also... i'm sorry about the late reply....

when i got up today, which was near 1:00 pm, my brother started on me again, cause of what happened yesterday... he said that they're sending christmas cards too early.... then i said *i think* please don't ruin christmas like that... *or something along those lines*...
& then he went off on me... saying he doesn't care about the lead up to christmas.... that's not very holiday-ish, is it.... & he said that i don't mean my apologies... i do so :<
& then saying that he doesn't ruin my day... when he sorta does, in someway....
& then after that, i felt really bad & queezy & headachey & thought i was gonna throw up *i ended up not, though... but i thought i was gonna*, cause of all my crying... mum says my lips turned white, & my stomach hurt, mum said it's cause i got myself all in a big tizzy....
i had to lie down & take a nap & deep breaths at the end of the bed in the kitchen for a while, then after a while, i tried some butter on toast...
i felt a little better after that....
now i've got my water bottle & slowly drinking
& here we are :>