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That's nice. It's good to have somewhere relaxing, especially since anxiety is such a phenomenal bitch to deal with...! But at least it kind of gets better, like when a sense of proportion kicks in out of nowhere. Its a rarity, but it's there.

Personally, I'm in an annoying rut! I'll snap out of it in the next thirty minutes because not even ruts like to hang around me, but it feels like I'm a pea stuck in a pod and the exit is blocked up by horrible green fibres. Plus I need to exercise so that I'm primed and ready for acting, but my knees and back are absolute rubbish. They're fundamentally opposed to me moving at all.

Rant over.

i like avalanche too! one of my fave songs on thats the spirit is follow you

i really like that song.

Just realised something:
WE'RE YOUNG. YIPPEEE!

And I don't often use caps, so let that be a testament to the joy involved. We're young! Young, I tell you! We can do cartwheels (not me) and run and jump and party! But instead I'm eatting porridge in a chair, about to play games and then watch Fantastic Beasts: Crimes of Grindelwald. Not a bad schedule, but I want to party.

As far as moral trespass goes, that sounds pretty tame. Just so as long as, you know, they just fed ducks and ate dinner. But that's another thing I want to do - go hunting. Killing animals would be an impossibility but spearing fishies in the streams with a javelin... that'd be good.

Oh yeah, here is some brilliant music for when you get bored:
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=PHE33nX4Srs&list=OLAK5uy_mi0mQtjvGWefy3vYW52kXgd-21tBzMSEg

I recommend Heartlines and Bridges. They're a New Zealand brother and sister duo, and they kick ass.

Thanks! This list looks really helpful! I'm always meaning to give my characters all of the little background details that make them fleshed-out, but making my own questionnaires is a nightmare. So this is really useful.

It's kind of upsetting when people diss what you like, huh. Very disheartening. But just ignore them when it comes to sucking the enjoyment out of stuff. No one should be mad to feel bad about what they like. Unless it's certain animes, fetishes, style in clothes, et cetera... god, the hypocrisy of humanity is killing me.

And one of the actors I like, Michael Fassbender, has had allegations of physical abuse put against him back in 2012 -he practically beat up his girlfriend when he was drunk, but it wasn't quite as direct as physically beating her. More like serious manhandling- and I was almost relieved because I was expecting something hideously dark, like Harvey Weinstein stories. But before I knew the exact nature of the allegations and supposed they were more violating in nature, I had this crisis of conscience because I realised something:

Fassbender is awesome looking. He's a good actor, and charming, and we share heritage, so there's this instant fondness going on. So I was automatically more willing to forgive him than if he'd been charmless, a terrible actor, not as cool-looking and of a heritage that was completely unlike mine. Which is utterly horrible. If he'd had the latter's qualities, I would have mentally condemned him to whatever prison had the most spit in it.

The point is... it's disturbing how charm, good-looks and talent can basically get you off the hook. It inspires more leniency. But what's worse is that people who do not have those qualities are going to suffer more. Judgement should never come too easily, and should be examined closely.
Would we forgive a dog for shredding our sneakers if it was cute and fluffy? Would we forgive it if it was mangy, and prone to biting, and yapped all the time? Ack...! The implications...!

But I'm seriously disappointed in him now, and I don't like him as much nor do I really want to use him as my template anymore. I know he was drunk when he did those things, and that drunkenness often brings out the worst in people, but that poor woman must have been really scared, and she came away with some pretty bad injuries. I just hope that history doesn't repeat itself.

Pretty weird, impromptu diatribe but aaaagh! Implications, Kimi! The implications!

*eyes emoji* i see we like a lot of the same bands. i also like pierce the veil, bring me the horizon and sleeping with sirens.

Gah! She's annoying! She didn't back me up when I wanted to watch It (2017) and then she made me suffer through Sense and Sensibility just to murder my brain. I'm going to get my revenge. Make her watch Mel Gibson films for a few days straight.

Rats, Google Docs doesn't seem to work 'cause I haven't got an account. But thanks for the offer! Hopefully my storage of templates doesn't go sour on me. It's really irritating when that happens. Except I just found a solution to my age-old problem of not being able to imagine aliens for my Star Wars stories... heh heh. Well, I found one alien so that's as close as I've got to a cure.

Your username... changed... again?! I thought there was supposed to be a cap on when you could do it, lmao.

Haven't seen that one, either. I recently watched Sense and Sensibility and it nearly made me throw up, so now I'm extremely wary of the whole 'women in bonnets' movie thing. The attempt on my life has left me scarred and deformed, and never again will I endure Jane Austin in any way or form. But if Little Women has Winona Ryder and it's American... maybe.

Just bought the fourth Artemis Fowl book! Huzzah!

I've been doing third person for a long time because I have pretty fancy prose, and it doesn't fit with someone's perspective unless they're weird and fairly gay. But first person is great because it forces you to do something simpler (unless it's a To Kill A Mockingbird sort of thing) and yet to still have flair and style and all that. Which is what I'm trying to do because overly fancy prose is bollocks. Pure bollocks.

And I've never played a Final Fantasy game, but I saw a lot of 13 and it looked pretty great. The graphics are outdated. They sort of all are, though, 'cept maybe the FF10 remaster.

Sounds fun! And I'm glad your X-box is all fixed, 'cause having a broken console is a total ass to deal with. 'My' old X-Box 360 kept being a total ass that couldn't process my games and it was such a phenomenal drag.

Anyhoo, I've been typing for a few days and I've just realised that it's utter phlegm. Or at least it has no room for progression and the main character doesn't have enough personality, and that's a major drag because I'm doing first person. But not tenses like 'said', but rather 'says', and I like it! Technically it's bad grammar but eugh, screw grammar. screw every the grammars,.

