Dear Anonymous,
I keep second-guessing myself and what I'm feeling. Am I really wanting to walk down this road again, for another time? What's making me want to make the decisions I do - is it me, or is it just that old "want" speaking again? I don't want it to be "just another desire", just another want. For now, I want to keep staying the path I'm going and see if my thoughts and my heart are actually one and the same, rather than just letting my current emotions override everything. I don't want to reflect my thoughts to you or anyone else because honestly I'm afraid to bring you down the road I've taken others. I'm still confused - what exactly am I expecting? What do I want right now?
Would I be doing the right thing if I go through with it? Is it me being selfish again? I don't know what you need, to be honest. I don't know what I need, either. We have so much in common but at the the same time I don't know how much we really have in common. I'm just confused as always, I s'pose. I just want to build you up, not ruin you. I can't do that to anyone again.
Words mean a lot. I hope mine do to you... and I hope I figure out what I'm doing. tl;dr? Let's figure out where we're going.
Dear Anonymous,
I feel like complete BS from what I did to you. I mean, it was entirely unintentional but those are always the worst kind of punches to the gut. "I never meant to" is an excuse and I'm sorry. I can't go back and take back what I said but I can apologize and try to make you smile.
Dear Anonymous,
I'm glad I met you. You and another friend of yours (and now mine) are probably two of the biggest reasons I've been able to keep my head up and my thoughts clear lately. I know you keep telling me to stop apologizing and you give me the same response every time I say "thank you" but for once I want you to feel like it's not like it's just your decision to come by and help me out when I needed it. I'm really glad I have you here.
Dear Anonymouses,
I love all of you guys. Yes, even you, Farmer Bill. I'm glad I have you all.