[AGELIMIT]those who are insecure. Some more mature thoughts etc.[/AGELIMIT]
Okay... Basically, if you're gonna read this and be immature and stupid, just do me a favour and leave. I was gonna do a recording because well, I know lots of this will be taken the wrong way. But I decided not to, there's no censors for audio.
I've had one of the toughest years in my entire life, and I'm not here to say "pity me my life sucks", but to show some of you why I've been the way I've been at times. I'm not going to summarize my year either... At this point, I dont know what I'm going to say, so here I go.
I joined PC less than half a year ago, why? To this point I dont know, in fat I think it was why half the users joined, Pokemon Shiny Gold. Since then I've been a noob, a hacker, a TCTI regular, a graphic artist, an elitist (and if you'd allow me to use group names yeah?), I stopped by in groups such as what is now the dead sweater and hell probably others too. I didn't make these decisions, they were made for me. I did not want to be apart of any group nor do I ever want to be. So if you think I'm in one I'm not. Groups are bloody ridiculous, you people really have nothing better to do than form cliques and create "drama" on the internt? Do you have the maturity of a 10 year olds? In fact, I respect some 10 year olds more than I do some people on this forum. Get over it. There's some members who think they're the absolute **** because of how many people know thier username. Whether you're a normal member, a mod, an admin at the end of the day all you are is a piece of data on the vast world that is the internet. So for those of you who take themselves far too seriously, get a grip, you're on a pokemon forum, a forum invented for people whoo enjoy what effectively is a cartoon made for kids. Don't think you're high and mighty. It's bloody stupid. Now, you may be arrogant and cocky IRL, and that's fine if you drag it onto PC, at least you're not trying to be someone you're not. But at the end of the day NO ONE CARES. I know I'm seeming hypocritical, but I'm doing this for ME not YOU.
Next protocall. Stop judging people. Just stop. You dont know them well enough (unless you know them IRL) but you cant judge somoene on the internet. You just dont know them well enough. There are cases where some people know eachother like I know my hands but in most cases, people ae judging those THEY DO NOT KNOW. It's stupid, I speak from my own heart here too. People have said I've changed. People I HAVE NEVER MET, now, can you see the logic in that?
In the past year, somoene (my aunt) who was like a mother to me died of ovarian cancer. I took that extremely hard but hell it happens to everyone I know it all too well. I've had lots of problems with depression (The worlds most common desiese), I've had drink problems and did so bad in many of my exams because of it. No more than 2 weeks ago, someone I've known all my life commited suicide. He was extremely close to me. But you know what? I'm getting over it, I dont announce them here either because I know that you dont care. Why have I said it? This is why; some people have a lot more going on than you could ever know or experiance, so before you go and be a total prick over nothing, think twice about it. Think about what you've gone through and multiply it ten fold. Could you bare it? Now imagine you come on PC everyday to get away from life, but someone insults you. Someone is a total prick to you. Over nothing, all you've done is be yourself. Could you bare it? Would you leave PC and look for some place else you could weigh out your pain? For me, PC is the only place that keeps me from tearing myself apart on occasions.
Now let me be specific. There's a few people whom I trusted. You know what, I loved them. I'll admit it. In the past few weeks they slowly just drifted away. Which was startling enough, then they came back. Not the same as they were. I've changed majorly therefore they didn't confront me about it. I just had to sit in the dark and wonder why they were being total pricks to me even when I asked why. You know, it makes me wonder why some people are so fickle, that one little event can cause them to change their opinion onyou and who you are.
You're so vein friend, that I bet you think this is about you, don't you?
But yeah. If I can speak for myself. Talk to me and treat me for who I am. Who you think I would be if I were to be your friend IRL. I'm not Abnegation, 5 teir supporter 2000+ post count [insert whatever else you think I am], I'm not. I am Gavin. I'm a normal kid who goes to school, has ambitions, plays guitar, lives in Ireland, has friends, family and a life that he leads aside of all the stuff that goes on here.
Dont get me wrong, I love PC and I love so many poeple here, but some are just ruining it. PC is not a givem right, it's somewhere to go, to chill, relax.
Ask yourself this "While I was filling out my sign up form for PC, why did I finish it? What made me join?"
I bet it's a lot different as to why you're here now.
You could say that the main reason I came here was to vent. But if you were to read between the lines you'll know there's a number of things. I just want some people to lay off and let me/others live my/their life.
Post a reply and say "srs bsns" go on, I dare you. Or you could just take into account what I've said and acknowlage it. It's your choice, at the end of the day, we're all alone when you think about it. No one will know who you truely are but you. Not your mom, not your best friend, not the administrators, not anyone! Besides you. Do what makes you happy, but keep in mind that everyone else is doing the same thing, and wouldn't it be a lot better if you just let people be heppy? But wtv. Some people like being selfish.
Get over it, be a model member for once. I for one am just going to be myself and leave this all behind. Some people in paticular should do the same.
I'll admit I'm hurt PC, both by some of you and more so IRL.
