, the despair settled in one final time.
She shouldn't have let Siorc become a magical girl.
All of this was her fault.
After ten years of wanting to do a Madoka thing, I finally did the Madoka thing. Wow.
Also: Siorc's Puella Magi form, The scene on the rooftop, Old artwork of Siorc in the Mitakihara Uniform, Siorc's Witch Form, Old artwork of Siorc cosplaying Sayaka.
Puella Magi Siorc Magica
"I am called Siorc Ingne. I am a
Chimera. Which, it would seem,
Apparently, we exist for some reason or another.
No one knows why. Well, anyway, I am a student at Mitakihara. And, it's April, so new year. I
Get to start fresh, I have requested to go to school in the girls uniform.
Of course, there's been a little pushback.
To be honest, my parents had to fight
Over allowing me to go to
School presenting feminine. I
Can't quite understand that.
However, they fought for me
One day at a time,
One moment at a time
Look. I was suffocating
In the boys uniform. It
Never felt right. And, now
That I'm in my final year
Here, I did not want to suffer forever
Everyone fought for this, and I
Get to go to school
In the girl's uniform in my final year, I'm
Really, truly grateful. But
Let me explain
Something. I am neither a boy nor am I a girl. That's not all that
Unusual here, but I do feel alone in my suffering.
No more of that, though.
I can be my authentic self,
Finally. Feminine I can wear skirts,
Or dresses without getting caught, I know it's challenging the norms, but I'd
Rather be
Myself than suffer
Internally. I'd rather be me I
Can't be a shell
Any longer, I can
No longer hide. I
Should not have
To. I should not have to
Of course, there's more. I don't like my voice
Perhaps, I should just
Stop talking. If only I could
Utter words without needing to talk,
For something like that to be a reality,
For something like that to be real, I'd be
Eternally grateful. I'm
Ready to give up my soul for
It. I am serious.
Never having to talk again, I'd
Give up my soul for
It, in a heartbeat. I
Cannot stress this enough. I despise talking,
And I wish I did
Not have to. But, there's no
Such thing as hope.
There's no such things as magic
Or miracles don't exist.
Perhaps, I can
Start writing everything down
Uh, but my handwriting's awful.
For now, I need to
Figure something
Out. Something to
Consider. Something I
Am looking into.
To not have to talk,
I'd be free
Never having to hear my
Grating voice.
I'd be free, I would be
As free as a bird.
Maybe if I can
Find something to
Replace words,
Everything will work out perfectly fine
Everything will
Flow perfectly well.
One day, I'll find that
Ripe fruit.
Maybe I will find it soon.
Yes, I will
Find it soon
If I look for substitutions.
No one knows I feel this way
As I have never spoken about it
Likely never will.
Yes, it's better to keep this inside.
Everything is kept inside me
And, it's all burning
Remove all this from me. Ah,
Stop, stop, stop.
One, two, one, two.
For now, focus on the positive. Going to
School in the girls uniform
Can't despair now!
How could I? It's a
Once in a lifetime
Opportunity! I'll
Likely never get this change again,
I'm graduating
Next year. Ah, yes,
Graduation. After all I'm a third year. This is my last chance."
A young person with a hyena tail stood in a room full of darkness. There was a long winding corridor and a checkboard floor that went on for kilometers, and a far off door that stretched far away off towards the opposite end of the room. There was a foreboding atmosphere in the air, and it was tempting.
The young person knew the only option was to run. Run towards that door; see what's at the other side. It was the only option. The person continued to run, and run, long corridor twisting somewhat as the youth attempted to dash further. Pillars broke as the adolescent kept moving. The room had become small.
The door was nearing, it was getting closer, and closer. The youth knew the only way to escape was through that door. Freedom would await, the destruction would cease. It was getting closer with every step. The room was falling apart. The youth knew running faster was the only option. The person's tail whished as the youth did such.
Huffing and puffing, the youth clung to the closed entranceway. There it was, the ticket out of this place. The next frontier, the invitation out of here. Removing the locks, the door slammed open. Letting out a breath of relief, the individual stepped through the creeks. Welcome, freedom. Goodbye, destruction.
