Anxiety

Alexander Nicholi

Alexander Nicholi

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    Are you an anxious person at all? Do you get nervous over insignificant things, or worry about what ought not be worried about? On a scale of one to ten, how bad is your day-to-day anxiety?



    For me, I don't know if I could accurately rate myself on how bad it is, but it has me constantly shaking really bad, and I also have Tourrette's Syndrome which is driven by anxiety. Usually one to two times, maybe more, each day I end up having some sort of attack (I wouldn't know what to call it because it's not a panic attack) where my body tenses up extraordinarily and I kind of... flail a lot, usually on a soft surface so I don't hurt myself like I've done before.. I don't think it's as okay as I thought.



    What of you, then? Hopefully you don't have too much to worry about, but then again a lot of the demographic here is high school and college-level, so I could be wrong.
     
    Kind of? I tend to over think things to the point of being bothered by the smallest of things so I'd say yeah somewhat. If I had to rate myself I'd say about a 4-5?
     
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    yeah definitely
    i don't like going out 'cause i don't do well with groups of people and i get very anxious just seeing someone look at me :/ i tend to read far too much into what they're saying or doing
    that's not to say i'm socially incompetent
    i just really do not like engaging with more than 2 or 3 people at a time
    it's definitely a big problem 'cause it's why i spend a lot of time at home during times of the year when i'm supposed to be at uni

    though oddly enough it's never been a problem when it comes to me pursuing teaching
    probably because i connect with people in a teaching setting far easier than other situations which i find interesting but i'm just gonna roll with it

    i also have a problem with going to sleep 'cause when i try to go to sleep that's without fail the time i focus most on my insecurities and all that i have to do in the coming days and it keeps me awake far longer than i need to be
    the anxiety from that is like a permanent coldness i guess

    idk i'm ****ed up lmao
     
    I'm a bit shy around new people, but I definitely don't have any anxiety problems. Never have.

    I know it's quite unrelated, but I get REALLY worried by the prospect of being late for things. Don't think it's an anxiety kind of worried, though.
     
    I'm in a constant state of anxiety, but I've learned to live with it. I have a couple of fairly debilitating phobic anxities which have more or less dominated my life since I was about six, although I'm learning to overcome them, and I've long since learned to live with them and minimize their impact so I can at least do things. They haven't helped my health any, though.

    I worry mostly about my health, although impending events or appointments can cause me anxiety as well. When I was in education I used to get very worried about deadlines, and I was in a complete state when it came to exams, but I was able to take my mind off it by revising, and the anxiety vanished the moment I opened the paper or submitted the essay. I don't get anxious during events, I get anxious in the run-up to them, because I'm anticipating a complete disaster. Guess that was self-inflicted~

    On a scale of 1 to 10...probably an 8. A 9 or 10 for me would be incapacitation or complete loss of self-control, which doesn't happen very often anymore...like, every six months or so? My last 10 was in June of this year.
     
    My anxiety is so bad. D: I can't do most things a typical person can do because of it either. ._. It used to be even worse, where it would cause depressive tendencies for me though too. I started taking an anti-psychotic, and it has helped eliminate the worst of it. Well, aside from my constant worry of something going wrong. >_< For a scale to one to ten, I'd say it'd be between 7 and 10. My anxiety is said to be a huge part of my autism.
     
    I used to be an extremely level-headed, calm person before I had my first panic attack.

    I won't delve into the poor choices that led up to it, but it was easily the most traumatizing experience of my life to date. Five to six hours of tunnel vision, automatic negative thoughts (ANT's), and true terror kept me in a fetal position until I collapsed in exhaustion and fell asleep. I accepted my death that night.

    Then, brutally aware of what my mind was capable of exhibiting, I was shaken to the core. It took two weeks for the memories to fade; in the meantime, I developed Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and just a new-found anxiety I wasn't used to. It's been about four months since my last panic attack; I abuse zero substances, including caffeine, and after a handful of doctor visits, I'm now ingesting 50,000 IU of Vitamin D every week, as I was found to be extraordinarily deficient. Just one less catalyst, I suppose.

