Dear Anonymous,
Let go of your pain, let go of your suffering, and look forward to a new tomorrow. I know this sounds incredibly ignorant of me to say, especially with what you've been through and all...but trust me, I know. I've been there, too. But you've changed over the years, and you've become someone...different, not like your old self at all. I just wish you could see that.
If I had a mirror that could possibly show you how much you've changed from approximately seven years ago to now, then I would gladly show you---anything for you to get you to go back to the way you were--because I miss that side about you.
I don't know what to do at this point. Sooner or later, you know as well as I do that I'm going to move out, and then you're going to be on your own. Someday, I'm going to tell you all this, but now isn't the right time. I feel that window of opportunity will present itself when it can, but not now.
But just realize that you have a lot to work on. Whether you work on them or not is up to you, but at least I did my part.