Meditation. I know it sounds stupid but meditations a natural way to relieve stress, anxiety, depression, any negative emotions but you have to do it properly and consistency is key.
Not saying I disagree with this; however, if the "abusive household" involves lots of noise, meditation may not be enough when competing with background noise (and potentially physical). That said, I would recommend giving yourself (OP) space where noise is kept at a minimum before attempting this in earnest.
[QUOTE[I know how it feels. But I'm gonna be 100 with you. The less friends the better, I learned this the hard way. The truth is, in this day and age most people are self centered and only care about themselves.[/QUOTE]
Again, I'm not necessarily disagreeing but clarifying here: not so such about having less friends but better quality friends that allow deep(er) levels of communication & trust as opposed to merely having more people in your life to use for social validation and/or escapism. Sometimes, this means having more quality friends but not the point your relational ceiling (for lack of a better term) becomes distilled.
By meditating you will get deep within yourself and be able to seek guidance to gain better understanding, acceptance, love, communication, list goes on.
Not mention being able to examine your actions from an observer's perspective whilst not being as much a slave to being in the moment, which I would like to think is an important factor in a chaotic setting.
The more you do it, the easier it is to release your negative thought patterns. You need to find yourself, link your spirit back up cause I can tell it's lost.
Having someone the OP can trust could help fill in gaps to "link your spirit" via various forms of feedback, which could involve the aforementioned friends and/or professional help. Heck, finding a mentor could serve this purpose as well whilst learning (marketable) skills.
I have to question the whole part about not having friends anywhere. I've seen you here and how you post, I know that's not true.
You do have friends here at least.
I assume the OP is referring to real life, which could help if there were more tangible relationships to help disconnect from the chaotic environment.
Also, while we're at it, what are your nutritional habits looking like? Do you consume lots of carbs---in particular, added sugars? Do you consume alcoholic beverages and/or recreational/prescription drugs? The reason I'm asking this is that it's possible your biology could be working against you & exacerbating the issue.