But, on the other side of the door was an unusual looking wasteland the youth had never seen before. A destroyed farm town from god knows where. The youth rubbed the eyes. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to read scary stories before bed. Well, oh well, what would that do now? Too late to change that.
Standing in the burned up tilled fields had been a tall young woman with long flowing light brown hair and tattered up school uniform. Next to her had been a strange pitch black creature with unusual ears and rings around them. Their pink eyes were creepy, looking. Almost as if they could steal the soul of the person who looked into them.
"So, you're saying I can have any wish I ask for, any that I want?" the brunette asked.
"That's right, any one wish you desire!" the black cat creature exclaimed.
The youth stared at the black cat creature. A wish? Any wish? Wishes, what an abstract concept. But, who didn't want something that was simply impossible? Everyone had their own selfish things. Cure a dying loved one, becoming god? Who wouldn't trade their soul for something like that? Anyone would at the drop of a hat.
"So, you really will grant anything, won't you?" the brunette asked.
"As long as it's within my power, I can." There was a deadpan look on the creature's face.
"Then, listen up, kitten," the brunette said in a demanding tone. "I wish for chimeras to be born from my own power. Humanoid individuals with the DNA of animals."
The person's body glowed as she said such. Her chest was blinding. The individual covered the eyes as such occurred. What was this intense energy? It was out of this world. Completely, and utterly otherworldly. Ethereal. If that was a word to describe it, now would be the only time it would work.
"But, for a wish like that! It would change the very fabric of the universe!" the black cat creature screeched.
"You said you would grant any wish, did you not?" the brunette said in a sinister tone. "From now on, as long as I exist, and even after once my corpse rots in the earth, chimeras will be born. Hurry up and grant my wish already, K---!"
Peep, peep, peep, peep.
An alarm clock screeched from the corner of the room. Lifting it upward, the owner of the device groaned. That was all a dream? Why did it all feel so real? How strange. Well, oh, well, it was nothing more than a dream. It's not like it was real or anything. It was time to forget about it, and move on.
A young, androgynous teenaged male with a hyena tail released himself from the covers of his bed. His messy, dark purple hair fell over his eyes as he moved towards his mirror. Moving his sloppy bangs out of the way, his purple and green eyes stared back at his reflection. Taking a deep breath, the hyena tail disappeared from behind him.
He ripped off the second of April off his calendar. It was finally the third of April, he was a third year, finally in his last year of schooling. Next year, he could finally bid this despair away, forever. The pain and suffering of uniforms. This would be last year of that. Or, that's what he would have said, like he had done every single year.
Hanging up on the wall had been a bright yellow school uniform with a red ribbon, and a black skirt. He could feel his cheeks grow warm as he looked at it. Finally, after seventeen years, eleven months, and three days, he could finally stop suffocating. Stop going to school in that imprisoning boy's school uniform.
He twirled as the frilly top melted onto his humanoid person. So, this is what it felt like to be in the girl's school uniform. He could finally breathe. Is this what being alive felt like? After three years of fighting with the Mitakihara School staff, he could finally be his true, genuine, feminine self. Braiding his hair into ringed loops, he put on his earrings and small hair barrette. A small little lavender flower adorned the left side of his hair. He let out a small giggle. He could finally wear them outside of the comfort of his room.
He soon stepped into the main room in the house. He could see his sister in the corner with her short, green curly hair pulled into a low hanging bun. Jam dripped from her mouth as she munched on her morning toast. Adding his own jammed up toast to the mix, the next player upon the battlefield stepped up onto the plate.
"Siorc, that uniform looks really good on you!" his father said.
Siorc bowed a thank you towards his father. He could finally feel grateful for hearing such a thing. Finally feel good about how he looked. Finally feel elated when hearing such a thing. He could feel his cheeks get a little hot as the compliments kept sweltering in. But, his phone alarm soon interrupted all that.
"Siorc, Hase, it's time to head for school!" his mother soon called out.
"See you later, mom!" his sister Hase exclaimed.
He bowed his head off towards his parents as he headed off towards the door. The two ran off towards the school building. But, there was something Siorc could not help but notice as he dashed off towards Mitakihara. Something unusual, something he had never quite noticed before. A new discovery.