    Things have gotten a lot better, however. I still have lots of anxiety around deadlines and pivotal life events (which used to never be the case), but I'm starting to figure out how to handle this new hurdle, as opposed to running from it.

    7/10.
     
    I used to have some anxiety issues related to my health mostly, but most of it is behind me. (I actually got tired of it cos doctors never really found anything and it kinda went away on its own, together with the "symptoms").

    I do get anxious every now and then, but not to the point where it could be a real medical condition, pretty much in the mild form everyone has every now and then (exams and stuff like that).
     
    All signs show that I have severe anxiety. Believe it or not, I had no ****ing idea what was up with me 'til I took my time to look it up a few weeks ago.

    That said, I'll give it a 6.9/10.

    Edit: Okay, I should've given a lower score. I'm chill most of the time.
     
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    I want to say my anxiety issues started in mid-July. Around that time was a really high point in my life, I had a loving partner to watch over, my life on PC was going good, I was happily barrelling a minimum out for school without worry for my grades... things were great. I was content.

    Towards the beginning of that month things are incredibly fuzzy, but I recall some sort of thing happening between my partner and I, and I don't remember a damn thing about it, but it was when my anxiety swept in for the first time. I ended up losing control over parts of my body out of nervousness, and when I was in the ER after it was nearly over, I came home and found I had been left by my partner. Naturally the anxiety returned, and I lost so much hope over everything in my life that I really decided it wasn't worth putting effort into anymore. I wasn't suicidal (though I did have spells of that), but I had zero motivation to continue anything and everything. I was in the dark about my own reality to the point where I spent about two months scrambling for an exit out of how lost I was, kind of like being blinded in a cave. In that time we left Colorado for South Carolina, stayed there for about a month on edge with my relatives and with the school there, until hopping up again to North Carolina where we moved in with a Mexican friend of ours to stay, since we had exhausted any and all options besides living in our car. As of now, only recently has a void kind of begun to occupy the space where these emotions were, and each day I wake up on edge over the most meaningless things. I've attended four different high schools in the past six months which culminated in me dropping out, and now I'm left with the final obstacle of my parent who doesn't want to come to terms with the fact that I'm growing up. My bipolar disorder is no help at all with all of these emotions, and in addition to that Tourrette Syndrome drives my anxiety into physical outbursts which can be dangerous for my body.

    ...yeah, a lot's happened. I hope it doesn't continue much further.
     
    I'm always nervous in public settings. It's really sad ;-; but I have gotten better since I'm out of a negative environment (high school) and getting away from negative people you would think would have grown up by now. I believe that lead to me getting social anxiety in the first place along with my panic attacks because I used to get picked on so badly for things I like to do and being myself. All these social anxiety symptoms started around in late 10th/early11th grade and was most prominent my senior year.

    The only place that I have heightened states of anxiety is in my Chem class I'm like a 7-9/10 (other times I'm just a 4-5) in but only because this one guy won't stop staring at me no matter what I do. I think it's plain to see I have negative interest in him, I never will date him nor do I want to be his friend anymore even though I thought about it (I like having guy friends over girl friends way more) because he creeps me out. But he apparently has some major issues or can't read body language. I just want to listen to the teacher and maybe draw in class, buzz off. And it sucks I can't move anywhere else because I can't see way in the back and if I moved I would still be near him. I can't wait until the semester is over so I can get the hell away from him.

    But on other occasions, sometimes I get uncomfortable in class because I'm plagued with the "Everyone is looking at me/paying attention to me" thing when in reality everyone is either on their phone, listening to the teacher or off into lala land. I especially feel this way during tests/quizzes, it may be a bit of test anxiety too though. I wish I could go back to 9th grade before all this happened and be like I used to be, daydreaming in class without a care in the world.

