People think they're weird a lot of the time because of the strict social standards of societies. Each one expects you to act a certain way, and some of those ways defy human nature, and condemn natural instincts as being taboo. Personally, i think it's a bit silly. If we were more open and honest about all of those things we do that are considered taboo, there would be a lot less lonely people in the world. It is a pleasant surprise to learn though that something is not too weird and someone else does it too.
Based on my preconceptions of other members of society, I am a bit of the odd one out. I think I'm pretty weird in certain ways, but not so weird that I just have no ability to relate or communicate with others at all. Even here on the internet, I do not fit with what I perceive to be several norms. Such as the enjoyment of memes, hashtags, or making ridiculously short comments on Tumblr and reblogging everything. I've never been able to find quite the place which fits in with me, that has people who are like me. Whilst this location on the internet has people who are more similar to me than those in real life, there are still many differences I have observed, so many that I still feel like a bit of a weirdo standout.
What makes me weird exactly? In real life, I am as many are here on the internet. An introverted little mess. I speak only if necessary, and otherwise don't say much of anything. My interactions are kind of embarrassing.
Here on the internet, I tend to speak about things at length rather than the briefness I've observed from many people. My posts are peppered with detail and elaboration, and I am much more serious and considerate. My interests, whilst some are popular, are kind of niche. (Such as my intense love of Xenosaga, which most people don't even know the slightest thing about.)
And the way I think... I think that's the weirdest part about me. I don't think I've found anyone save for one person who appears to have similar thoughts to me. Anyone who really... understands the way I am. It's difficult to describe, but my personality is extremely self-centered without being narcissistic. I feel as though I exist in a different world that is not this one, one that I create. My mind is boundless, and continues to create. It won't stop, it won't be quiet, and it makes me feel more... spiritual in a way. I'm always questioning why things are, how they are, why our world exists as it is, and wanting to tear down things that are commonplace in human society that I don't even understand why they are still around in a modern age. (Like money.) My mind is that of a revolutionary, one who wants to change the world, but cannot really do anything meaningful. So I express myself through creativity, through creating my own worlds instead. And these worlds, they are an extension of me. I am them, and they are created with my heart and soul. My sense of self... my individuality... it is so ridiculously intense. I think you can say that most of me is ridiculously intense and kind of overwhelming. When I speak to most people, I hold back significantly. Otherwise, I'll scare them off. "You think too much." is a common concern. And sometimes, it is true, but I find it to be disappointing and dismissive most of the time.
I know that many others like me exist out there and that in such circles, I would not be considered weird. It's just a matter of finding these people in this large world. But when I see everyone else, I can tell that many of them do not think these thoughts that I do. They're simply content to exist. And that's fine. Perhaps there are more others like me, but I cannot know the thoughts of other people, nor can I judge them completely.
