UraharaSteph
Science Has Never Been So Sexy
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Alright... this is the first time I've ever posted anything personal on a forum before, but since nearly everyone on PC is quite the friendly chaps, I want to see if you can help me out or cheer me up....
My name is Stephanie and last year I went out with the guy of my dreams. At least, at the time he seemed like the guy of my dreams. We went out for two months before he broke up with me. I was younger and more naive, so I had given up and sacrificed a lot for him and I was only 15 years of age. We had our arguments like any normal couple, and I was going through a lot of trouble at home so I stayed at his a lot. He was there for me, and that made me fall for him more.
It had been a year and two weeks before were were back together. Well... I say back together. He was currently with another girl, but felt very attracted to me once again. We both fell for each other again, but we had both matured nicely. We seemed to be getting on better than ever and after that break of a whole year, we saw each other as fresh new young people. He cheated on his girlfriend with me... Even though none of us did it out of spite... it just sort of happened. Please don't judge me on this, it's not something I would do to just any guy I fancied that had a partner, and he was the one who started it anyway... I just didn't end it ):. He broke up with his girlfriend, and we were the officially together. Things were going great for the first two months, better than ever in fact. Our arguments were over silly things (one about what Luvdisc was... don't ask) but we laughed about them and enjoyed them. Sure at times I didn't trust him, but he had a complete new approach to me... and since I had seen him with past girlfriends, I really do believe I was someone he had the most strong feelings for.
It's coming up to nearly 3 months now, and for the past week we've been distant and not really interacting with happy thoughts much. We both have our problems, but we both love seeing each other. Yesterday he stated beautiful things, and said how he always loved me being around, and how he wanted me around all the time. He said he couldn't get mad at me and basically charmed me to the max. Today... He's had a complete change of attitude. The day started off with nothing unusual... nothing very happy or very sad. He then started to say how he was feeling ill and that he really didn't want me to catch what he had so I should go home for my own sake. I protested, and said I really wanted to stay and get things back on track. We had a long discussion and then he finally said.
"This is too much for me, I can't handle it."
I was shocked by his words and he stood up and walked away from me. He carried on his sentence with. "Well, why don't we break up?"
I didn't want to break up with him, so I tried a lot of things to stay with him. He told me his head was very cloudy and he had to get things straight. We were still having the odd giggle even in the midst of all this. He wanted to be left alone so he could think things through, so I kissed him on the cheek and left him to it. He doesn't dump people over the phone, or through text or e-mail but I said I Wanted to know his decision as soon as possible. The only way he could see me again properly is today... or wait until Friday which is day of the prom. (Yeah all this happens before the prom)
During the day I got a message that said from him
"I think I want an end to it all i want it all to stop... I know you love me. And that makes it all the more hard. But i cant deal with it. I am not ready for something so serious. I t scares me. And I want a fresh start."
I replied saying that perhaps all we need is a break away from each other, which we will get because he's going away for 3 weeks. I was basically desperate for it not to end but I didn't let that fully show through.
To my suggestion he replied "I don't know. For the moment can we end?"
I replied saying I didn't want to break up, and was it what he really wanted even though he had admitted that he still loves me. I then asked if we were both going to the prom together still.
I haven't received a text in answer, but I know he still wants to be my prom date since he said so earlier after he suggested we break up. his exact words were something like "I will still be your date for the prom... If you'll have me?"
Someone please help me. It's been all day now, and he still hasn't given me a straight answer to whether we should break up or not. I'm still in hearts in his MSN name and still together on Facebook in the relationship section. I'm really confused! I need help! I know this isn't the best site for it, but does anyone know where I could put this to help me? Thank you.
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