On his sister's left ring finger had been a ring with a green jewel in it and runic symbols. The student couldn't help but feel confused seeing this thing. Did Hase have a boyfriend she was keeping a secret from everyone? But, he shook his head. Maybe not. Didn't she recently get that part time job? Maybe that's where she got it from.
The siblings soon separated themselves towards their respective classrooms. Everyone seating themselves towards their desks, everyone in Class 3A introduced themselves to one another after the teacher rambled about another bad breakup. New year, same old teacher. The adult world was a strange place. Every seat in front of him re-introducing themselves to the class, an announcement had soon broadcasted itself for everyone to hear.
"Oh, one more thing, class, I have an announcement to make!" the teacher exclaimed. "Siorc, could you please stand up?"
Name called out, the student blushed, for a moment. Ah, right, it was his turn to introduce himself to the class for the year, he almost forgot. He was the last from the back row, just how he liked it. Out of sight, out of mind. Sweating as he walked up to the front of the room, tens of tens of eyes were glued onto him.
"From now on, our friend here will be coming to school in the girl's uniform," the teacher announcer. "Please, be kind to him!"
He bowed as he heard such. But, the student couldn't help but feel a wave of embarrassment. Ah, why did she have to go and say that to a bunch of other students to listen? Couldn't this have been a quiet thing? Well, oh well, everyone knew now. They would have found out either way, anyway. He let out a whisper as people looked at him.
"Nice to meet you all again," the hyena chimera whispered.
There was a long school day ahead of him. He could see people staring at him, eyes gawking. But, he didn't care. He was being his authentic, feminine self. His parents fought hard to let him go to school in this uniform. Let the people stare. They could gawk at him all they wanted. The afternoon came, he could hear people giggle during lunch, but he didn't care.
He went off to the rooftop like always with his simple lunch. His childhood friend Yinlong and his sister ate alongside him. But, as he munched on his lunch, he recalled something. That strange dream he had. That unusual cat, the brunette. He could feel himself get extremely lost in thought as he thought about such.
"What's up, Siorc?" his friend asked. "You seem lost in thought today."
A short young woman with long silver hair pulled into a ponytail gazed at him with a puzzle look on her face. Her panda ears and pink eyes practically glowed across the sun. A ring sat on her right index finger with a pink stone on it. Did Yinlong have a boyfriend too, now? Ah, no, she also got that part time job recently, didn't she?
He gazed at his friend. Should he tell her about the dream he had? It's not like it was real or anything. But, maybe if he briefly spoke about it, it would finally leave his head. He supposed that was worth a try. It's not like it was real, after all. Being able to grant any one wish someone had? That only existed in fairy tales
He quickly explained the dream. The black cat creature. The weird brunette student, her wish. The long corridor. But, his sister and friend soon fell silent. Completely silent. Did he say something wrong? Maybe he shouldn't have brought it up. Serious looks wiped upon his sister's face, something rather unexpected had come his way.
"Siorc, if a strange black cat creature at any point, comes up to you, and offers you any one wish you want, stay away from him," Hase warned.
Unusual warning coming his way, the hyena chimera scratched his head. How strange, what was with this sudden level of caution? He did not know. It's not like wishes came true, or anything. But, he supposed he should keep this warning in mind if anything happened. Not like anything like that would. Of course it wouldn't.
He went to the arcade like he always did after school. He played his favorite game, Super Fleurina Sisters. He got the high score like he always did. He stared at the dress store he always wanted to enter but was never brave enough to. The beautiful purple and golden dress with flowers on it stared at him from the window like it always did. How he wished he had the confidence to go inside. Buy the dress, try it on.
But, he knew the employees would look at him like he was strange. He knew what they would say to him. He was a boy. This ship is for women, girls. If only magic truly existed, he would wish for the societal constructs of the so called gender of clothing to disappear. But, he knew that did not exist. There was no such thing as magic. There was no such things as miracles.
He would go home in the evening like he always did, reading his favorite manga, Mahou Shoujo Lilac. He could not help but feel a sense of longing after finishing every single volume. How he yearned to become a mahou shoujo like Lilac. But, that was all a fairy tale. It wasn't real. Why would it be? Maybe it was time to grow up and move on from such fantasies.
