i can't stand the thought of anyone disliking or disapproving of me, so i make an effort to always be presentable. because of that, i have a lot of trouble 'letting loose', though. it's part of why i dislike big groups and parties, because there's always someone i feel i need to impress. i can't help it, it's completely embedded in my being. whenever someone says they don't care what people say i'm just baffled because in my head it matters. the world isn't fair so i feel i need to be on everyone's good side as much as possible just to make sure i don't get screwed over.
that being said, it's different for people i don't like. there aren't a lot, but if i dislike someone, i instantly stop caring what they think of me as well.
edit: i also just remembered it's not so bad for people who i know i'll never see again or who i know won't remember me next time i do.
that being said, it's different for people i don't like. there aren't a lot, but if i dislike someone, i instantly stop caring what they think of me as well.
edit: i also just remembered it's not so bad for people who i know i'll never see again or who i know won't remember me next time i do.
Last edited: