Dear Anonymous,
Today I dreamed about you. I've been having you on my mind every single day, I can't stop thinking about your smile and the way you looked at me when we were together. I can't stop thinking about your lips, about how tender they were on mine and how much I miss you.
I know you had told me not to fall in love with you, I know you told me you would end up hurting me but deep down I know it's all a mask. I know by the brightness in your eyes when we met, by the passionate way you would kiss me, I know you felt this too.. I just wish I could understand what keeps you away from me, what stands in the way between you and your feelings, why you can't let go and lose yourself with me..
Maybe I was fooling myself. I warned myself not to let any feelings for you take over me because maybe, maybe, you really are too young.. But damn you for being so beautiful, for lowering down my guard ever so slowly and gently for, without even acknowledging it, making me fall in love with you in every single way, with every glance, every word coming out of your lips, every smile, every touch, every good-bye..
My dream was so simple, yet so perfect. Images are slowly fading away, but they still fill up my mind. I don't even know if this is possible but I believe I felt true happiness while I was dreaming. I can swear I could feel that warmth and that unexplainable feeling of being truly happy that corrupts your every sense, making colors brighter making every inch of my body feel alive and yet lost, lost in this host of feelings I can't express.
I woke up to my heart racing, panting for a fraction of a second that seemed to last so much longer, until it hit me I had just woke up. The feeling of shattering inside, the sound of my own mind crying for realizing everything was a dream, cursing reality.. There was ever no dream so bittersweet in my life, letting me grasp happiness, feel it take over me like nothing I've felt before only to be stripped of it and left broken in reality.
This world truly is cruel. There isn't a second you leave my mind.
I feel haunted