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It is my life's goal to become a father. When I feel that I am ready to have children, I will do what I can to have them. Well, anything within reason, of course. It is odd that I have the names of children, their rooms, their clothes etc already figured out in my head? I've just given a lot of thought to the children I want to have in the future. Being gay, I don't think I'll be able to have my own biological children and would most likely adopt. Like, surrogacy is an option, but to be honest I think I'd be too afraid that something would go wrong in the process and the child would be hurt. I wouldn't be able to put up with the emotional heartbreak if the child died whilst it was in the womb, all the love I had for it already would be wasted. Plus, it seems that I wouldn't be able to afford surrogacy anyway. It's just too expensive for me. So, I'd adopt. As weird as this is, I'd like to have a family something like Angelina Jolie's 'rainbow family'. I'm not going to adopt a child from every continent like Angie, but I wouldn't be adverse to adopting children from different parts of Europe. It just seems so... idk how to describe it, interesting? Interesting probably isn't the right word to use in this situation, but I have a terrible vocabulary, lol.
Ideally, I would have two boys and two girls. But to be honest, I'll take what I can get. Okay, bad wording. I'd be happy with whatever I got in the lottery that is the gender of a child. To me, it doesn't matter if I have four boys or four girls or a mixture of each. They'd all be loved just as much anyway. I just love kids, y'know? Now, the first boy would most likely be called Leonardo or Nathaniel. Not any of that Nat crap, Nathaniel. Leonardo because a) he is my favorite actor (lol) and b) I've always liked that name. Nathaniel because it'd be in honor to an old friend of mine. As for the girls, Veronica and Kerry. Still wavering a bit on Kerry, but I do like that name. Kerry or Vivien. I just like V names on girls, lol. Veronica would have black hair, be very fit, intelligent etc. As I said earlier, I've thought a lot about this stuff.
Now, why do I want kids so much? I won't lie, a part of it is because I feel as if I have to prove to my children that even though my father was terrible, their father doesn't have to be. I want to give them the love that I've always felt all children deserve. I want to let my children feel wanted, appreciated, loved. I was denied of that growing up and it is not a fate I would ever want to bestow on my children. I want my kids to look back on their lives and know that I only ever loved them, despite of what mistakes they may have made or if we ever fought about things. I only ever wanted the best for them. secondly, I want children because, well, it seems like the best thing I could do with my life. To bring a child into this world, watch it grow up, become educated, see it fall in love, marry and have their own children. But if my children don't follow this path, so what? It'll be their life. I'll probably be a very overprotective father (especially with my teenage daughters), but they'll know that whatever they choose to do with their life, I will do by best to appreciate the path they have chosen and help them with it.
Look, overall, I want to be a good father.
Ideally, I would have two boys and two girls. But to be honest, I'll take what I can get. Okay, bad wording. I'd be happy with whatever I got in the lottery that is the gender of a child. To me, it doesn't matter if I have four boys or four girls or a mixture of each. They'd all be loved just as much anyway. I just love kids, y'know? Now, the first boy would most likely be called Leonardo or Nathaniel. Not any of that Nat crap, Nathaniel. Leonardo because a) he is my favorite actor (lol) and b) I've always liked that name. Nathaniel because it'd be in honor to an old friend of mine. As for the girls, Veronica and Kerry. Still wavering a bit on Kerry, but I do like that name. Kerry or Vivien. I just like V names on girls, lol. Veronica would have black hair, be very fit, intelligent etc. As I said earlier, I've thought a lot about this stuff.
Now, why do I want kids so much? I won't lie, a part of it is because I feel as if I have to prove to my children that even though my father was terrible, their father doesn't have to be. I want to give them the love that I've always felt all children deserve. I want to let my children feel wanted, appreciated, loved. I was denied of that growing up and it is not a fate I would ever want to bestow on my children. I want my kids to look back on their lives and know that I only ever loved them, despite of what mistakes they may have made or if we ever fought about things. I only ever wanted the best for them. secondly, I want children because, well, it seems like the best thing I could do with my life. To bring a child into this world, watch it grow up, become educated, see it fall in love, marry and have their own children. But if my children don't follow this path, so what? It'll be their life. I'll probably be a very overprotective father (especially with my teenage daughters), but they'll know that whatever they choose to do with their life, I will do by best to appreciate the path they have chosen and help them with it.
Look, overall, I want to be a good father.