Just live and let live. Please.
Okay... Basically, if you're gonna read this and be immature and stupid, just do me a favour and leave. I was gonna do a recording because well, I know lots of this will be taken the wrong way. But I decided not to, there's no censors for audio.
I've had one of the toughest years in my entire life, and I'm not here to say "pity me my life sucks", but to show some of you why I've been the way I've been at times. I'm not going to summarize my year either... At this point, I dont know what I'm going to say, so here I go.
I joined PC less than half a year ago, why? To this point I dont know, in fat I think it was why half the users joined, Pokemon Shiny Gold. Since then I've been a noob, a hacker, a TCTI regular, a graphic artist, an elitist (and if you'd allow me to use group names yeah?), I stopped by in groups such as what is now the dead sweater and hell probably others too. I didn't make these decisions, they were made for me. I did not want to be apart of any group nor do I ever want to be. So if you think I'm in one I'm not. Groups are bloody ridiculous, you people really have nothing better to do than form cliques and create "drama" on the internt? Do you have the maturity of a 10 year olds? In fact, I respect some 10 year olds more than I do some people on this forum. Get over it. There's some members who think they're the absolute **** because of how many people know thier username. Whether you're a normal member, a mod, an admin at the end of the day all you are is a piece of data on the vast world that is the internet. So for those of you who take themselves far too seriously, get a grip, you're on a pokemon forum, a forum invented for people whoo enjoy what effectively is a cartoon made for kids. Don't think you're high and mighty. It's bloody stupid. Now, you may be arrogant and cocky IRL, and that's fine if you drag it onto PC, at least you're not trying to be someone you're not. But at the end of the day NO ONE CARES. I know I'm seeming hypocritical, but I'm doing this for ME not YOU.
Next protocall. Stop judging people. Just stop. You dont know them well enough (unless you know them IRL) but you cant judge somoene on the internet. You just dont know them well enough. There are cases where some people know eachother like I know my hands but in most cases, people ae judging those THEY DO NOT KNOW. It's stupid, I speak from my own heart here too. People have said I've changed. People I HAVE NEVER MET, now, can you see the logic in that?
In the past year, somoene (my aunt) who was like a mother to me died of ovarian cancer. I took that extremely hard but hell it happens to everyone I know it all too well. I've had lots of problems with depression (The worlds most common desiese), I've had drink problems and did so bad in many of my exams because of it. No more than 2 weeks ago, someone I've known all my life commited suicide. He was extremely close to me. But you know what? I'm getting over it, I dont announce them here either because I know that you dont care. Why have I said it? This is why; some people have a lot more going on than you could ever know or experiance, so before you go and be a total prick over nothing, think twice about it. Think about what you've gone through and multiply it ten fold. Could you bare it? Now imagine you come on PC everyday to get away from life, but someone insults you. Someone is a total prick to you. Over nothing, all you've done is be yourself. Could you bare it? Would you leave PC and look for some place else you could weigh out your pain? For me, PC is the only place that keeps me from tearing myself apart on occasions.
Now let me be specific. There's a few people whom I trusted. You know what, I loved them. I'll admit it. In the past few weeks they slowly just drifted away. Which was startling enough, then they came back. Not the same as they were. I've changed majorly therefore they didn't confront me about it. I just had to sit in the dark and wonder why they were being total pricks to me even when I asked why. You know, it makes me wonder why some people are so fickle, that one little event can cause them to change their opinion onyou and who you are.
You're so vein friend, that I bet you think this is about you, don't you?
But yeah. If I can speak for myself. Talk to me and treat me for who I am. Who you think I would be if I were to be your friend IRL. I'm not Abnegation, 5 teir supporter 2000+ post count [insert whatever else you think I am], I'm not. I am Gavin. I'm a normal kid who goes to school, has ambitions, plays guitar, lives in Ireland, has friends, family and a life that he leads aside of all the stuff that goes on here.
Dont get me wrong, I love PC and I love so many poeple here, but some are just ruining it. PC is not a givem right, it's somewhere to go, to chill, relax.
Ask yourself this "While I was filling out my sign up form for PC, why did I finish it? What made me join?"
I bet it's a lot different as to why you're here now.
You could say that the main reason I came here was to vent. But if you were to read between the lines you'll know there's a number of things. I just want some people to lay off and let me/others live my/their life.
Post a reply and say "srs bsns" go on, I dare you. Or you could just take into account what I've said and acknowlage it. It's your choice, at the end of the day, we're all alone when you think about it. No one will know who you truely are but you. Not your mom, not your best friend, not the administrators, not anyone! Besides you. Do what makes you happy, but keep in mind that everyone else is doing the same thing, and wouldn't it be a lot better if you just let people be heppy? But wtv. Some people like being selfish.
Get over it, be a model member for once. I for one am just going to be myself and leave this all behind. Some people in paticular should do the same.
I'll admit I'm hurt PC, both by some of you and more so IRL.
Just live and let live. Please.