I've only been to a few fairgrounds, which were pretty good-sized but flipping expensive! Won a huge dog once, still got it. Disney World sounds really fun, though. Cool too, except for that exploitation thing. Like, getting a granny in a wheelchair off the street just so you can go on a ferris wheel...? Hilarious but yeah, pretty terrible. It sucks how jerks make everything harder for everyone else.

Still, on your next brave day, you should Disney World another whirl. You might surprise yourself.

Never watched Secret Life of Pets or Bumble Bee, and there are so many movies that I want to catch up on...! Like this flick called Frank (2014), 'cause it's got Michael Fassbender and it's a comedy and whatnot.

I meant to draw yesterday but it pissed me off so badly that I just flopped down the couch and watched 60s spy shows. This particular one had an episode with Kim Darby in it - the girl from the original True Grit (1969). Girls with short hair, am I right. There aren't enough of them.

I've never seen it, but I remember a time where the internet was positively splashed with it. I should probably get around to watching all the Disney films, 'cept I've got priorities elsewhere. Sort of. I'm just so excited for Star Wars and Spider-man! I'm going to see them both in the cinema, if all works out, and its such a glorious experience.

Ha, thanks! And you too!

Actually, I was thinking of doing something - maybe submitting some drawings on here. Watermarked, of course. Maybe even commissions? I mean, I'm still a horrible amateur whose self-taught, so I skipped all the basics, therefor my proportions and anatomy are way off, but I think it'd be fun! And do people really expect a perfect commission? Nah. They just want one for the sake of having it.

And I haven't technically got an art style yet because it keeps changing, so every commission would be done in a different, experimental art style lmao. It's probably piss them off, but this might help me improve as a drawer and whatnot.

I was also thinking of a vague present for you. I can't say when I can get around to it, maybe if at all, but the capacity is certainly there. I've got a scanner, so high-quality uploads! There's a clue, and you can probably get the rest of it.

I remember that show! Used to like it, too, but not as much as Grossology and Arthur. Live action used to embarrass me.

Disability school sounds legit. And if you wanna add some magic, that'd be great too. Metal related powers are always a hit, like Toph Beifong from ATLA and Magneto from X-Men - whose younger version is played by Fassy, aka Michael Fassbender. What a bro.

I want to do a Star Wars fic. It's in my blood! And, though not to speak too soon, there are templates abound. 'Cept mathematics is creeping up on me like a golum so hrmm... might not have a lot of time coming up.

Also, my internet is slower than a slug with low blood sugar, so I might not be able to come on. And if I start typing, I probably won't at all. Not for a while.

And here's a gif of Loki and Thor being idiots and striking poses.

That's fine. I'm feeling pretty darn sleepy, actually, and it's not as though I'm searching up Loki or anything...

Hrmm, that does sound pretty fun. Even the fear of abandonment could sharpen up an otherwise dull afternoon. And handcuffing someone sounds thoroughly sane because otherwise they always get away. Clinging onto their leg is only a temporary fix, because they'll invariably get away. Unless you use your upper body strength to wrench them down, and then sit on their back and fake-strangle them whenever they try and get up... but I'm no expert.

Yes! Paranormal! Add drama and the wow factor wherever you can.

I tried invisible friends when I was much younger because everyone else was doing it and apparently it was brilliant, but I just couldn't get it. It was either due to a lack of imaginative scope or the fact I was too mature in a weird, suppressed way. Were they any fun? They didn't seem very fun, lmao.

Sounds horrible. It's a shame that you had to go through all of that, but you're getting better, right? That's the main thing, as well as keeping out of the mental hospitals and all that. And I don't mind personal talks.

Sometimes I feel like there's something a bit wrong with me. A slice of psychosis under the skin. Like, I have the potential to do something horrible, because all it would take is one slip and then you've skidded down to the bottom and there's no light anymore, and chasing it is painful and traumatic because you'd be shamming normalcy to the ones you love, while all the time you're just shuddering into this void you've created. I get this feeling a lot at night. During the day, I'm perfectly fine. It must be vampiric paranoia or something.

I know! How about the war veteran's trauma has left a fracture in his mind, and all of these weird twisted personifications of his ordeals are escaping into the real world as twisted black beasts that eat/control/kill people? And the girl can help him stop them!
... but it's quite wacky and I'd understand if you'd rather go with something more tame, lmao.

Ah, colouring books! They're so flipping excellent, and it makes a good change from having the hassle of doing the outlines yourself and worrying whether that eye is level with the other one, and blah blah blah. The only colouring book I've got is, ahem, of fairies, so I make do. It's so fun doing gradient effects with pencils and adding sheen in weird places.

And I'm jealous. Barely eaten a thing all day, and rice can't come soon enough. The joys of simple eating, aahh...

... but today I had a massive episode of something. I was in a car and suddenly my weird, surreal sensation trebled and I felt completely disconnected from reality. I think it's getting worse. When it happens, it feels like I can walk into a bonfire and nothing will come of it. It remember back in early 2016, I was trying to hold onto a tiny sliver of reality and it kept slipping away in my mind. Maybe I'll see a doctor about it, but no meds under any circumstances. Nopey-nopey-no.

Eddie makes a brilliant template. I should know, hur hur hur... yeah, but I've really gotten the most use out of Daisy Ridley. She's solid. Nowadays it's all topsy turvy and everyone experiences a transitory moment of fame and goodness and inspiration, only to get thrown in the rubbish bin.

Do you ever find an excellent template, though, but have no inspiration, so they're practically all burnt up by the time you do?

Righto. Sometimes I hear about conditions shaping out people, and other times about utterly sunshiny people and seem okay with everything, despite a compendium of nasty ailments. I guess it all boils down to the determination to be happy.

Is Kellin still the other character?