Weeks went by in school. But, the students were not kind like the teacher had told them. The male students, they would always laugh at him. Call him a princess in a mocking tone. Poke fun at his voice. Call him a little girlie when the teachers weren't around to stop it. Laugh at him during physical education, amongst other things.
But, it did not end there, some students had took it a step further. Some called him gross. Some called him the three lettered abomination that started with the sixth letter of the alphabet. He despised hearing it. How he wished he could graduate already. Get away from here, go somewhere away from the small minority of people who simply did not understand.
He despised it.
He despised it.
He despised it.
His sister, Hase and friend Yinlong had been away far more often lately. Their part time job had been getting busier. She had been getting home far later. During the first month of his third year in the High School branch of Mitakihara, the hyena chimera had realized something. Something major, something he supposed he had truly realized a long time.
Talking was not his cup of tea. His voice, he despised it. As he got older, that painstaking feeling would grow. He always tried speaking as little as possible. Saying things to a bare minimum. If only there were a way to communicate without talking, and he would take that offer immediately. The students lately, they would make fun of his voice. Maybe it was better if he never spoke at all.
The despair ate him up as he came home from the arcade. He could feel his heart race alongside his thoughts. Maybe he should just disappear. That would solve everything. He should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear, he should disappear. He should disappear.
He could hear a voice in his head repeat such. Everything would be better if he disappeared. He should disappear. He could feel the world warp around him as he kept on walking home. The voices kept laughing at him. Everything would be better if he just disappeared. He could hear the sound of a monster screaming.
Siorc turned around towards the world around him as the voice stopped echoing. Finding himself in a world of red spider lilies, he tilted his head. Where was he? Lycoris Radiata, he had never seen those before in his entire life. Seeing a large grotesque monster that looked like it was made out of felt, decorated with blue bells, the student felt confused. Had he fallen into a daydream while he was heading home from the arcade? What in the world was that thing in the center of the flowers?
But, he had soon seen someone he had recognized and a few unfamiliar faces. Hase with her hair up in two heart shaped buns fighting the unusual creature, he pinched himself. Was he dreaming right now? He had to have been, surely. This looked like one of his abstract storybooks from his childhood. Yinlong in the corner holding a short sword, and stranger with rocket feet letting down an attack of fire, a black cat creature soon showed up on a scene.
"That's a witch," the black cat creature said.
Hearing such, the hyena chimera blinked. A witch? Those didn't look anything like they did in the manga he would read in his free time. Weren't witches cute girls who fought monsters? He didn't know what to believe anymore. But, he was probably dreaming again. That had to have been it, he pinched himself again, hoping to feel nothing. The black cat creature, however, shook their head.
"Siorc Ingne, this isn't a dream," the black cat creature said, shaking their head. "What you're seeing in front of you right now is real."
Black cat creature telling him everything in front of him was real, the student couldn't help but start to wonder. Was this the secret part time job Hase and Yinlong had? Those rings on their fingers, he thinks he understood now. Were they Magical Girls? Ah, no, that was a thing of fantasy. But, he had heard what the black cat thing said. This was real. Perhaps he could become--? No, what was he thinking? He couldn't become a magical girl; the universe saw him as the opposite side of the spectrum. It wasn't possible.
"Hase and Yinlong are Magical Girls?" Siorc whispered.
"That is correct, Siorc Ingne," the black cat creature said. "And, you can become one, too, if you wish for it."
"Den Hasenbau hinunter!" Hase shouted.
Witch getting destroyed with magical attacks he had never seen before, Siorc's eyes sparkled. So, this was what a magical girl battle looked like in real life? How beautiful. It was just like in the anime adaption of Mahou Shoujo Lilac, but cooler. Maybe he could become a Magical Girl, too. But, his thoughts were soon interrupted as the space around him went back to normal, and his sister, friend and a stranger stared at him.
"Siorc, what are you doing here?" Hase asked. But, she paused for a moment. "Hold on a second. Did you see everything that happened just now?"
Question coming his way, the hyena chimera nodded. Was that unusual? Was he not supposed to be able to see the witch? Ah, right, 'magical girl'. He wasn't supposed to be here, was he? How was he able to see the labyrinth? He did not know. Nothing was clear to him. He could hear his sister and friend sigh as he removed himself from his head.
"So, you did," Hase said, sighing. "Don't tell anyone about this at school, alright?"
