Alexander Nicholi
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What would be worse than death for you to experience? Basically, what do you fear more than dying? inb4 torture, being on fire, etc.
I've learned through personal experience that not only do we live on after we die, but we live better after death. That makes a lot of things worse than death for me, because to me death is a relief from life and suffering... you know, that old chestnut. Luckily perseverance has been my friend and I continue for things like obligation to others, peer acceptance, and all in all trying to live a life my dead self can look back on and be happy about. More than anything I couldn't stand dying without being remembered by many. I have to be remembered, I have to be something. I don't know what drives me to want that, but it's my supreme goal in life to have a genuine love-rooted respect from a lot of people for doing something worthwhile, helpful, contributory... in some way I don't know about, just yet. I'm figuring that out.
So, maybe... dying not being remembered is worse than dying being remembered? I dunno. I stay away from harmful things, and in inescapable predicaments to do with torture, genocide and the like I would seek death. At that point it's just a flag I need to try again in life.
I've learned through personal experience that not only do we live on after we die, but we live better after death. That makes a lot of things worse than death for me, because to me death is a relief from life and suffering... you know, that old chestnut. Luckily perseverance has been my friend and I continue for things like obligation to others, peer acceptance, and all in all trying to live a life my dead self can look back on and be happy about. More than anything I couldn't stand dying without being remembered by many. I have to be remembered, I have to be something. I don't know what drives me to want that, but it's my supreme goal in life to have a genuine love-rooted respect from a lot of people for doing something worthwhile, helpful, contributory... in some way I don't know about, just yet. I'm figuring that out.
So, maybe... dying not being remembered is worse than dying being remembered? I dunno. I stay away from harmful things, and in inescapable predicaments to do with torture, genocide and the like I would seek death. At that point it's just a flag I need to try again in life.
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