    I hate being in the center of attention, I hate being at parties, I hate being around people in general unless we're close friends. I can't eat in public or drink anything because I'm scared I'll get a panic attack while drinking and choke or something because I'm already nervous OTL I'm trying to get better and work on it but eh. I used to be hard on myself but I can't help I'm that way. I get used to the constant shaking, to the neck/full body spasms and if it happens it happens. Now that I'm at a new university no one looks at me any different even if I do kind of spasm in class so that helps heaps too. I started working on my breathing techniques as well because after I read an article on how to calm social anxiety, I realized I wasn't breathing in these situations so my body was reacting. I learned to not care either because a lot of other people do weird things in class too so my sometimes occasional sighing and taking deep breaths shouldn't be a problem.
     
    I'm too anxious in general. I'm always too anxious in fear of messing up, saying something wrong, or in a case that I try something new and it doesn't work at all. I would say that my anxiety level is between an 8 and a 9.
     
    Yes, for health reasons. It sucks.

    I'm normally fine unless eczema decides to hit me in the face, literally, and I'm pretty sure anxiety makes my condition worse, so there's that.

    It's really mostly that I try to avoid people. It's bad enough it's irritating as hell, but being out in the public where people could see how dried out and scaly my face could get as a result from eczema, it's not fun.

    Fortunately my friends never really bring it up, so I feel comfortable with them.
     
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    Between this anxiety thread and that other insecurity thread, you guys have really got me questioning myself XD

    I dunno, one of these maybe possibly to some extent sorta.
     
    Yeah I pretty much get mega anxious around a large group of people. The bigger the group the smaller I feel and the less I feel confident to engage myself. It's easy for me to do 1 on 1 or in a group of up to maybe five. But entering a new school and stuff was always really tough for me, I would be super quiet and have a limited number of friends. Same thing goes for work now, I tend to stay quieter but talk more to my immediate colleagues.

    I don't really know if it's something I should seek help with or just try to deal on my own. I find it very hard to tackle those problems as it's usually a matter of completely ignoring my anxiety and fear, which is pretty hard to do. Anybody who suffers from anxiety will tell you so. It's all kind of a problem I tuck in the back of my mind.
     
    I've anxiety in certain situations and it's a pain in the behind. Especially anxious during job interviews and that's not fun at all because yeah they're important, but then I'm reminded that my reaction is normal. Just wish I didn't have strong rosacea to make it so apparent since my skin gets all red and urgh. >_>; Also have crippling anxiety when it comes to public speaking.. to the point where I constantly made excuses to get out of it in uni. Remember being forced to present something once and freaking out. Ah boo.

    Otherwise I'd say I'm all right. Sometimes I did get nervous conversing with co-workers but that was more or less because I felt like the odd one out, being so new/an intern. Things have gotten a lot better as I put more time into communicating with others and I can only hope it'll get better from here.

    Overall I'd say I'm more of a 5 right now, maybe a 6. It can be frustrating but nothing that really holds me back to any extremes.
     
    Ever since my first panic attack, I've been an anxious mess. Having OCD really doesn't help my case either. I'm a psychological wreck who somehow lives life thanks to the love and support of my family and friends.
     
    I have pretty profound anxiety sometimes, and not so bad anxiety at other times. It really depends on how my bipolar's doing. If I'm an unmedicated mess, I get weird obsessional fears (like thinking I'm allergic to everything, to the point where I'll stop eating, even though I know it's irrational) and get anxious about everything. If I'm doing okay on meds, it's not that bad. I still have some anxieties like driving anxiety, and my PTSD gets triggered from time to time, but it's really not that bad.
     
    As a young kid I was very very sensitive about consequences and such; but the older I've gotten the more relaxed I've gotten about things. I'd still say I have the odd niggle about things like being late for work as probably my MAIN example but I keep pretty level headed most of the time. And there's the odd moments of paranoia "is that person following me", "I have a feeling that tonight is definitely the night that some stranger is going to stab me" but those are rare.

    On a scale of one to ten? Maybe about a three/four.
     
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