"Do you stare death in the face and laugh"
*begins old man storytelling*
You know, the closest I've come to death was a few days ago during the weekend. I was at a crossing and the lights had turned amber but the red man was still showing. The middle and the lane furthest from me had stationary traffic. A friend from the opposite side of the crossing begins walking. There's no traffic on the lane nearest to me, so I start crossing too. I get around 3/4 of crossing the first lane and this white van speeding at like 40 mph suddenly blares his horn at me when he's like 5 metres away from me. I didn't even realize I was in danger until he used his horn. I literally only just had time to see it from the corner of my eye and then my reflexes kicked in and I barely did a forward dash to the middle lane. The van didn't even bother slowing down and just sped away after brushing the back of my coat. It was fortunate I was rocking my sunglasses otherwise I might have had the "deer caught in headlights" effect where too many photons enter the eye and the mind cannot process all the information quick enough, thereby delaying the response for the body to react. Had I turned my head fully to see the van properly or had my reactions been even a fraction of a second longer, I would have been run over. At the very least, I would have been hospitalized but most likely, it would have been an instant death. After the near miss, I continued crossing the road and put a hand over my face and started laughing quietly to myself. I'm a bit mad like that.
Anyway I train with different Senseis. But they say the same thing in regards to the following situation. They tell me if I get into a confrontation - especially if the opponent is armed with a knife or something - I should run as fast as I can in the opposite direction. Run away and live to fight another day. It doesn't matter if people call me a coward, at least I'm still alive.
I'm also told that if escape is not an option, use whatever force is necessary to protect myself from harm. If the situation demands it, I will fight with everything I have. I suppose I'm fairly brave when it comes to some things, but cowardly when it comes to others.