"Dang, Siorc, you saw all that?" Yinlong asked. "Did I look cool?"
Giving his friend a nod, he gazed at the black cat creature. They said he could become a Magical Girl, too. Was that some sort of joke? Maybe it was, maybe it was not. He recalled what his sister said to him a few weeks ago. If he were to see a black cat creature tell him they could grant him any wish, he should stay away from it. Was this the creature he was meant to stay away from? But, he did not think much further about that. That didn't matter. That was weeks ago. Sister and friend leaving the scene, a new pair of eyes had soon been on him.
The mysterious girl with rockets for feet soon stared at him, lowering her eyes down into a squint. Seeing such, Siorc flinched. Why was she looking at him like that? It was his face, wasn't it? People at school always pointed at his face and laughed at it, so he supposed he was used to that sort of thing.
"But, Kurobi, how could he enter the labyrinth?" the stranger asked. "He's a guy, isn't he? I heard you say he could become a magical girl."
"That's right, Argenta Casur," Kurobi replied. "He has the potential to become a Magical Girl."
"But, I thought you said only girls could contract with you!" There was a tone of suspicion in her voice.
"He is an exception." The creature's tail soon scratched their ears with their hind feet as the said such.
Phone soon beeping, the hyena chimera flinched. Shoot, it was curfew already, when did that happen? He didn't have time to stay in this alleyway anymore! Running back home in a huff, the student stared off towards the wall. He could become a Magical Girl. Could he really? Maybe this was all some sort of trick. It had to be. There was no way he could become one.
Weeks would pass after such encounter. His school days had only begun to get worse as May had creeped around right up the corner. His earrings had been stolen, the name calling had only gotten worse. He could not take it anymore. Be nice to him, everyone? Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
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Ha. Be nice to him everyone. Sure.
The teachers were all talk. They said that, and they would never do anything about the tormentors. Never do anything about the name calling. Never do anything about the stealing. Never did anything when they called his voice unsavory words. He felt so alone. He was starting to regret it. Wearing the girl's uniform. Maybe he should have just suffocated in the boy's one instead.
He'd watch Hase, Yinlong and Argenta fight in the Witch Labyrinths with increasing danger after school. The desire was only getting stronger. A Magical Girl, maybe he should just become one already. He was tired of it all. Tired of his voice. Tired of everything. Tired of all the people laughing at him. He had had enough.
Since he had first stumbled upon the labyrinth, he had learned everything. He could make a contract in exchange for any one wish he wanted, and become a Magical Girl. One single wish, and he would gain magical powers, and fight witches. Every single day, that was sounding more enticing. He did not know why he was an exception, but he never questioned it.
But, lately, his sister had been acting quite strange over the past few weeks. She had become untrusting of Kurobi. Going off on her own, destroying witches by herself. He didn't understand. What had gotten into her recently? He did not know. But, he had come to a decision. Tomorrow, he would finally do it. He would finally go through with it.
He would make the contract.
He headed over to the school roof during lunchtime like he always did. Whispering Kurobi's name, the black cat creature soon appeared out of nowhere. He took a deep breath as the alien looked at him. No going back this time. He was ready. It was time to make the contract. Time to become a Magical Girl. Time to put an end to all this suffering.
"Kurobi, I have a wish," Siorc said, not whispering. "Can you really grant me anything I ask for?"
"That's correct, Siorc Ingne," Kurobi responded. "Anything you desire." Their tail swished as they said such. "Make a contract with me, and become a Magical Girl!"
He took a deep breath. Any wish he wanted, right. He knew what he wanted. Not having to talk would be nice. Never having to utter a word ever again. If something like that could be granted, he would be eternally grateful. He would even give up his soul for it. Exhaling, he prepared himself. It was time.
"Kurobi, I wish--" But as he had begun to do so, the door to the roof slammed open.
"No, Siorc! Don't contract with that thing!" Hase shouted. "Don't enter into a contract with that monster!"
"Siorc, why? Why?" Yinlong asked. "Why are you talking to that thing? He's trying to trick you!" But an interruption had come her way.
"Please, don't interfere, this is what I want," Siorc responded.
"Siorc, you don't understand!" Hase shouted. "That thing is tricking us! Don't make a contract!"
