dear anonymous,
Why hadn't I seen you sooner? You're in two of my classes, and you sit right smack in front of me in Bio, we even face each other! Your crooked nose is so cute, i like how broad your shoulders are, I can't keep my eyes off of you. Do you know you're cute? You have to know... When you laugh, I swear it's the best thing I've heard all day. You claim you're 5'9 but in reality, you aren't any taller than I am. You gotta be 5'6 max! You're not what I dreamed of, not even close, but you keep me coming back every day I see you. Thought I'd get over you after a week or so, like I do with most guys, but I'm not. I want to talk to you more, I wish you weren't so quiet and always on your phone. But perhaps you already have someone else... It might be the best though, I wouldn't want to hurt you. I never follow through with romantic plans. I wouldn't want to get your hopes up and then go running off because I'm scared to get too close to you in fear you'd be uninterested once you really got to know me. To know all the things I like and love. Not that I'm strange, but is it too much for a 20 year old woman to get excited over Pokemon, One Direction and horses/dogs? That sits up writing fic late at night while sipping on Earl Grey tea and letting her cat sleep in the bed? Would you like that? Would you think I was weird and throw me away like everyone else? But then again, after today, would you still want to keep talking to me? Would you still be happy to talk to me, like that very first time when your eyes lit up? I wish you were more open, but I'm also sorry I'm unreadable. You'd never know if I liked you or not until the day I said it. I'm sorry I'm not flirty, I have my own ways of showing feelings. Would you even be able to understand how I go about doing things or would it be too much on you to learn how to deal with me? Would I be way too independent and "uncaring"?
Just wish you'd pay me a bit more attention... but like I said, you probably already have some beautiful girl to call your own.
dear an (multiples),
It doesn't bother me anymore, but it's the fact I have to see a variation of you every day that puts me off. In honestly I wish you'd grow up and leave me alone. Stop trying to make me feel bad about myself because the guys talk to me and not you. Sorry he talks to me? Sorry he sits by me? I'm sorry his friends like me too? I can't control who likes me and who wants to talk to me. Maybe if you weren't being a snotty nosed, stuck up bitch that vomits her insecurities in forms of verbal abuse on every girl you determine a "threat" they'd talk to you too. You're making yourself look like a fool, just stop it already. You're not hurting me, because I could care less and I now know how to deal with your type/what your issue is, you're not hurting him because he already knows what type of girl you are, you're only hurting yourself by being a bitter, nasty, immature girl. This is college, not junior high, grow up.