I will spare ye the long story and just say that I've been in love with a fella since I met him almost 6 years ago in college, but due to a cartoonish amount of failure/stupidity/bad timing/misunderstandings, it's not even in the stars for us to be just friends, and the feeling was absolutely not mutual. It's been so long that it's more of a running joke between me and my actual friends than it is something that affects my life, especially since he headed to SoCal early last year and I haven't heard from him at all since the end of it. Whatevs.
I haven't been trying to look for people either, at least not till I move to Oregon next year. It's ridiculously rare that someone catches my attention that way. I am hoping the greater concentration nature-loving weird artist nerds up there yields better chances of mutual attraction. Being single for so darn long has had pros and cons (I've really had a chance to soul-search and get to know myself by being single so many years, but Lord do I miss hugs/snuggling/etc. and get jelly when I see solid couples working together on something or people getting married, particularly given my age), and there have been things to keep me occupied like minor puppy-crushes or fleeting bouts of fangirlism.
OP made me lol 'cause my crush is a tiny man currently living in Cali