You flipflopped your position and opinions on this so many times. The reason it's so hard for you to express your opinion is because you don't have one that's stable enough to express, unless you're hiding it because you're ashamed of it.
You being gay for a while and then randomly deciding that you liked being straight more makes absolutely no sense. You need to learn more about yourself and about life before you can speak like that, because judging from your posts here, you don't know who you are. That's very transparent and perfectly acceptable and reasonable for someone your age.
You're pulling beliefs out of nowhere, basically, just to go along with what people are saying.