The hyena chimera shook his head. What had gotten into Hase lately? She had been acting so strange. He did not understand. What had happened to her? She had been angrier lately. Much angrier. But, he did not care what she had to say. Why stop him now? She had already been too late, anyway.
"Kurobi, I wish to be able to communicate without talking. Something, anything, so I don't have to talk!" Siorc declared.
His body glowed a blinding light as he said such. He could feel a sharp pain come from his body as Kurobi's ears touched him. He did not understand. What was this pain he was feeling? He did not know why, but he could feel something being ripped out of him. His chest was warm. Was that normal? Opening his eyes, something soon appeared in his hands.
A bright purple and green jar sat in the palm of his hands. What was this thing called again? He heard Hase call it by a name once. He needed to remember. Ah, right, a Soul Gem. That's what it was called. So, this was the contract. He was a Magical Girl, too, just like his sister. He was Mahou Shoujo Lilac in real life.
The next few days after become a Magical Girl, the hyena chimera had discovered something. He had suddenly been proficient in sign language overnight. He could feel a wave of joy flow through him. He didn't have to talk anymore. He had a way to communicate without talking. He could feel himself over the moon over such a thing.
But, he had to fight for his wish. He remembered what the black cat told him. In exchange for one wish, he would have to fight as a Magical Girl. He had been alerted of a witch by the stranger student, Argenta. Moving towards the alleyway, he took out his soul gem and closed his eyes. Purple dress with golden flowers appearing in place of his school uniform, the hyena chimera felt over the moon.
Magical rod appearing in his right hand, the fight was on. Large monstrosity in front of him, he kept on fighting. Paper mache creature fighting back, he let out a scream as blood trickled down his leg. Why was this so difficult? This wasn't like Mahou Shoujo Lilac at all. Not at all whatsoever.
Winning the fight, a strange black jewel dropped from the creature. Kurobi informing him it was a Grief Seed, he gazed at his Soul Gem. Ah, it had gotten a little darker, hadn't it? Pressing the strange black egg onto the container, he couldn't help but question everything that had just happened, all at once.
His Soul Gem, what would happen if he wouldn't be able to purify the mud? Would he not be able to fight anymore? He did not know. But, he knew he would have to keep it clean, at all costs. Or something bad would happen. He continued to fight the witches, through and through. And, there had been rewards aplenty.
But, as the weeks passed after making his wish, the student could feel the regrets settle in. The teachers at school, they would ask him questions. Why was he communicating with sign language now? He isn't deaf. Please communicate normally. The teachers, they refused to reason with him. They would not make the effort to understand him. He could feel the darkness creep in every time he heard such a thing.
The students at school, they would laugh at him. Call his fingers stupid for dancing. He did not understand. Why? Why didn't anyone want to make the effort into comprehending sign language? The teachers, the students, they all said the same things. They don't understand. He isn't deaf. Communicate normally.
Lunchtime on the roof had gotten lonely over the past few weeks or so. Hase had stopped coming. Yinlong had mysteriously changed schools. He felt so alone. So empty, so hollow. Like a space alien; a foreigner. Was this all because he became a Magical Girl? He knew that might have been the case. Why did he choose this path? Why?
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He shouldn't have become a Magical Girl.
But, he knew he had to keep on fighting. He made a wish, didn't he? And, it came true. So, he had to keep on battling. He had no choice. He kept fighting the witches alone, or the witch's familiars, rather. Less Grief Seeds had begun dropping. His Soul Gem had become muddier. But, he could feel himself begin to care less as the fights kept on going. Ah, what did it matter anymore? What did any of this matter anymore?
He should have never become a Magical Girl. This was nothing like his favorite manga at all.
His sister kept ignoring him in school, and at home. She refused to communicate with him. He could not comprehend any of this. What had he done wrong? He did not know. But, the distance between them would continue to grow bigger as the months grew on. Spring had come and gone. And, summer was cold. Empty. Alone.
His parents did not understand, either. His sudden switch to sign language. They would ask him questions. Was this some sort of phase? He was eighteen now, he was too old to having phases. No one understood him. No one cared to understand him. Why? Why hadn't he thought to ask Kurobi to also make it so people would be able to comprehend sign language, too? Why hadn't he give his wish a little more thought?
