Well, the things I'm wishing for a long time now are...
...learning Japanese one day and everything that comes along with it -> can't happen because I don't know any courses anywhere in this country, and as I've found out lately Japanese seems insanely complex and difficult
...moving out of this country because of its horrendous economical situation its Eastern part is stuck in for the time it existed until now -> can't happen because of that reason; can't get any job that would give me enough money to pay all necessary taxes, rent, etc. etc. and then have enough money left to be able to move abroad
...a total gender transition so I finally could sop having to live a fake life as a male human being which may seem entirely normal to anyone yet is just filled with psychical pain and depression, if I could make that dream happen I'd probably be the most genuinely happy I've ever been in my life -> can't happen because of 3 reasons:
-hormones/a SRS aren't paid by insurances over here, thus I'd need to pay myself, but the costs for such things are astronomical
-the social aspect; I still haven't told anyone IRL about this matter yet and it's really hard for me to do so because I still go to school; what would my classmates think etc. and I don't have any friends that would support me in dark times and neither I have any idea what my parents would do if they got to know about this issue of mine, but how I know them they'd just think I now went psychically completely insane etc. etc.
As you can see it's practically impossible for me to have any nice things really, so I learnt to at least appreciate the smaller things in life
(for example I got this today:
http://i.imgur.com/NUOjxx0.jpg)