Ah, I see... were you maybe affected by the loneliness? Did that make you more mature, in some way? I know it did for me, because I'd been through a rough childhood myself; it's not the family's fault, though... Hey, have you ever thought of being a doctor? If you care about others, that would be the perfect job for you!
So you're more of a realist. But still, making it bright for them, even hoping to do so, doesn't that make you an optimist?