Nick

Not gonna lie, absolutely no idea what that is :3

Yo! What's up? I left my account open while I was out by accident but I'm back now!

glad to have your approval (for real) :D

aw thank ya :D

Thank you.

Ditto to you!

So I mean at the end of the day, it's lucky that they're getting closed? Although hopefully you won't be unemployed for too long /:

Speaking of which, I actually have to head off to bed because I have work in a few hours! Night!

*favorited and bookmarked*

I've got a job. It's Dunkin Donuts, but I mean at least it's something. My manager was nice enough to keep me in the system while I was away at college so I didn't have to reapply or anything. It's not the ideal place I'd like to work - being surrounded by women all day in which all they do is gossip and complain - but I need some kind of income.

Do you work?

As in helping people?

I used to work in a senior home and bridge the gap between the old and new generation by teaching elders how to use technology such as computers. I also currently go to underprivileged schools and teach kids morals and good-standing characteristics through games to ultimately shape them into young role models for their communities.

Sorry I was writing my next entry for my blog.

I'm jealous of that. My mind is split. Common sense tells me I shouldn't care what others say, but my emotions trump it every single time.

I'm probably going to do the Human Services/International Affairs double major that I stated earlier. I still know that I want to dedicate my life helping others - it's more just a matter that it's not in a health care setting.

And it's never been that bad, trust me. It's only happened a few times in my life, but this has been the only time that it's been reoccurring. I'm just going to have to endure it when I go into hospitals is all. It will be my version of PTSD.

It's a good thing we just solved all of the internet problems in the world lmfao.

Exactly. I'm a firm believer that life skills should be taught in high school. Like how not to be an individual who's completely influenced by something they see on TV or hear on the internet. And how to do certain things, like buy a car, balance a check book, time management, and things of that nature.

I don't think there's anything wrong with that. If anything, it's just human nature. Sounds to me like the concept of "respect" isn't really being used in terms of its definition. Respect on PC tends to me "I tolerate your words because you're human" instead of "I can identify with where you're coming from and have a profound sense of admiration for the things you say and do".

But, that's just the veil of the internet. Not many people like it when someone's words break that fourth wall.

I'm afraid to say I've been caught in that same unconditional niceness whirlwind. It's easier to default to that kindness and reach a compromise than deal with the consequences of one's real feelings and find the roots of the problem in the first place. It's just easier, in a way. But then you turn around, well, you know the rest of the story.

Another problem I see is that this idea of equivalent respect doesn't really exist. Like, of course I respect someones right to do stupid things, but it's hard not to still seek validation for that annoyance. So the idea of judgement is still very much there; just misplaced.

I semi-understand what you mean. I'm a little the same way, but just in the fact that I try to impress myself by being able to impress others. It's a really toolish thing to say, but it is what it is.

I ended up taking the semester off this Spring. As a Nurse I had started doing clinicals - meaning I began working in hospitals and actually applying what I knew - and quickly came to terms that it wasn't what I wanted to do. My family is very prone to anxiety attacks and every time I was in there I could feel my body shaking under the pressure. A few weeks in I ended up dropping all of my classes in pursuit to find something I was more comfortable with, which I believe I have been able to find out now.

It's actually really bad now. I had to go into a hospital just the other day and I could feel my whole body tensing up. My hand was shaking the entire time I was sitting in the waiting room. As silly as it may sound, those few times I was on clinical became a very traumatizing experience for me.

At the same time though, it's impossibly infuriating to not know what's going to happen next. I hate to admit it but I sometimes see myself as a perfectionist, always trying to impress others (especially my parents). They're supplying a substantial amount of money to push me through college so I feel like I'm walking a very thin tightrope when it comes to picking something. It's a lot - if not too much - pressure to handle.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, you are unbelievably real. I can understand why being on staff was a hindrance in a way though; I mean, what fun is PC if you can't even express yourself? People can't be so diplomatic all the time.

I'm glad you found PC again though. Infractions aren't even real, and anyone who knows you knows you're not a spiteful, disrespectful person. So it's moot.

I had a hard time with kik too. I think you just have to search members or something? then enter the username of the person. I only use it to sparingly talk to Gavin, so full usage is completely lost on me. But my username is douxette, so if you find me hit me up.

Once again to be honest, I don't exactly know. My plan initially was to use my Nursing prowess as an asset to help others, but unfortunately due to personal setbacks I ended up dropping my major for another one. I'll probably end up double majoring in Human Services and International Affairs, and somehow use that to advance my motives.

Sincerely, it doesn't really matter what I do. As long as it's something beneficial that will help humanity, I'll always be content with it.

lmfao Tell me about it. But, luckily, it's resolved for now. It seems PC broke even this time. But the whole situation was ridiculous. People can't go around being so butthurt because BAWWWW.

I ♥♥♥♥ing miss you being on staff. You know you can hit me up through kik, right?

Family did it. I want to explore the world and help people at the same time. Unfortunately I could never join the military. I respect it and all, but the pain it would leave my family is something I couldn't bare.