been about six or so years of Living the New Life, so to speak
well that's somewhat dramatic bc i haven't really done much different - rather, i just decided to take a far more open view towards feelings that had been troubling me and rebranded myself appropriately. i've always been somewhat different to many trans/genderfluid experiences in that dysphoria is a very rare thing for me. i've felt it, and would push a button and change my outward presentation in an instant if there was an option, but it's rather low on the motivating factors towards examining my identity. i felt dysphoria a lot more in the past than i do nowadays, but even then, it's not been my go-to emotion, lol. some purists consider dysphoria as a necessitating factor towards a trans identity or otherwise different forms of gender expression, and i've never understood such singularly ironic gatekeeping. overall, while i'm going to prefer being seen as/called a girl in any circumstances, i am far more indifferent to who i am nowadays and only flinch at being addressed in super manly terms, lol. i consider my exploration days to be at an end; anything new is just a natural evolution of what i've already decided upon.