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He should have given it more thought.
The fights alone had only gotten more intense. His sister never helped him; she had claimed another city as her own territory along with Yinlong. He did not understand any of this. Magical girls, weren't they supposed to fight in a team? Everything he ever knew in his childhood manga was breaking, cracking, destroying itself. He should have known this wouldn't have been like the manga he used to read all the time.
He could feel himself begin to lose hope as his battles went onward. What was he battling for anymore? His wish? What was the point in all that? No one understood him, no one cared to bother to learn sign language. All of this was pointless. Everything about this was pointless. Why did he become a Magical Girl? He should have listened to Hase. He shouldn't have made that wish.
His Soul Gem had gotten darker, muddier. But, he stopped caring. What was the point in keeping it all nice and pretty anymore? What was the point in doing all that? He couldn't find a purpose anymore. Despair clinging onto his back, he could feel himself ready to break. He should have listened to Hase. He should not have contracted.
He could feel himself crack as the days went on in solitude. The crack had begun to shatter. Dashing away in the middle of the night, he could hear feet chase after him. But, he disregarded it. Hase, why was she bothering now after all these months of ignoring him? Why bother to care now? The student sat down upon the flowerbeds, holding his head as he let out a loud scream.
Why?
Crack.
Soul Gem soon cracking, he could feel his mind become spaghetti.
An extreme, intense energy soon engulfed the city. Chasing after her brother, Hase could hardly believe her eyes. Grief Seed hatching right before her very eyes, a terrifying monster soon appeared in front of her. Large flowerpot with swirly purple and green eyes, and braids similar to her brother, she had come to a quick realization.
That was her brother standing before her.
She could see Kurobi standing by the flowerpot witch. Her rage was mounting. Kurobi, this thing, why hadn't they told her the truth about Magical Girls? She wouldn't have signed a contract with him if she knew. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. This had to have been some joke, right? A prank because she had distanced herself from him shortly after he became a Magical Girl? It had to have been.
"Kurobi, bring my brother back!" Hase cried. "Give him back to me!"
"I can't do that, Hase Ingne," Kurobi said in a monotone voice.
"What do you mean you can't bring him back?!" Hase shouted. "Quit fooling around, Kurobi! Give my brother back to me!"
"You should know better than anyone, Hase. Your brother has become a Witch. I can't bring him back," Kurobi responded, shaking his head. But, tears soon interrupted it all.
"This is all my fault, if I hadn't ignored him after he became a Magical Girl. If I hadn't distanced myself from him, this would have never happened!" Hase cried. She could feel the tears stream down her face. "Siorc, I'm sorry! I'm sorry for distancing myself from you! I'm sorry for turning my back on you when you were suffering." She turned towards Kurobi. "Please, Kurobi, there has to be a way to turn him back! Anything!" But, that's when it happened.
Boom.
Rocket Magical Girl Argenta coming onto the scene, the Flowerpot Witch had soon been slain. She could feel herself grow numb as a Grief Seed dropped down onto the ground. Now, how could she do that? That was her brother. Or, what used to be him, rather. Why did she go and defeat him like that? She could feel her soul gem grow dark at the sight before her.
"Argenta, why did you do that?" Hase cried. "That was my brother!"
"Formerly your brother," Argenta responded in an echoing tone. "You know it's your duty as a Magical Girl to exterminate witches."
Witch barrier closing, she could feel the tears continue to fall. All of this was her fault. Her brother becoming a witch, she was to blame for that. She shouldn't have done that. She should have fought alongside him. She shouldn't have turned a blind eye to all the mean students heckling him. Why did she do that? Siorc was gone. Gone forever. Gone forever because of her stupidity. She should have killed that stupid thing, that stupid Kurobi. Killed them before they could contract him. Tears continuing to fall, the despair settled in one final time.
She shouldn't have let Siorc become a magical girl.
All of this was her fault.
After ten years of wanting to do a Madoka thing, I finally did the Madoka thing. Wow.
Also: Siorc's Puella Magi form, The scene on the rooftop, Old artwork of Siorc in the Mitakihara Uniform, Siorc's Witch Form, Old artwork of Siorc cosplaying Sayaka.
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